The Essential Guy de Maupassant Collection. Guy de Maupassant

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      But suddenly an idea took him by storm. This fortune which had come to him. Would an honest man keep it?

      "No," was the first immediate answer, and he made up his mind that it must go to the poor. It was hard, but it could not be helped. He would sell his furniture and work like any other man, like any other beginner. This manful and painful resolution spurred his courage; he rose and went to the window, leaning his forehead against the pane. He had been poor; he could become poor again. After all he should not die of it. His eyes were fixed on the gas lamp burning at the opposite side of the street. A woman, much belated, happened to pass; suddenly he thought of Mme. Rosemilly with a pang at his heart, the shock of deep feeling which comes of a cruel suggestion. All the dire results of his decision rose up before him together. He would have to renounce his marriage, renounce happiness, renounce everything. Could he do such a thing after having pledged himself to her? She had accepted him knowing him to be rich. She would take him still if he were poor; but had he any right to demand such a sacrifice? Would it not be better to keep this money in trust, to be restored to the poor at some future date.

      And in his soul, where selfishness put on a guise of honesty, all these specious interests were struggling and contending. His first scruples yielded to ingenious reasoning, then came to the top again, and again disappeared.

      He sat down again, seeking some decisive motive, some all-sufficient pretext to solve his hesitancy and convince his natural rectitude. Twenty times over had he asked himself this question: "Since I am this man's son, since I know and acknowledge it, is it not natural that I should also accept the inheritance?"

      But even this argument could not suppress the "No" murmured by his inmost conscience.

      Then came the thought: "Since I am not the son of the man I always believed to be my father, I can take nothing from him, neither during his lifetime nor after his death. It would be neither dignified nor equitable. It would be robbing my brother."

      This new view of the matter having relieved him and quieted his conscience, he went to the window again.

      "Yes," he said to himself, "I must give up my share of the family inheritance. I must let Pierre have the whole of it, since I am not his father's son. That is but just. Then is it not just that I should keep my father's money?"

      Having discerned that he could take nothing of Roland's savings, having decided on giving up the whole of this money, he agreed; he resigned himself to keeping Marechal's; for if he rejected both he would find himself reduced to beggary.

      This delicate question being thus disposed of he came back to that of Pierre's presence in the family. How was he to be got rid of? He was giving up his search for any practical solution when the whistle of a steam-vessel coming into port seemed to blow him an answer by suggesting a scheme.

      Then he threw himself on his bed without undressing, and dozed and dreamed till daybreak.

      At a little before nine he went out to ascertain whether his plans were feasible. Then, after making sundry inquiries and calls, he went to his old home. His mother was waiting for him in her room.

      "If you had not come," she said, "I should never have dared to go down."

      In a minute Roland's voice was heard on the stairs: "Are we to have nothing to eat to-day, hang it all?"

      There was no answer, and he roared out, with a thundering oath this time: "Josephine, what the devil are you about?"

      The girl's voice came up from the depths of the basement.

      "Yes, M'sieu--what is it?"

      "Where is your Miss'es?"

      "Madame is upstairs with M'sieu Jean."

      Then he shouted, looking up at the higher floor: "Louise!"

      Mme. Roland half opened her door and answered:

      "What is it, my dear?"

      "Are we to have nothing to eat to-day, hang it all?"

      "Yes, my dear, I am coming."

      And she went down, followed by Jean.

      Roland, as soon as he saw him, exclaimed:

      "Hallo! There you are! Sick of your home already?"

      "No, father, but I had something to talk over with mother this morning."

      Jean went forward holding out his hand, and when he felt his fingers in the old man's fatherly clasp, a strange, unforeseen emotion thrilled through him, and a sense as of parting and farewell without return.

      Mme. Roland asked:

      "Pierre is not come down?"

      Her husband shrugged his shoulders.

      "No, but never mind him; he is always behind-hand. We will begin without him."

      She turned to Jean:

      "You had better go to call him, my child; it hurts his feelings if we do not wait for him."

      "Yes, mother. I will go."

      And the young man went. He mounted the stairs with the fevered determination of a man who is about to fight a duel and who is in a fright. When he knocked at the door Pierre said:

      "Come in."

      He went in. The elder was writing, leaning over his table.

      "Good-morning," said Jean.

      Pierre rose.

      "Good-morning!" and they shook hands as if nothing had occurred.

      "Are you not coming down to breakfast?"

      "Well--you see--I have a good deal to do." The elder brother's voice was tremulous, and his anxious eye asked his younger brother what he meant to do.

      "They are waiting for you."

      "Oh! There is--is my mother down?"

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