Prison Memoirs of an Anarchist. Berkman Alexander

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СКАЧАТЬ It comes from somewhere alongside. “Can’t talk, eh? ’Sorderly, guess.”

      What am I in for? Oh, yes! It’s Frick. Well, I shall not stay here long, anyhow. They will soon take me out—they will lean me against a wall—a slimy wall like this, perhaps. They will bandage my eyes, and the soldiers there…. No: they are going to hang me. Well, I shall be glad when they take me out of here. I am so dry. I’m suffocating.…

…The upright irons of the barred door grow faint, and melt into a single line; it adjusts itself crosswise between the upper and side sills. It resembles a scaffold, and there is a man sinking the beam into the ground. He leans it carefully against the wall, and picks up a spade. Now he stands with one foot in the hole. It is the carpenter! He hit me on the head. From behind, too, the coward. If he only knew what he had done. He is one of the People: we must go to them, enlighten them. I wish he’d look up. He doesn’t know his real friends. He looks like a Russian peasant, with his broad back. What hairy arms he has! If he would only look up.… Now he sinks the beam into the ground; he is stamping down the earth. I will catch his eye as he turns around. Ah, he didn’t look! He has his eyes always on the ground. Just like the muzhik.38 Now he is taking a few steps backward, critically examining his work. He seems pleased. How peculiar the cross-piece looks. The horizontal beam seems too long; out of proportion. I hope it won’t break. I remember the feeling I had when my brother once showed me the picture of a man dangling from the branch of a tree. Underneath was inscribed, The Execution of Stenka Razin.39 “Didn’t the branch break?” I asked. “No, Sasha,” mother replied, “Stenka—well, he weighed nothing”; and I wondered at the peculiar look she exchanged with Maxim. But mother smiled sadly at me, and wouldn’t explain. Then she turned to my brother: “Maxim, you must not bring Sashenka such pictures. He is too young.” “Not too young, mamotchka, to learn that Stenka was a great man.” “What! You young fool,” father bristled with anger, “he was a murderer, a common rioter.” But mother and Maxim bravely defended Stenka, and I was deeply incensed at father, who despotically terminated the discussion. “Not another word, now! I won’t hear any more of that peasant criminal.” The peculiar divergence of opinion perplexed me. Anybody could tell the difference between a murderer and a worthy man. Why couldn’t they agree? He must have been a good man, I finally decided. Mother wouldn’t cry over a hanged murderer: I saw her stealthily wipe her eyes as she looked at that picture. Yes, Stenka Razin was surely a noble man. I cried myself to sleep over the unspeakable injustice, wondering how I could ever forgive “them” the killing of the good Stenka, and why the weak-looking branch did not break with his weight. Why didn’t it break?… The scaffold they will prepare for me might break with my weight. They’ll hang me like Stenka, and perhaps a little boy will some day see the picture—and they will call me murderer—and only a few will know the truth—and the picture will show me hanging from… No, they shall not hang me!

My hand steals to the lapel of my coat, and a deep sense of gratification comes over me, as I feel the nitroglycerine cartridge secure in the lining.40 I smile at the imaginary carpenter. Useless preparations! I have, myself, prepared for the event. No, they won’t hang me. My hand caresses the long, narrow tube. Go ahead! Make your gallows. Why, the man is putting on his coat. Is he done already? Now he is turning around. He is looking straight at me. Why, it’s Frick! Alive?…

      My brain is on fire. I press my head against the bars, and groan heavily. Alive? Have I failed? Failed?…

      II

      Heavy footsteps approach nearer; the clanking of the keys grows more distinct. I must compose myself. Those mocking, unfriendly eyes shall not witness my agony. They could allay this terrible uncertainty, but I must seem indifferent.

Would I “take lunch with the Chief”?41 I decline, requesting a glass of water. Certainly; but the Chief wishes to see me first. Flanked on each side by a policeman, I pass through winding corridors, and finally ascend to the private office of the Chief. My mind is busy with thoughts of escape, as I carefully note the surroundings. I am in a large, well-furnished room, the heavily curtained windows built unusually high above the floor. A brass railing separates me from the roll-top desk, at which a middle-aged man, of distinct Irish type, is engaged with some papers.

      “Good morning,” he greets me, pleasantly. “Have a seat,” pointing to a chair inside the railing. “I understand you asked for some water?”

      “Yes.”

      “Just a few questions first. Nothing important. Your pedigree, you know. Mere matter of form. Answer frankly, and you shall have everything you want.”

      His manner is courteous, almost ingratiating.

      “Now tell me, Mr. Berkman, what is your name? Your real name, I mean.”

      “That’s my real name.”

      “You don’t mean you gave your real name on the card you sent in to Mr. Frick?”

      “I gave my real name.”

      “And you are an agent of a New York employment firm?”

      “No.”

      “That was on your card.”

      “I wrote it to gain access to Frick.”

      “And you gave the name ‘Alexander Berkman’ to gain access?”

      “No. I gave my real name. Whatever might happen, I did not want anyone else to be blamed.”

      “Are you a Homestead striker?”

      “No.”

      “Why did you attack Mr. Frick?”

      “He is an enemy of the People.”

      “You got a personal grievance against him?”

      “No. I consider him an enemy of the People.”

      “Where do you come from?”

      “From the station cell.”

      “Come, now, you may speak frankly, Mr. Berkman. I am your friend. I am going to give you a nice, comfortable cell. The other—”

      “Worse than a Russian prison,” I interrupt, angrily.

      “How long did you serve there?”

      “Where?”

      “In the prison in Russia.”

      “I was never before inside a cell.”

      “Come, now, Mr. Berkman, tell the truth.”

      He motions to the officer behind my chair. The window curtains are drawn aside, exposing me to the full glare of the sunlight. My gaze wanders to the clock on the wall. The hour-hand points to V. The calendar on the desk reads, July—23—Saturday. Only three hours since my arrest? It seemed so long in the cell.…

      “You can be quite frank with me,” the inquisitor is saying. “I know a good deal more about you than you think. We’ve got your friend Rak-metov.”

      With difficulty I suppress a smile at the stupidity of the intended trap. In the register of the hotel where I passed the first night in Pittsburgh, I signed “Rakhmetov,” the name of the hero in Chernishevsky’s famous novel.

      “Yes, we’ve got your friend, and we know all about you.”

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