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      it’s extremely uncomfortable.

      it will have you lost, confused, anxious, depressed,

      below rock bottom, triggered and sometimes hopeless.

      it’s not just bubble baths, self care, face masks and candles.

      it’s getting up when you don’t feel like it,

      it’s leaving your comfort zone,

      leaving the only things you may ever know of,

      cutting certain people off,

      unlearning some things to learn the right things.

      don’t get me wrong, at the end it’s really a beautiful journey

      and i’m not saying to hate it or despise it.

      i’m just tired of it being tossed around so loosely.

       -you ever had to re open your wounds

       you thought were healed just to fully heal?

      quiet

      strength and peace is when you no longer care about other people knowing your side of the story.

      ONLY 1 HER

      pure, holy, divine, the truth

      a God fearing woman

      her love

      her touch

      her energy

      her soul

      her heart

      her mind

      her voice

      her body

      her laughs

      her femininity

      her beliefs

      her strengths

      her impact

      her legacy

      her loyalty

      her knowledge

      her worship

      her roots

      her growth

      her testimonies

      her story

      i am her

      there is only 1 of me

       -and you will only get to fully experience me once.

      the irony

      too many words not enough action

      too many apologies not enough change

      too many wrongs too much forgiveness

       -love can be such a contradiction

      3

      notice who's always silent. notice who always has something negative to say every time you tell them your vision or tell them about something good that God did for you.

      szns

      the dark season that you're in isn't permanent

      after winter is spring

      after spring is summer

      after summer is fall

       -change is inevitable so you might as well embrace every moment

       and lesson in each season.

      prayers

      they keep saying i'll see better days soon but i don't know when

      i tell myself to stop writing about you

      but my mind continues to bleed

      God is the only one who can save me

      would you have let him take me?

      i'm exhausted

      mentally

      spiritually

      physically

      i'm praying every day and night to heal my pain

      this shit isn't for the aesthetics

      you'll never get it

      i had to replace my addiction of you with this journal

      so instead of calling you up this would be the closest i'll get to it

      my heart has sunken deeper into my stomach

      the deeper i go onto the surface of this paper with this pen

      they keep saying i'll see better days soon but i don't know when

      so i keep my faith too and i keep asking god, "but when is soon?"

      2 corinthians 5:7

      walk by crazy faith

      not by sight

      don't let your current situation aka what you see with your sight

      determine your faith towards your vision.

      matthew 14:29

      what is faith?

      she was in a boat barely surviving

      in an ocean full of chaos

      God showed up in the midst of it

      he said to her, "come"

      she had wavy faith

      but she stood up

      she stepped out of the boat

      her and god both walked on water

      vibes

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