The Trespasser. Дэвид Герберт Лоуренс

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      Chapter V

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      V

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      They found the fire burning brightly in their room. The only other person in the pretty, stiffly-furnished cottage was their landlady, a charming old lady who let this sitting-room more for the change, for the sake of having visitors, than for gain.

      Helena introduced Siegmund as “My friend.” The old lady smiled upon him. He was big, and good-looking, and embarrassed. She had had a son years back. … And the two were lovers. She hoped they would come to her house for their honeymoon.

      Siegmund sat in his great horse-hair chair by the fire, while Helena attended to the lamp. Glancing at him over the glowing globe, she found him watching her with a small, peculiar smile of irony, and anger, and bewilderment. He was not quite himself. Her hand trembled so, she could scarcely adjust the wicks.

      Helena left the room to change her dress.

      “I shall be back before Mrs. Curtiss brings in the tray. There is the Nietzsche I brought——”

      He did not answer as he watched her go. Left alone, he sat with his arms along his knees, perfectly still. His heart beat heavily, and all his being felt sullen, watchful, aloof, like a balked animal. Thoughts came up in his brain like bubbles—random, hissing out ​aimlessly. Once, in the startling inflammability of his blood, his veins ran hot, and he smiled.

      When Helena entered the room his eyes sought hers swiftly, as sparks lighting on the tinder. But her eyes were only moist with tenderness. His look instantly changed. She wondered at his being so silent, so strange.

      Coming to him in her unhesitating, womanly way—she was only twenty-six to his thirty-eight—she stood before him, holding both his hands and looking down on him with almost gloomy tenderness. She wore a white dress that showed her throat gathering like a fountain-jet of solid foam to balance her head. He could see the full white arms passing clear through the dripping spume of lace, towards the rise of her breasts. But her eyes bent down upon him with such gloom of tenderness that he dared not reveal the passion burning in him. He could not look at her. He strove almost pitifully to be with her sad, tender, but he could not put out his fire. She held both his hands firm, pressing them in appeal for her dream love. He glanced at her wistfully, then turned away. She waited for him. She wanted his caresses and tenderness. He would not look at her.

      “You would like supper now, dear?” she asked, looking where the dark hair ended, and his neck ran smooth, under his collar, to the strong setting of his shoulders.

      “Just as you will,” he replied.

      Still she waited, and still he would not look at her. Something troubled him, she thought. He was foreign to her.

      “I will spread the cloth, then,” she said, in deep tones of resignation. She pressed his hands closely, ​and let them drop. He took no notice, but, still with his arms on his knees, he stared into the fire.

      In the golden glow of lamplight she set small bowls of white and lavender sweets-peas, and mignonette, upon the round table. He watched her moving, saw the stir of her white, sloping shoulders under the lace, and the hollow of her shoulders firm as marble, and the slight rise and fall of her loins as she walked. He felt as if his breast were scalded. It was a physical pain to him.

      Supper was very quiet. Helena was sad and gentle; he had a peculiar, enigmatic look in his eyes, between suffering and mockery and love. He was quite intractable; he would not soften to her, but remained there aloof. He was tired, and the look of weariness and suffering was evident to her through his strangeness. In her heart she wept.

      At last she tinkled the bell for supper to be cleared. Meanwhile, restlessly, she played fragments of Wagner on the piano.

      “Will you want anything else?” asked the smiling old landlady.

      “Nothing at all, thanks,” said Helena, with decision.

      “Oh! Then I think I will go to bed when I’ve washed the dishes. You will put the lamp out, dear?”

      “I am well used to a lamp,” smiled Helena. “We use them always at home.”

      She had had a day before Siegmund’s coming, in which to win Mrs. Curtiss’ heart, and she had been successful. The old lady took the tray.

      “Good-night, dear good-night, sir. I will leave you. You will not be long, dear?”

      ​“No, we shall not be long. Mr. MacNair is very evidently tired out.”

      “Yes—yes. It is very tiring, London.”

      When the door was closed, Helena stood a moment undecided, looking at Siegmund. He was lying in his armchair in a dispirited way, and looking in the fire. As she gazed at him with troubled eyes, he happened to glance to her, with the same dark, curiously searching, disappointed eyes.

      “Shall I read to you?” she asked bitterly.

      “If you will,” he replied.

      He sounded so indifferent, she could scarcely refrain from crying. She went and stood in front of him, looking down on him heavily.

      “What is it, dear?” she said.

      “You,” he replied, smiling with a little grimace.

      “Why me?”

      He smiled at her ironically, then closed his eyes. She slid into his arms with a little moan. He took her on his knee, where she curled up like a heavy white cat. She let him caress her with his mouth, and did not move, but lay there curled up and quiet and luxuriously warm.

      He kissed her hair, which was beautifully fragrant of itself, and time after time drew between his lips one long, keen thread, as if he would ravel out with his mouth her vigorous confusion of hair. His tenderness of love was like a soft flame lapping her voluptuously.

      After a while they heard the old lady go upstairs. Helena went very still, and seemed to contract. Siegmund himself hesitated in his love-making. All was very quiet. They could hear a faint breathing of the sea. Presently the cat, which had been sleeping in a chair, rose and went to the door.

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