Close Your Eyes. Amanda Eyre Ward

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      ‘So you’re going to write about . . . about saving money?’

      ‘Oh, hon,’ said Gerry, ‘that’s just the beginning.’ As I drank coffee and nibbled a stale scone, Gerry talked about blog ad revenue, webcasts, social networks, and later, T-shirt sales and personal appearances. He outlined his plans for the dilapidated shed, which was to become the center of the cheapskate empire. He was never going to work for ‘the man’ again. In fact, he was working against the man!

      I nodded and smiled, hoping against hope for an upturn in the real estate market, acknowledging with more than a little fear that my boyfriend might be turning into my deadbeat father.

      Still, I felt a measure of pride as Alex and I pulled in to the driveway and could see Gerry through the grimy shed window, his face illuminated by the halogen bulb he’d installed. ‘Still at it, eh?’ said Alex.

      I sighed. ‘He’s working really hard.’

      Leaning against the car with our arms full of groceries, we watched Gerry gesticulate. His voice rose in the balmy night. ‘And they’ll tell you you have to get two of the same burgers to get the Hut’s two-for-one deal. But I’m here to give you the inside scoop, people. Your wife likes a cheeseburger, and you’re a plain-beef guy? Bring a slice of cheese in your pocket! And that’s the Mr. Cheapskate Secret Scam of the Day. So do good work, people, play hard, and BE CHEAP!’

      ‘Whoa,’ said Alex.

      ‘He actually has a medium-sized audience,’ I said.

      ‘That’s great,’ said Alex, starting to walk toward the house with his bag.

      ‘It’s wonderful,’ I said insistently. My dog, Handsome, came bounding out of the house to greet us, and I knelt down to scratch behind his ears.

      Alex gave Gerry the big news as he made himself at home, opening the wine, pouring himself a glass. Then he said, ‘Before I go, I’m dragging Lauren on a road trip.’ Gerry, unpacking the groceries, turned around to meet my gaze questioningly.

      ‘It’s my final wish,’ said Alex, taking the box of cookies out of Gerry’s hand and helping himself. ‘She can’t refuse me. Besides, we haven’t seen Gramma since after the Astros game last spring.’

      ‘Please don’t be morbid,’ I said. I sank into the couch, suddenly both ravenous and exhausted. ‘Or is it moribund?’

      ‘Alex,’ said Gerry, ‘I want you to know I really admire what you’re doing.’

      ‘Jeez, Gerry,’ said Alex, ‘thanks.’

      ‘I think it’s ridiculous,’ I said. ‘Doctors Without Borders? What’s wrong with borders? That’s what I’d like to know. I like borders. They make sense to me.’

      Both Alex and Gerry ignored my commentary. As they ate the dinner I had so carefully prepared, they talked about how Alex would get to Iraq (Austin to JFK, then through Jordan, which had been our mother’s name and so seemed portentous, foreboding), what he was bringing (clothes, medicine, and lots of music), if perhaps the love of his life was also packing her stethoscope to join Médecins Sans Frontières (not likely but not impossible). I ate silently, then said I was headed to bed. No one seemed to mind.

      I took two Tylenol PMs and lay on the memory-foam mattress I’d bought when I sold my first house. I listened to my brother and my boyfriend talk: a sweet lullaby.

      ‘You’re still in your clothes,’ said Gerry, unbuttoning my blouse.

      ‘Is he going to die?’ I said. ‘Do you think he wants to?’

      ‘He didn’t pick Iraq,’ said Gerry. ‘Doctors Without Borders could have sent him to Mexico or Thailand.’ He put his warm hand on my stomach.

      ‘But they didn’t,’ I said.

      Gerry kissed me. ‘I think a road trip is a great idea.’

      ‘You do?’

      ‘He’s really jazzed about it.’

      ‘I know,’ I said.

      ‘Besides,’ said Gerry, ‘I just checked: they’re having a special at Beachview Cabins in Galveston. You can write about it for Cheapskate on the Road.’

      ‘I don’t even want to know.’

      ‘Cheapskate on Holiday?’

      I touched my boyfriend’s cheek. ‘You really love this, don’t you?’ I said.

      ‘Yes,’ said Gerry.

      ‘I’m glad.’

      ‘So you’ll attach a tripod and camera to the Dodge?’

      While trying to think of a witty protestation, I fell deeply asleep.

       Chapter 2

      As a medical student working through his residency, Alex had very little time for messing around on the computer. Nevertheless, he arrived at my house with hours of downloaded music and This American Life episodes and the adaptor cords and hookups that would enable his iPod to connect to my car’s meager sound system.

      ‘I wish I could come with you guys,’ said Gerry, pressing firmly on the six-inch suction cups that he believed would hold a large video camera to the car. ‘But you know, being a webersonality is a round-the-clock job.’

      Luckily, being a real estate agent in a terrible economy was not. The Gelthorps had decided to hold off on buying, and a prospective client from Los Angeles had canceled. ‘Maybe it’s time for a career reevaluation,’ I’d said to Gerry that morning.

      ‘What about massage-therapy school?’ he said.

      ‘Honey, somebody’s got to have an income.’

      Gerry rubbed his left shoulder. ‘I’ll go back to programming,’ he said. ‘I know I’ll have to eventually.’

      ‘No, no,’ I said when what I meant was I’m so glad you know.

      ‘A man’s got to support his . . .’ said Gerry.

      ‘His lady?’ I said brightly.

      ‘His family,’ said Gerry. ‘I was going to say his family.’

      I looked at the floor and bit my bottom lip. I couldn’t meet Gerry’s eyes, couldn’t bear to see the frustrated hope in them.

      Gerry watched as Alex and I pulled out of the driveway for the three-hour drive to Houston, and then he went back into the shed to begin the day’s programming. (He had made us a list of the least expensive gas stations en route, adding a star next to the Austin Valero Mart, where we could get jumbo coffees for the price of small.)

      Alex, in the passenger seat, looked jaunty and cheerful, fresh-shaven for the first time in a while. His hair, like our father’s, was dark and curly. It was endlessly frustrating to me that while my swarthy coloring and thick locks were the bane of СКАЧАТЬ