But Inside I'm Screaming. Elizabeth Flock

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      “Tom?” Her tone serious.

      “Isabel?” His tone joking.

      “Seriously. About last night.” She shifted uncomfortably.

      “Forget it.”

      “No, I want to say this.” Isabel cleared her throat. “I drank way too much. I know that. I just…I mean…I just really…oh, God.”

      “Hey. Colonel. It’s me.”

      “I know, I know. It’s just that my life is going way too fast. And then I feel this pressure thing up here at my temples and I see spots and I go blank. It’s like I’m spiraling or something. Do you ever feel that way? Don’t you ever want to slow it all down so you can think, really think for a minute? I never mean to get out of control like that. I don’t plan it. God, listen to me. I just want you to know that I’m really grateful to you for taking such good care of me. I don’t know what I’d do without you.”

      “There’d be no one for the bartender to call to carry your ass home, that’s what you’d do without me.”

      Isabel winced with the memory.

      “I’ve been there, believe me,” Tom said. “I’m no one to talk. But you gotta be more careful, Iz. A woman passing out in a bar isn’t exactly cool, you know?”

      “I know, I know.” Isabel knew she was sounding defensive. “I’m just going through a phase.”

      “Yeah, yeah, yeah. You say that every time.”

      I do?

      “This phase of yours is gettin’ old and dangerous, know what I’m saying?”

      Isabel looked as if she’d been slapped.

      “Hey, listen.” Tom softened. “What goes on in the field stays in the field. Copy that? You read me? I’ll always cover you.”

      Several minutes later Isabel looked at Tom.

      “Hey, Tommy, the nineties called. They want all Wayne’s World references back.”

      “Huh?”

      “I haven’t heard ‘ex-squeeze me’ in years.”

      “Very funny. Let’s go, huh? I want some fries to go with my biscuit. Get it? Fries? Execution? Get it?”

      Five minutes later reporter and photographer were inching their car back into the prison parking lot jammed with news vans and satellite dishes smiling up at the sun. Overworked generators crowded parking spaces alongside the trucks. Worried producers scurried into and out of their makeshift offices while reporters scribbled on notepads and talked to whomever was speaking in their ears.

      “How long till the magic hour?” Tom asked.

      “Six hours. Long enough. Why? You in a hurry to get to the hotel?”

      “Motel 6? That’s a negative.”

      Seven hours later she collapsed on the top of the natty motel bedspread, too exhausted to undress.

      * * *

      Beep, beep.

      “Mom, wait up!” Isabel called out from across the congested street. “Dad? Wait for me!”

      Beep, beep. The cars demanded attention. Beep, beep.

      Isabel’s parents glanced over their shoulders at their daughter, who was waving frantically from nearly a block away. Unfazed, they kept walking.

      Why aren’t they listening to me?

      Beep, beep.

      “Mom!” Isabel was now shouting to them. “Dad!”

      Beep, beep.

      The honking was so close her head snapped from the parental dots in the distance to the car speeding directly toward her. Isabel’s eyes widened in fear but her body was immobilized. Swerving, the car was feet away and showing no signs of stopping.

      Ten feet. Beep, beep. Eight feet. Beep, beep. Two feet.

      She shrieked and bolted upright in bed. It took Isabel a few moments to realize it had all been a nightmare. She put her hand over her heart as if she could stroke the beat back down.

      Beep, beep.

      Startled again she looked over at the hotel night table and saw that the insistent car horn of her dream was the deceivingly harmless-looking tiny black pager.

      She reached for it and instantly recognized the number screaming at her through the neon green glow of the LCD display. She picked up the phone and dialed.

      “Hi, it’s Isabel returning my page.” She tried not to sound as panicked as she felt.

      “We’ve been calling you but your ringer must be off,” Rob, the assignment editor, said.

      “Oh, God.” Isabel remembered turning it off when she came in hours earlier. “I haven’t slept in three days and I wanted to get a—”

      “We do need to be able to get a hold of you as quickly as possible,” Rob scolded. “We need you to get to Atlanta as quickly as possible. Can you call the airlines and call me back to let me know what flight you’re on? You don’t have a fax, right, so I’ll fax wire copy to the Avis counter at the airport in Atlanta. That’s the only way I can think to get you this stuff without holding you up.”

      Rob paused as though he were trying to come up with a better solution.

      “What’s the story?” Though she was fairly new at the network, Isabel was almost certain it wasn’t asking too much to inquire after the subject of the trip.

      “Oh, geez,” Rob sighed. “I’ve been burning it on both ends tonight. Sorry. Um, we’ve gotten a heads-up that we could get a verdict in that police brutality case first thing in the morning. We want you in place so we’re covered if it comes down.”

      “Okay. I’ll call the airlines and let you know.”

      It would be only a matter of months until the excitement and intrigue Isabel felt upon hanging up the phone this night shifted into a howling bitterness, an exhausted dread that slowly ate away at her until she was nothing but a hollow shell mechanically moving through her formerly full life.

      * * *

      “Isabel! Time to meet!” The rapping on the door, coupled with the shrill announcement, cause her stomach to twist with dread.

      Seven

      “I love chicken wings,” says Ben, looking quite earnest. “Any kind, but in particular I love the barbecued ones at Bobby D’s near where I live.” Ben does not seem to care that there is a huge smudge of СКАЧАТЬ