New Year, New Man. Natalie Anderson

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       Chapter Ten

      Josh rubbed his hand over his face and gave a weary look around yet another store filled with racks of women’s clothes. How many different shops had he been into today? More than in the past ten years if he had to guess. After eating, Claire had led them from one end of the ritzy neighborhood to the other.

      She’d promised this would be the last one, and Josh couldn’t be finished soon enough. His knee ached, his head pounded and all he wanted was to get out of the city and up into the mountains again. Sara had gamely kept up with Claire’s boundless energy, but even she’d begun to wilt a little as she’d followed his daughter back to the fitting rooms.

      He’d also noticed that in the whole day, Sara hadn’t purchased one thing for herself. All of her attention remained focused on Claire’s needs. He knew Claire had never had that with her own mother, and it made his heart open to Sara all the more.

      “I’m not sure that’s your size,” a voice said next to him.

      Sara stood just to the side of a rack of dresses, eyeing him with a smile.

      He looked down at the soft fabric he clutched to his chest, then held up the dress. “It would look good on you,” he said softly.

      Her eyes sparked, whether with humor or temper he couldn’t tell. “Today isn’t about me.”

      “You haven’t seen anything you want?”

      “Doesn’t matter.” She sighed. “I don’t have the money for new clothes.”

      He ignored the way his gut tightened at her comment. “I thought maybe Colorado wasn’t trendy enough for you.”

      “What do you know about trendy?”

      “More than I ever wanted to after today.” He held the dress out. “Try it on,” he coaxed, suddenly wanting to see her in something other than her chosen uniform of jeans and shapeless T-shirts.

      “No point,” she answered, but he thought he saw a sliver of longing in her gaze. Josh knew all about longing these days. Although he found it hard to believe, Sara had almost as many walls built up as he did. Right now, he wanted to crash through each and every one of them.

      “You’re right, though,” he told her. “It doesn’t matter what you wear. The bottom line is you’re beautiful.”

      She took a step toward him and reached for the dress. “I’m not sure—”

      “What do you think?”

      He and Sara turned as Claire came from the back of the store. Josh felt his eyes widen. “I think you have thirty seconds to take that off and put on a decent outfit.”

      Sara’s mouth dropped open as her gaze traveled up and down Claire. The saleswoman who’d followed Claire from the dressing room quickly backed away as Sara shot her a glare.

      His daughter wore a skintight, black lace concoction that revealed more skin than it covered. Suddenly, he saw her not as his little girl but as a woman, one who was quickly going to rival her supermodel mother in the looks department. He had a visceral need to polish a shotgun or move to Tibet. Anything to avoid what the next few years held for him as a father.

      “That’s not the dress we’d picked,” Sara said carefully.

      Claire did a quick twirl, and he realized the dress was practically backless. He growled low under his breath. “No. Way.”

      “Dad,” Claire whined, her bright smile turning to a pout. “Don’t be a stick-in-the-mud. I saw Mom wearing something like this in a magazine last month. I want to have something she’ll like when I go to visit her before school starts.”

      “You don’t have a trip planned to see your mother,” Josh argued. “And you’re not going anywhere in that dress.”

      Claire’s tiny hands came to rest on her hips. “I want to see her. I texted this morning and asked when she’d be back in New York. I could fly out next month if it works for her.”

      “What did she answer?”

      Claire’s mouth thinned, and she didn’t meet his gaze. “She hasn’t responded yet. But she will. You know how Mom does things last minute. I want to be ready.”

      “You aren’t going to ‘fly out’ to be with her. We’re spending the summer in Colorado.”

      Claire shook her head. “You can’t stop me.”

      “The hell I can’t,” he shot back.

      “You’re not the boss of me.”

      “I’m your father and you’ll do as I say.”

      “She’s my mom. You can’t keep me from her.”

      He couldn’t think straight with Claire in that dress, looking so grown-up and out of his control. He had to keep her safe. He’d do anything, say anything to make sure she stayed with him. “I’m not keeping you from her,” he yelled. “She doesn’t want—”

      He broke off, knowing the words were a mistake as soon as he said them.

      “Me,” Claire finished on a sob. “You think she doesn’t want me.”

      He watched his daughter’s eyes fill with tears and cursed himself for being the biggest idiot on the planet. “Claire, I didn’t mean—”

      She shook her head. “You’re wrong,” she said quietly, the pain in her gaze cutting a deep hole in his heart. “I hate you. Mom is going to take me back. I know she will.” She turned and ran for the fitting room, silence filling the small store.

      He took a step forward, but Sara put a hand on his arm. “She needs some time.”

      “I can’t let her be with Jennifer. Too many bad things could happen.”

      Sara shook her head. “Then don’t push her away.”

      She was right, but that only fueled his frustration more. “What do you know about protecting the people you love? From what you’ve told me, April is the only friend you have and you lost her entire life savings. If you and your mother hadn’t put thoughts of another world in Claire’s head, we wouldn’t be here today. She’d be on the ranch. She’d be safe.” His hands balled into hard fists. “Only I can keep her safe.”

      Sara sucked in a breath as if he’d slapped her. He waited for her to argue, to fight back. His words were untrue, but he’d baited her on purpose. He needed a good fight right now, a way to get rid of the fear crawling through every pore, making him feel weak and defenseless.

      Instead, she looked away. “I’m going to get Claire. Pull the truck out front. I think this day is done.”

      “Sara,” he called out as she walked away. She shook her head and kept moving, leaving Josh alone. His gaze dropped to the dress he СКАЧАТЬ