Middlemarch. Джордж Элиот

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      ‘You know better, Mary. Women don’t love men for their goodness.’

      ‘Perhaps not. But if they love them, they never think them bad.’

      ‘It is hardly fair to say I am bad.’

      ‘I said nothing at all about you.’

      ‘I never shall be good for anything, Mary, if you will not say that you love me—if you will not promise to marry me—I mean, when I am able to marry.’

      ‘If I did love you, I would not marry you: I would certainly not promise ever to marry you.’

      ‘I think that is quite wicked, Mary. If you love me, you ought to promise to marry me.’

      ‘On the contrary, I think it would be wicked in me to marry you even if I did love you.’

      ‘You mean, just as I am, without any means of maintaining a wife. Of course: I am but three-and-twenty.’

      ‘In that last point you will alter. But I am not so sure of any other alteration. My father says an idle man ought not to exist, much less be married.’

      ‘Then I am to blow my brains out?’

      ‘No; on the whole I should think you would do better to pass your examination. I have heard Mr Farebrother say it is disgracefully easy.’

      ‘That is all very fine. Anything is easy to him. Not that cleverness has anything to do with it. I am ten times cleverer than many men who pass.’

      ‘Dear me!’ said Mary, unable to repress her sarcasm. ‘That accounts for the curates like Mr Crowse. Divide your cleverness by ten, and the quotient—dear me!—is able to take a degree. But that only shows you are ten times more idle than the others.’

      ‘Well, if I did pass, you would not want me to go into the Church?’

      ‘That is not the question—what I want you to do. You have a conscience of your own, I suppose. There! there is Mr Lydgate. I must go and tell my uncle.’

      ‘Mary,’ said Fred, seizing her hand as she rose; ‘if you will not give me some encouragement, I shall get worse instead of better.’

      ‘I will not give you any encouragement,’ said Mary, reddening. ‘Your friends would dislike it, and so would mine. My father would think it a disgrace to me if I accepted a man who got into debt, and would not work!’

      Fred was stung, and released her hand. She walked to the door, but there she turned and said: ‘Fred, you have always been so good, so generous to me. I am not ungrateful. But never speak to me in that way again.’

      ‘Very well,’ said Fred, sulkily, taking up his hat and whip. His complexion showed patches of pale pink and dead white. Like many a plucked idle young gentleman, he was thoroughly in love, and with a plain girl, who had no money! But having Mr Featherstone’s land in the background, and a persuasion that, let Mary say what she would, she really did care for him, Fred was not utterly in despair.

      When he got home, he gave four of the twenties to his mother, asking her to keep them for him. ‘I don’t want to spend that money, mother. I want it to pay a debt with. So keep it safe away from my fingers.’

      ‘Bless you, my dear,’ said Mrs Vincy. She doated on her eldest son and her youngest girl (a child of six). whom others thought her two naughtiest children, The mother’s eyes are not always deceived in their partiality: she at least can best judge who is the tender, filial-hearted child. And Fred was certainly very fond of his mother. Perhaps it was his fondness for another person also that made him particularly anxious to take some security against his own liability to spend the hundred pounds. For the creditor to whom he owed a hundred and sixty held a firmer security in the shape of a bill signed by Mary’s father.

       CHAPTER 15

      ‘Black eyes you have left, you say,

      Blue eyes fail to draw you;

      Yet you seem more rapt to-day,

      Than of old we saw you.

      Oh I track the fairest fair

      Through new haunts of pleasure;

      Footprints here and echoes there

      Guide me to my treasure:

      Lo! She turns—immortal youth

      Wrought to mortal stature,

      Fresh as starlight’s aged truth—

      Many-namèd Nature!’

      A great historian, as he insisted on calling himself, who had the happiness to be dead a hundred and twenty years ago, and so to take his place among the colossi whose huge legs our living pettiness is observed to walk under, glories in his copious remarks and digressions as the least imitable part of his work, and especially in those initial chapters to the successive books of his history, where he seems to bring his arm-chair to the proscenium and chat with us in all the lusty ease of his fine English. But Fielding lived when the days were longer (for time, like money, is measured by our needs), when summer afternoons were spacious, and the clock ticked slowly in the winter evenings. We belated historians must not linger after his example; and if we did so, it is probable that our chat would be thin and eager, as if delivered from a camp-stool in a parrot-house. I at least have so much to do in unravelling certain human lots, and seeing how they were woven and interwoven, that all the light I can command must be concentrated on this particular web, and not dispersed over that tempting range of relevancies called the universe.

      At present I have to make the new settler Lydgate better known to any one interested in him than he could possibly be even to those who had seen the most of him since his arrival in Middlemarch. For surely all must admit that a man may be puffed and belauded, envied, ridiculed, counted upon as a tool and fallen in love with, or at least selected as a future husband, and yet remain virtually unknown—known merely as a cluster of signs for his neighbours’ false suppositions. There was a general impression, however, that Lydgate was not altogether a common country doctor, and in Middlemarch at that time such an impression was significant of great things being expected from him. For everybody’s family doctor was remarkably clever, and was understood to have immeasurable skill in the management and training of the most skittish or vicious diseases. The evidence of his cleverness was of the higher intuitive order, lying in his lady-patients’ immovable conviction, and was unassailable by any objection except that their intuitions were opposed by others equally strong; each lady who saw medical truth in Wrench and ‘the strengthening treatment’ regarding Toller and ‘the lowering system’ as medical perdition. For the heroic times of copious bleeding and blistering had not yet departed, still less the times of thoroughgoing theory, when disease in general was called by some bad name, and treated accordingly without shilly-shally—as if, for example, it were to be called insurrection, which must not be fired on with blank-cartridge, but have its blood drawn at once. The strengtheners and the lowerers were all ‘clever’ men in somebody’s opinion, which is really as much as can be said for any living talents. Nobody’s imagination had gone so far as to conjecture that Mr Lydgate could know СКАЧАТЬ