Brotherhood of Shades. Dawn Finch

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      She handed the baby to the nurse, and he did not even stir from his slumber. The nurse walked from the room, letting the door swing shut heavily behind her. The noise it created ran like a gunshot through the room, and the girl crumpled into the chair, torn apart by great sobs that she could barely breathe through.

      “STOP!” Adam screamed and the Memoria froze.

      D’Scover had never seen it do this; it faded out but never stopped with such a clear image like this. He swung his arm out and the room looked as though a thick veil had been pulled across it. Adam turned his face away.

      “I did warn you it would be emotionally painful,” D’Scover said. “But you needed to see it.”

      “That was my mother,” Adam said blankly. “My real mother, that was her, wasn’t it?”

      “Her image lay deep in your memory from when you were a baby.”

      “I want to see her now. I want to see her and . . . and tell her . . . and just say that . . .” He slid down and sat on the floor, or rather on the grey smudge that currently represented the floor. “Who am I kidding? I don’t know what I want.”

      D’Scover walked over and sat down next to him.

      “She thought she was doing the best for you,” he said gently. “It may not mean a lot to you now, but she did do it for what she thought were the right reasons, you have to understand that.”

      “NO!” Adam stood quickly and turned his tear-stained face away from D’Scover. “I have to know for myself why she gave me away. Please, I have to know. I want to see her NOW.”

      Adam looked back to the veiled Memoria and curled his small fists at his sides; turning his face upwards, he began to scream. Above the two of them a swirling black mass began to descend and envelop them both. Adam’s scream became the noise of the wind and in the middle of the black cyclone he stood with his eyes closed and his hair whipped around by the rush of air. D’Scover grabbed him by the shoulders and shook him hard, trying to snap him out of the hurt rage that possessed him.

      “ADAM!” D’Scover yelled. “THIS WILL NOT WORK. YOU CANNOT FORCE

      THIS!”

      Adam opened his eyes and looked hard at D’Scover and the wind fell like a stone. D’Scover stared at Adam through the stillness and realised the boy was looking past him at something behind. He let go of the boy’s thin shoulders and turned slowly. Behind him there was another green space, a garden this time with a smaller swing set and slide and a tiny weedy pond. Next to the pond sat a young woman in a deckchair, a discarded book in her lap. Time had passed, but there was no mistaking the face of the young girl who had given up her baby over fourteen years earlier. She carried a thin but content smile as she stared down the garden, watching something. A child of about three years old played in a sandpit a few metres away, driving a bright red truck backwards and forwards, scattering sand over the edges into the grass.

      “Adam,” D’Scover said softly, “you cannot stay here; we have to move on.”

      Adam crouched down by the child and looked into his face. The child remained unaware of Adam’s presence and carried on playing his simple digging game.

      “This should be me.” Adam looked over his shoulder at D’Scover. “If I’d not been born when I was, if I’d not been an accident, I could’ve been this kid.”

      “No,” D’Scover said gently, “that is not the way it works. You were you. This child has a different spirit and will live out his life. Your life is over and however tragic, brutal and short your existence was, it was still your existence. You have had your time; this is his time,” D’Scover explained. “We have to leave now.”

      Adam ignored him, and instead walked over to where the woman sat.

      “My mother.” He said the words carefully, experimentally. “I don’t think I’ve ever said that out loud before. I’ve cried it in my sleep, and wished it in my dreams, but never said it out loud. It sounds strange.” He looked closely into her face. “Mother.”

      Leaning forward, he kissed her cheek lightly. He reeled back as she shuddered and her hand flew to the spot where his lips had briefly rested. Staggering back a few more steps, he reached D’Scover.

      “She felt it!” he gasped, turning to stare into D’Scover’s face. “How the bloody hell did she feel it? This isn’t real, is it?”

      “This is not real; you are imagining what she would do and have constructed this to suit what you imagine will happen,” D’Scover said, but he sounded unconvinced. “We have to leave this place.”

      His voice was cold as he once more reached into the air and pulled across the veil and they were standing in another dark room.

      “Where are we now?” Adam asked.

      “Where we always were,” D’Scover replied. “The place in which you died.”

      Adam looked around and realised that they were in the hospice. The room was still empty and the bed had been stripped, but Adam recognised it and, inexplicably, he felt safe here.

      “I have to leave you here for now,” D’Scover said. “I have some work to do at my offices, but I will return shortly.”

      “Leave? But what am I going to do while you’re gone?”

      “I will place you in Dispersal so that you do not disturb anyone here.”

      “Dispersal? You make me sound like weedkiller,” Adam said sullenly. “What’s Dispersal?”

      “We can only hold our substance for a few hours at a time. After that our solid appearance is affected and we start to look too, well, faint and ghostly,” D’Scover explained. “We need to Disperse, to scatter ourselves into the ether, allow ourselves time to build our substance again. You will not be able to control your own substance yet and so I will have to put you into Dispersal.”

      “I thought it was over. I thought I could do that Passing thing now and be done with it?”

      “Not quite yet. I need to confirm some details first. You will not be aware of the passage of time whilst in Dispersal,” D’Scover explained. “Sister Goodman will watch out for you whilst you are here.”

      “Whatever.” Adam shrugged and turned away, his face deep and sad.

      D’Scover watched the boy’s thin shape in the darkness and decided against trying to talk to him about what had happened in his Memoria. Instead he stood behind him and held his hands out, palms facing towards the boy. He took a deep breath and the boy began to break up into angry red pellets that swirled in the room like scattered blood before they exploded into nothingness, absorbed by the black shadows of the room.

      Chapter Six – Old Friends

      “Impressive.”

      “I am glad that you agree. I have never known any spirit with enough strength to change the Memoria on the first attempt.”

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