The Works of "Fiona Macleod", Volume IV. Sharp Elizabeth Amelia

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      "Tell me, are you insubstantial? You, yourself, below this accident of mortality?"

      "I know not what you mean."

      "You were wondering if, after all, it were possible for me to have a life, a conscious, individual continuity, apart from this mortal substance in which you and I now share – counterparts of that human home we both love and hate, that moving tent of the Illimitable, which at birth appears a speck on sands of the Illimitable, and at death again abruptly disappears. You were wondering this. But, tell me: have you yourself never wondered how you can exist, as yourself, apart from something of this very actuality, this form, this materialism to which you find yourself so alien in the Body?"

      "I am spirit. I am a breath."

      "But you are you?"

      "Yes, I am I."

      "The surpassing egotism is the same, whether in you, the Soul, who are but a breath; or in me, the Will, who am but a condition; or in our brother, the Body, a claimant to Eternal Life while perishing in his mortality!"

      "I live in God. Whence I came, thither shall I return."

      "A breath?"

      "It may be."

      "Yet you shall be you?"

      "Yes; I."

      "Then that breath which will be you must have form, even as the Body must have form."

      "Form is but the human formula for the informulate."

      "Nay, Form is life."

      "You have ever one wish, it seems to me, O Will: to put upon me the heavy yoke of mortality."

      "Not so: but to lift it from myself."

      "And the Body?"

      "Where did you leave him last night?"

      "You remember what he said about the Three Companions of Night: Laughter, and Wine, and Love? I left him with these."

      "They are also called Tears, and Weariness, and the Grave. He has his portion. Perhaps he does well. Death intercepts many retributions."

      "He, too, has his dream within a dream."

      "Yes, you played to it, in the silence and the darkness."

      "You heard my playing – you here, I there?"

      "I heard."

      "And did you sleep or wake, comforted?"

      "I heard a Wind. I have heard it often. I heard, too, my own voice singing in the dark."

      "What was the song?"

      "This: —

      In the silences of the woods

      I have heard all day and all night

      The moving multitudes

      Of the Wind in flight.

      He is named Myriad:

      And I am sad

      Often, and often I am glad;

      But oftener I am white

      With fear of the dim broods

      That are his multitudes."

      "And then, when you had heard that song?"

      "There was a rush of wings. My hair streamed behind me. Then a sudden stillness, out of which came moonlight; and a star fell slowly through the dark, and as it passed my face I felt lips pressed against mine, and it seemed to me that you kissed me."

      "And when I kissed you, did I whisper any word?"

      "You whispered: 'I am the Following Love.'"

      "And you knew then that it was the Breath of God, and you had deep peace, and slept?"

      "I knew that it was the Following Love, – that is the Breath of God, and I had deep peace, and I slept."

      The Soul crossed from the window to the bed, and stooped, and kissed the Will.

      "Beloved," he whispered, "the star was but a dewdrop of the Peace that passeth understanding. And can it be that to you, to whom the healing dew was vouchsafed, shall be denied the water-springs?"

      "Ah, beautiful dreamer of dreams, bewilder me no more with your lovely sophistries. See, it is already late, and we have to meet the Body at the shore-bridge over the little stream!"

      It was then that the two, having had a spare meal of milk and new bread, left the inn, and went, each communing with his own thoughts, to the appointed place.

      They heard the Body before they saw him, for he was singing as he came. It was a strange, idle fragment of a song – "The Little Children of the Wind" – a song that some one had made, complete in its incompleteness, as a wind-blown blossom, and, as a blossom discarded by a flying bird, thrown heedlessly on the wayside by its unknown wandering singer: —

      I hear the little children of the wind

      Crying solitary in lonely places:

      I have not seen their faces,

      But I have seen the leaves eddying behind,

      The little tremulous leaves of the wind.

      The Soul looked at the Will.

      "So he, too, has heard the Wind," he said softly.

VI

      All that day we journeyed westward. Sometimes we saw, far off, the pale blue films of the Hills of Dream, those elusive mountains towards which our way was set. Sometimes they were so startlingly near that, from gorse upland or inland valley, we thought we saw the shadow-grass shake in the wind's passage, or smelled the thyme still wet with dew where it lay under the walls of mountain-boulders. But at noon we were no nearer than when, at sunrise, we had left the little sea-town behind us: and when the throng of bracken-shadows filled the green levels between the fern and the pines – like flocks of sheep following fantastic herdsmen – the Hills of the West were still as near, and as far, as the bright raiment of the rainbow which the shepherd sees lying upon his lonely pastures.

      But long before noon we were glad because of what happened to one of us.

      The dawn had flushed into a wilderness of rose as we left the bridge by the stream. Long shafts of light, plumed with pale gold, were flung up out of the east: everywhere was the tremulous awakening of the new day. A score of yards from the highway a cottage stood, sparrows stirring in the thatch, swift fairy-spiders running across the rude white-washed walls, a redbreast singing in the dew-drenched fuchsia-bush. The blue peat-smoke which rose above it was so faint as to be invisible beyond the rowan which stood sunways. The westward part of the cottage was a byre: we could hear the lowing of a cow, the clucking of fowls.

      In every glen, on each hillside, are crofts such as this. There was nothing unusual in what we saw, save that a collie crouched whimpering beyond a dyke on the farther side of the rowan.

      "All is not well here," said the Will.

      "No," murmured the Soul, "I see the shadowy footsteps of those who serve the Evil One. Await me here."

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