Complete Works. D. H. Lawrence

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      “There,” said Paul, stroking her softly. “There!—now you'll sleep.”

      “Yes,” she said. “I didn't think you could do the bed so nicely,” she added, almost gaily. Then she curled up, with her cheek on her hand, her head snugged between her shoulders. Paul put the long thin plait of grey hair over her shoulder and kissed her.

      “You'll sleep, my love,” he said.

      “Yes,” she answered trustfully. “Good-night.”

      They put out the light, and it was still.

      Morel was in bed. Nurse did not come. Annie and Paul came to look at her at about eleven. She seemed to be sleeping as usual after her draught. Her mouth had come a bit open.

      “Shall we sit up?” said Paul.

      “I s'll lie with her as I always do,” said Annie. “She might wake up.”

      “All right. And call me if you see any difference.”

      “Yes.”

      They lingered before the bedroom fire, feeling the night big and black and snowy outside, their two selves alone in the world. At last he went into the next room and went to bed.

      He slept almost immediately, but kept waking every now and again. Then he went sound asleep. He started awake at Annie's whispered, “Paul, Paul!” He saw his sister in her white nightdress, with her long plait of hair down her back, standing in the darkness.

      “Yes?” he whispered, sitting up.

      “Come and look at her.”

      He slipped out of bed. A bud of gas was burning in the sick chamber. His mother lay with her cheek on her hand, curled up as she had gone to sleep. But her mouth had fallen open, and she breathed with great, hoarse breaths, like snoring, and there were long intervals between.

      “She's going!” he whispered.

      “Yes,” said Annie.

      “How long has she been like it?”

      “I only just woke up.”

      Annie huddled into the dressing-gown, Paul wrapped himself in a brown blanket. It was three o'clock. He mended the fire. Then the two sat waiting. The great, snoring breath was taken—held awhile—then given back. There was a space—a long space. Then they started. The great, snoring breath was taken again. He bent close down and looked at her.

      “Isn't it awful!” whispered Annie.

      He nodded. They sat down again helplessly. Again came the great, snoring breath. Again they hung suspended. Again it was given back, long and harsh. The sound, so irregular, at such wide intervals, sounded through the house. Morel, in his room, slept on. Paul and Annie sat crouched, huddled, motionless. The great snoring sound began again—there was a painful pause while the breath was held—back came the rasping breath. Minute after minute passed. Paul looked at her again, bending low over her.

      “She may last like this,” he said.

      They were both silent. He looked out of the window, and could faintly discern the snow on the garden.

      “You go to my bed,” he said to Annie. “I'll sit up.”

      “No,” she said, “I'll stop with you.”

      “I'd rather you didn't,” he said.

      At last Annie crept out of the room, and he was alone. He hugged himself in his brown blanket, crouched in front of his mother, watching. She looked dreadful, with the bottom jaw fallen back. He watched. Sometimes he thought the great breath would never begin again. He could not bear it—the waiting. Then suddenly, startling him, came the great harsh sound. He mended the fire again, noiselessly. She must not be disturbed. The minutes went by. The night was going, breath by breath. Each time the sound came he felt it wring him, till at last he could not feel so much.

      His father got up. Paul heard the miner drawing his stockings on, yawning. Then Morel, in shirt and stockings, entered.

      “Hush!” said Paul.

      Morel stood watching. Then he looked at his son, helplessly, and in horror.

      “Had I better stop a-whoam?” he whispered.

      “No. Go to work. She'll last through to-morrow.”

      “I don't think so.”

      “Yes. Go to work.”

      The miner looked at her again, in fear, and went obediently out of the room. Paul saw the tape of his garters swinging against his legs.

      After another half-hour Paul went downstairs and drank a cup of tea, then returned. Morel, dressed for the pit, came upstairs again.

      “Am I to go?” he said.

      “Yes.”

      And in a few minutes Paul heard his father's heavy steps go thudding over the deadening snow. Miners called in the streets as they tramped in gangs to work. The terrible, long-drawn breaths continued—heave—heave—heave; then a long pause—then—ah-h-h-h-h! as it came back. Far away over the snow sounded the hooters of the ironworks. One after another they crowed and boomed, some small and far away, some near, the blowers of the collieries and the other works. Then there was silence. He mended the fire. The great breaths broke the silence—she looked just the same. He put back the blind and peered out. Still it was dark. Perhaps there was a lighter tinge. Perhaps the snow was bluer. He drew up the blind and got dressed. Then, shuddering, he drank brandy from the bottle on the wash-stand. The snow WAS growing blue. He heard a cart clanking down the street. Yes, it was seven o'clock, and it was coming a little bit light. He heard some people calling. The world was waking. A grey, deathly dawn crept over the snow. Yes, he could see the houses. He put out the gas. It seemed very dark. The breathing came still, but he was almost used to it. He could see her. She was just the same. He wondered if he piled heavy clothes on top of her it would stop. He looked at her. That was not her—not her a bit. If he piled the blanket and heavy coats on her—

      Suddenly the door opened, and Annie entered. She looked at him questioningly.

      “Just the same,” he said calmly.

      They whispered together a minute, then he went downstairs to get breakfast. It was twenty to eight. Soon Annie came down.

      “Isn't it awful! Doesn't she look awful!” she whispered, dazed with horror.

      He nodded.

      “If she looks like that!” said Annie.

      “Drink some tea,” he said.

      They went upstairs again. Soon the neighbours came with their frightened question:

      “How is she?”

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