99 Red Balloons. Elisabeth Carpenter

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      ‘What?’ she said. ‘I don’t understand. We’re going out for dinner tonight … just the four of us.’

      She looked to Emma and me as though we had the answers.

      ‘I don’t know,’ I said. ‘I don’t know what’s happened.’

      ‘But I only saw him at midday,’ she said. ‘It can’t have happened. He was fine.’ She grabbed hold of my hand. ‘He looked fine, didn’t he, Stephanie?’

      ‘I … I haven’t seen him since last week.’

      She put her hand on her forehead. ‘Yes, yes. You two only came round an hour ago.’ She looked at the policeman. ‘Are you sure you have the right person?’ She reached into her handbag, took out her purse and flipped it open. ‘Is this the same person?’

      The police officer nodded. ‘I’m so sorry.’

      Mum buried her face in her hands. ‘It can’t be. It can’t be.’

      The room was closing in on me; the door, the walls, the ceiling. The tears fell down my face – a stream that came from nowhere.

      Emma looked at me – her eyes wide, her mouth open. She shook her head. ‘I … I … it’s not right,’ she said. ‘Not Dad.’

      My dad, my lovely dad, had gone in an instant.

      He was pronounced dead an hour before we’d got to the hospital – just as Emma and I had arrived at our parents’ house. For a whole sixty minutes, he’d been lying there, on his own. I couldn’t imagine what it was like for him, dying alone. The suggestion that he’d have felt nothing was of little comfort.

      I jump as Mum sets a platter of sandwiches on the coffee table. Being in this house now, with Mum and Emma, is making me think about the past too much. Emma is sitting in her chair, her eyes always locked on the window.

      ‘I know you won’t feel like eating it, love.’ Mum places a small plate on the arm of Emma’s chair, which contains half an egg sandwich, minus the crusts. ‘But you need to keep your strength up … for Grace. She’ll need you to be strong for when she gets home.’

      It’s like watching a switch activate in Emma’s mind: she turns to the plate.

      ‘Thanks, Mum.’

      She stares at the sandwich for a few seconds before breaking it into four, placing one tiny piece into her mouth.

      When she gets home. I so hope she’s right – that Mum has more foresight than I have.

      Emma’s on her second glass of wine in thirty minutes. Matt phoned the woman at the off-licence and they were all too happy to deliver. Probably wanted to have a good look at the family in turmoil.

      ‘At least she didn’t charge,’ I said.

      ‘And so she shouldn’t,’ said Mum. ‘Though I dare say they shouldn’t be getting drunk.’

      At a time like this, she didn’t say. Six bottles of wine and two litres of vodka the shop had delivered. We shouldn’t be drinking at a time like this, is what I had thought, until I’d finished my first glass of wine.

      It hadn’t taken Mum long to join us. Thirty-five minutes later and she’s swinging her left leg, banging it against the bottom of the armchair. I want to dive on her leg to stop it moving.

      Emma gets up quickly, glass in hand, and sways slightly. She collapses in front of the television, landing on her knees.

      Mum sits forward on her chair, but doesn’t get up.

      ‘Emma. Are you okay? Have you drunk too much?’

      I look at Mum through narrow eyes. What goes on in her head? Emma can drink as much as she wants; she doesn’t need policing right now.

      ‘I’ve got to find that DVD,’ says Emma.

      When I get up I feel dizzy. My glass clinks on the mantelpiece as I place it between the photographs of Dad and the one of Grace and Jamie last Christmas – their faces covered in pudding and cream after they’d pretended to be cats, eating from a saucer on the floor.

      I kneel down next to Emma and flick through the DVD cases in the drawer under the television.

      ‘The one from last year,’ she says, but I know which one – it’s the only one they had transferred to DVD from Matt’s phone. We both have a copy. I thank God that Jamie is upstairs, so he doesn’t have to see everyone like this.

      ‘What are you doing, Emma?’ Mum gets up and stands behind us. ‘You’re just torturing yourself.’

      I can tell without looking that she’s got her hands on her hips. Three sighs later, she leaves the room and stomps upstairs.

      ‘Here it is.’

      Emma wrestles the case open and opens the disc tray of Grace’s Xbox. She doesn’t move from the floor as the video of Christmas past takes over the television. The camera travels from the Christmas tree to the door to the hallway. Grace appears in her pyjamas, with strands of her shoulder-length hair in a golden halo around her head.

      ‘You haven’t started without me, have you?’ she says.

      ‘Course we haven’t, sleepyhead.’ Matt’s voice booms through the speakers.

      Grace walks over to the tree, which has at least fifty presents underneath it. She stands with her back to the camera, putting both hands on her head.

      ‘He actually came!’ She turns round, her eyes glistening. ‘I told Hannah he was real and she didn’t believe me, Daddy.’

      The camera turns to the floor while her little feet run to Matt and she jumps onto his lap. The screen goes black for a couple of seconds before Grace is pictured sitting cross-legged on the carpet, yanking open a present wrapped with too much Sellotape.

      ‘What is it?’ It’s Emma – the camera pans to her at the kitchen doorway, looking flushed and wearing an apron covered with smears of food.

      ‘Socks,’ shouts Grace off camera.

      Emma rolls her eyes, turns round and walks into the kitchen.

      The camera goes back to Grace, holding up the socks.

      ‘They’re Minions! I love them!’

      She rips off the cardboard and puts them on. She stomps in a circle.

      ‘I’m trampling all over my Minions,’ she says, laughing.

      Next to me, Emma grabs the Xbox controller and presses pause. It leaves Grace with one foot in mid-air and a huge smile on her lovely face. My hands are soaking wet and I realise that my tears have been dripping onto them.

      Emma throws the controller onto the floor. I take the glass of wine from her hands just in time as she buries her face in them.

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