Название: Henry's Sisters
Автор: Cathy Lamb
Издательство: Ingram
Жанр: Современная зарубежная литература
isbn: 9780758244802
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“Get this right, girls.
“Momma.
“PS Keep Cecilia from eating any more than she already does. She is too fat already. I have done what I could for her.”
There was a silence when we all finished reading The List.
Cecilia’s chin was quivering.
I slung an arm around her shoulders.
“I can love myself even if I don’t feel loved by Momma I can love myself even if I don’t feel loved by Momma,” Janie chanted.
I went to hug Janie.
Cecilia made a move for the closet; Janie crawled in behind her. They shut the door.
I crumpled up the pink letter that smelled like nauseating flowers and opened the door to the closet. “Scoot over.”
Later that night Henry, Janie, and I lined up his shells on the floor and studied them. Same with his collection of rocks.
When he went to bed, we sang songs, and I brushed his curls back. “I love yous,” he murmured, when his almond eyes began to shut. “Yeah, yeah. I love yous. I so happy you home.”
No one in my life has ever been as excited to see me as Henry always is. No one has ever loved me as much as he does, either. Darn near made me tear up, thinking of that.
We snuck out when he was asleep. Janie went straight to her room and started murdering people. “I have a deadline and I still haven’t set out my doilies or peace candles, nor have I arranged a serenity corner or a positive breathing space.”
I hugged her good night, then I headed out to the porch swing. Momma was already in bed. She had not liked the dinner we cooked. The sauce was too spicy, the bread hard “like a suitcase,” the salad filled with salmonella.
You might think that Momma had lost it, like her Momma has, based on what she says. That would be incorrect. Momma has been like this since before our dad slung a bag over his shoulder and walked down our driveway, away from our home and swing set and into the soft lights of dawn. This is how River Bommarito is .
I pushed River out of my twirling mind and thought about Henry as I swung.
You would have thought that we sisters would have hated Henry for being Momma’s clear favorite.
Never happened.
From an early age, he was sick, helpless, loveable, pitiful, lost, cheerful, loving, and sweet.
It was an unbeatable combination.
He was completely unprepared for the shittiness of our childhood, for what had happened specifically to him, but unlike his sisters, he had learned to trust again. To hope. To reach out to others with innocence.
He was a blipping miracle.
I swung more, the country quiet, the wind a gentle rustle, calm, the land undulating like the soft swells of a green ocean, trees rustling overhead. It was incomparably beautiful in Trillium River.
I felt like I’d entered hell.
Cecilia took a day off work from her kindergarteners to help us get Momma to the hospital the next morning. She swung by in her van and Janie and I got Momma settled in the front seat.
The sun was peeping up, the sky golden and pink, the wind sauntering by, relaxed, as if it had all the time in the world today to see Momma off. All was still, sleepy, and content.
Except for the three of us sisters, who were twisting in the middle of an emotional battlefield filled with booby traps and land mines.
Momma was not in a good mood. The breakfast I made her was “flat.” Janie was making her nervous. I hadn’t snuck a man up to my room last night, had I? The kitchen was messy, she never had a messy kitchen. Cecilia was late. She’s always late. “Not an organized woman. She’s a mess. A mess.”
“Stop spinning around me,” Momma snapped, attaching a pearl earring. “Do not tell me to relax, Isabelle! Cease mumbling to yourself, Janie. Or are you speaking to an imaginary friend? Cecilia, for God’s sakes, you have enlarged. You’re bigger than you were yesterday! You have got to stop eating. One of the biggest days of my life, if not the biggest day of all because I am getting open-heart surgery, if you girls care to remember, and here you are, making me late!”
“We’re not late, Momma,” Janie said, tentative. “Don’t you worry—”
“I am worried, Janie. I’m worried that I have a daughter who has written nine books and all she does is murder people in bizarre, twisted ways.”
“I don’t murder people, Momma—”
“You do! What is going on in that head of yours? This is not the lady I raised you to be!” She wriggled in her perfectly pressed blue suit and recrossed her blue heels. “When are you getting married and having children? You’re going to get too old—”
“Momma,” I interjected, as soon as Cecilia pulled out of the drive. “Don’t miss the sunrise. It’s beautiful.” Momma, don’t you want to stay in the hospital five months instead of five days? Don’t you want the doctors to sew your mouth shut for the rest of your life?
With both hands, I pressed my braids tight to my head. I could feel that blackness again, right on the periphery. I fought so hard against that blackness. It had plagued me since childhood. Sometimes it won, sometimes I won. I was definitely sliding into second place today.
“Please, Isabelle! I know what you’re trying to do,” Momma argued. “You’re trying to change the subject and it won’t work. Drive by my bakery, Cecilia, immediately. I want to see the building one more time before you girls get in it and burn the whole thing down.” She shook her head, tsk-tsked her tongue. “I’ll be out of business before a week is up.”
“You won’t be out of business, Momma,” Cecilia said, turning toward town. She always tried to appease Momma, as she’d tried to appease Parker for years. Cecilia had simpered and catered and smothered her own personality around him to meet his endless and unreasonable needs and wants. With Parker, she had recreated the same relationship she had with Momma. In turn, he had decimated her soul.
There was no one else on the planet she did that for, as she is a tornado with feet.
“Janie and Isabelle are going to take good care of the bakery, and when summer starts I’ll be there, too, while you recover.”
Momma humphed in the front seat. “Humph! And what will Henry do without me?”
“Henry will be fine,” we all three said.
“And what about Grandma?” She patted her perfectly brushed hair. Twisted her pearl necklace.
“Grandma will be fine,” we all three said.
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