The Complete Poetical Works of George MacDonald. George MacDonald

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СКАЧАТЬ O blessed lips, so sweetly closed that sure

       Their opening must be prophecy or song!

       A high-entranced maiden, ever pure,

       And thronged with burning thoughts of God and Truth!

      Vanish her garments; vanishes the silk

       That the worm spun, the linen of the flax;—

       O heavens! she standeth there, my statue-form,

       With the rich golden torrent-hair, white feet,

       And hands with rosy palms—my own ideal!

       The woman of my world, with deeper eyes Than I had power to think—and yet my Lilia, My wife, with homely airs of earth about her, And dearer to my heart as my lost wife, Than to my soul as its new-found ideal! Oh, Lilia! teach me; at thy knees I kneel: Make me thy scholar; speak, and I will hear. Yea, all eternity—

      [He is roused by a cry from the child.]

      Lily. Oh, father! put your arms close round about me. Kiss me. Kiss me harder, father dear. Now! I am better now.

      [She looks long and passionately in his face. Her eyes close; her head drops backward. She is dead.]

      SCENE XXII.—A cottage-room. LILIA folding a letter.

      Lilia. Now I have told him all; no word kept back To burn within me like an evil fire. And where I am, I have told him; and I wait To know his will. What though he love me not, If I love him!—I will go back to him, And wait on him submissive. Tis enough For one life, to be servant to that man! It was but pride—at best, love stained with pride, That drove me from him. He and my sweet child Must miss my hands, if not my eyes and heart. How lonely is my Lily all the day, Till he comes home and makes her paradise!

      I go to be his servant. Every word

       That comes from him softer than a command,

       I'll count it gain, and lay it in my heart,

       And serve him better for it.—He will receive me.

      SCENE XXIII.—LILY lying dead. JULIAN bending over her.

      Julian. The light of setting suns be on thee, child! Nay, nay, my child, the light of rising suns Is on thee! Joy is with thee—God is Joy; Peace to himself, and unto us deep joy; Joy to himself, in the reflex of our joy. Love be with thee! yea God, for he is Love. Thou wilt need love, even God's, to give thee joy.

      Children, they say, are born into a world

       Where grief is their first portion: thou, I think,

       Never hadst much of grief—thy second birth

       Into the spirit-world has taught thee grief,

       If, orphaned now, thou know'st thy mother's story,

       And know'st thy father's hardness. O my God,

       Let not my Lily turn away from me.

      Now I am free to follow and find her.

       Thy truer Father took thee home to him,

       That he might grant my prayer, and save my wife.

       I thank him for his gift of thee; for all

       That thou hast taught me, blessed little child.

       I love thee, dear, with an eternal love.

       And now farewell!

      [Kissing her.]

      —no, not farewell; I come. Years hold not back, they lead me on to thee. Yes, they will also lead me on to her.

      Enter a Jew.

      Jew. What is your pleasure with me? Here I am, sir.

      Julian. Walk into the next room; then look at this, And tell me what you'll give for everything.

      [Jew goes.]

      My darling's death has made me almost happy.

       Now, now I follow, follow. I'm young again.

       When I have laid my little one to rest

       Among the flowers in that same sunny spot,

       Straight from her grave I'll take my pilgrim-way;

       And, calling up all old forgotten skill,

       Lapsed social claims, and knowledge of mankind,

       I'll be a man once more in the loud world.

       Revived experience in its winding ways,

       Senses and wits made sharp by sleepless love,

       If all the world were sworn to secrecy,

       Will guide me to her, sure as questing Death.

       I'll follow my wife, follow until I die.

       How shall I face the Shepherd of the sheep,

       Without the one ewe-lamb he gave to me?

       How find her in great Hades, if not here

       In this poor little round O of a world?

       I'll follow my wife, follow until I find.

      Re-enter Jew.

      Well, how much? Name your sum. Be liberal.

      Jew. Let me see this room, too. The things are all Old-fashioned and ill-kept. They're worth but little.

      Julian. Say what you will—only make haste and go.

      Jew. Say twenty pounds?

      Julian. Well, fetch the money at once, And take possession. But make haste, I pray.

      SCENE XXIV.—The country-churchyard. JULIAN standing by LILY'S new-filled grave. He looks very worn and ill.

      Julian. Now I can leave thee safely to thy sleep; Thou wilt not wake and miss me, my fair child! Nor will they, for she's fair, steal this ewe-lamb Out of this fold, while I am gone to seek And find the wandering mother of my lamb. I cannot weep; I know thee with me still. Thou dost not find it very dark down there? Would I could go to thee; I long to go; My limbs are tired; my eyes are sleepy too; And fain my heart would cease this beat, beat, beat. O gladly would I come to thee, my child, And lay my head upon thy little heart, And sleep in the divine munificence Of thy great love! But my night has not come; She is not rescued yet. Good-bye, little one.

      [He turns, but sinks on the grave. Recovering and rising.]

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