Dangerous Women. Джордж Р. Р. Мартин

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      He didn’t remember that at all, and there was a whirr in his head that was making it hard for him to hear.

      “Lorie, you need to tell me what’s going on.”

      So she did.

      She said she’d been driving around all morning, looking at lawn mowers she’d found for sale on Craigslist. She was tired, decided to stop for coffee at the expensive place.

      She saw the woman there all the time. They talked online about how expensive the coffee was but how they couldn’t help it. And what was an Americano, anyway? And, yeah, they talked about their kids. She was pretty sure the woman said she had kids. Two, she thought. And it was only going to be two minutes, five at the most.

      “What was going to be five minutes?” he had asked her.

      “I don’t know how it happened,” she said, “but I spilled my coffee, and it was everywhere. All over my new white coat. The one you got me for Christmas.”

      He had remembered her opening the box, tissue paper flying. She had said he was the only person who’d ever bought her clothes that came in boxes, with tissue paper in gold seals.

      She’d spun around in the coat and said, Oh, how it sparkles.

      Crawling onto his lap, she’d smiled and said only a man would give the mother of a toddler a white coat.

      “The coat was soaking,” she said now. “I asked the woman if she could watch Shelby while I was in the restroom. It took a little while because I had to get the key. One of those heavy keys they give you.”

      When she came out of the restroom, the woman was gone, and so was Shelby.

      He didn’t remember ever feeling the story didn’t make sense. It was what happened. It was what happened to them, and it was part of the whole impossible run of events that led to this. That led to Shelby being gone and no one knowing where.

      But it seemed clear almost from the very start that the police didn’t feel they were getting all the information, or that the information made sense.

      “They don’t like me,” Lorie said. And he told her that wasn’t true and had nothing to do with anything anyway, but maybe it did.

      He wished they could have seen Lorie when she had pushed through the front door that day, her purse unzipped, her white coat still damp from the spilled coffee, her mouth open so wide, all he could see was the red inside her, raw and torn.

      Hours later, their family around them, her body shuddering against him as her brother talked endlessly about Amber Alerts and Megan’s Law and his criminal justice class and his cop buddies from the gym, he felt her pressing into him and saw the feathery curl tucked in her sweater collar, a strand of Shelby’s angel-white hair.

      By the end of the second week, the police hadn’t found anything, or if they did they weren’t telling. Something seemed to have shifted, or gotten worse.

      “Anybody would do it,” Lorie said. “People do it all the time.”

      He watched the detective watch her. This was the woman detective, the one with the severe ponytail who was always squinting at Lorie.

      “Do what?” the woman detective asked.

      “Ask someone to watch their kid, for just a minute,” Lorie said, her back stiffening. “Not a guy. I wouldn’t have left her with a man. I wouldn’t have left her with some homeless woman waving a hairbrush at me. This was a woman I saw in there every day.”

      “Named?” They had asked her for the woman’s name many times. They knew she didn’t know it.

      Lorie looked at the detective, and he could see those faint blue veins showing under her eyes. He wanted to put his arm around her, to make her feel him there, to calm her. But before he could do anything, she started talking again.

      “Mrs. Caterpillar,” she said, throwing her hands in the air. “Mrs. Linguini. Madame Lafarge.”

      The detective stared at her, not saying anything.

      “Let’s try looking her up on the Internet,” Lorie said, her chin jutting and a kind of hard glint to her eyes. All the meds and the odd hours they were keeping, all the sleeping pills and sedatives and Lorie walking through the house all night, talking about nothing but afraid to lie still.

      “Lorie,” he said. “Don’t—”

      “Everything always happens to me,” she said, her voice suddenly soft and strangely liquid, her body sinking. “It’s so unfair.”

      He could see it happening, her limbs going limp, and he made a grab for her.

      She nearly slipped from him, her eyes rolling back in her head.

      “She’s fainting,” he said, grabbing her, her arms cold like frozen pipes. “Get someone.”

      The detective was watching.

      “I can’t talk about it because I’m still coping with it,” Lorie told the reporters who were waiting outside the police station. “It’s too hard to talk about.”

      He held her arm tightly and tried to move her through the crowd, bunched so tightly, like the knot in his throat.

      “Is it true you’re hiring at attorney?” one of the reporters asked.

      Lorie looked at them. He could see her mouth open and there was no time to stop her.

      “I didn’t do anything wrong,” she said, a hapless grin on her face. As if she had knocked someone’s grocery cart with her own.

      He looked at her. He knew what she meant—she meant leaving Shelby for that moment, that scattered moment. But he also knew how it sounded, and how she looked, that panicky smile she couldn’t stop.

      That was the only time he let her speak to reporters.

      Later, at home, she saw herself on the nightly news

      Walking slowly to the TV, she kneeled in front of it, her jeans skidding on the carpet, and did the oddest thing.

      She put her arms around it, like it was a teddy bear, a child.

      “Where is she?” she whispered. “Where is she?”

      And he wished the reporters could see this, the mystifying way grief was settling into her like a fever.

      But he was also glad they couldn’t.

      It was the middle of the night, close to dawn, and she wasn’t next to him.

      He looked all over the house, his chest pounding. He thought he must be dreaming, calling out her name, both their names.

      He found her in the backyard, a lithe shadow in the middle of the yard.

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