The idiot / Идиот. Федор Достоевский

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СКАЧАТЬ that I opened the door to you I happened to be thinking of you, when – there you stood before me!”

      “And how did you recognize me?”

      “From the portrait!”

      “What else?”

      “I seemed to imagine you exactly as you are – I seemed to have seen you somewhere.”

      “Where – where?”

      “I seem to have seen your eyes somewhere; but it cannot be! I have not seen you – I never was here before. I may have dreamed of you, I don’t know.”

      The prince said all this with manifest effort – in broken sentences, and with many drawings of breath. He was evidently much agitated. Nastasia Philipovna looked at him inquisitively, but did not laugh.

      “Bravo, prince!” cried Ferdishenko, delighted.

      At this moment a loud voice from behind the group which hedged in the prince and Nastasia Philipovna, divided the crowd, as it were, and before them stood the head of the family, General Ivolgin. He was dressed in evening clothes; his moustache was dyed.

      This apparition was too much for Gania. Vain and ambitious almost to morbidness, he had had much to put up with in the last two months, and was seeking feverishly for some means of enabling himself to lead a more presentable kind of existence. At home, he now adopted an attitude of absolute cynicism, but he could not keep this up before Nastasia Philipovna, although he had sworn to make her pay after marriage for all he suffered now. He was experiencing a last humiliation, the bitterest of all, at this moment – the humiliation of blushing for his own kindred in his own house. A question flashed through his mind as to whether the game was really worth the candle.

      For that had happened at this moment, which for two months had been his nightmare; which had filled his soul with dread and shame – the meeting between his father and Nastasia Philipovna. He had often tried to imagine such an event, but had found the picture too mortifying and exasperating, and had quietly dropped it. Very likely he anticipated far worse things than was at all necessary; it is often so with vain persons. He had long since determined, therefore, to get his father out of the way, anywhere, before his marriage, in order to avoid such a meeting; but when Nastasia entered the room just now, he had been so overwhelmed with astonishment, that he had not thought of his father, and had made no arrangements to keep him out of the way. And now it was too late – there he was, and got up, too, in a dress coat and white tie, and Nastasia in the very humour to heap ridicule on him and his family circle; of this last fact, he felt quite persuaded. What else had she come for? There were his mother and his sister sitting before her, and she seemed to have forgotten their very existence already; and if she behaved like that, he thought, she must have some object in view.

      Ferdishenko led the general up to Nastasia Philipovna.

      “Ardalion Alexandrovitch Ivolgin,” said the smiling general, with a low bow of great dignity, “an old soldier, unfortunate, and the father of this family; but happy in the hope of including in that family so exquisite —”

      He did not finish his sentence, for at this moment Ferdishenko pushed a chair up from behind, and the general, not very firm on his legs, at this post-prandial hour, flopped into it backwards. It was always a difficult thing to put this warrior to confusion, and his sudden descent left him as composed as before. He had sat down just opposite to Nastasia, whose fingers he now took, and raised to his lips with great elegance, and much courtesy. The general had once belonged to a very select circle of society, but he had been turned out of it two or three years since on account of certain weaknesses, in which he now indulged with all the less restraint; but his good manners remained with him to this day, in spite of all.

      Nastasia Philipovna seemed delighted at the appearance of this latest arrival, of whom she had of course heard a good deal by report.

      “I have heard that my son —” began Ardalion Alexandrovitch.

      “Your son, indeed! A nice papa you are! YOU might have come to see me anyhow, without compromising anyone. Do you hide yourself, or does your son hide you?”

      “The children of the nineteenth century, and their parents —” began the general, again.

      “Nastasia Philipovna, will you excuse the general for a moment? Someone is inquiring for him,” said Nina Alexandrovna in a loud voice, interrupting the conversation.

      “Excuse him? Oh no, I have wished to see him too long for that. Why, what business can he have? He has retired, hasn’t he? You won’t leave me, general, will you?”

      “I give you my word that he shall come and see you – but he – he needs rest just now.”

      “General, they say you require rest,” said Nastasia Philipovna, with the melancholy face of a child whose toy is taken away.

      Ardalion Alexandrovitch immediately did his best to make his foolish position a great deal worse.

      “My dear, my dear!” he said, solemnly and reproachfully, looking at his wife, with one hand on his heart.

      “Won’t you leave the room, mamma?” asked Varia, aloud.

      “No, Varia, I shall sit it out to the end.”

      Nastasia must have overheard both question and reply, but her vivacity was not in the least damped. On the contrary, it seemed to increase. She immediately overwhelmed the general once more with questions, and within five minutes that gentleman was as happy as a king, and holding forth at the top of his voice, amid the laughter of almost all who heard him.

      Colia jogged the prince’s arm.

      “Can’t YOU get him out of the room, somehow? DO, please,” and tears of annoyance stood in the boy’s eyes. “Curse that Gania!” he muttered, between his teeth.

      “Oh yes, I knew General Epanchin well,” General Ivolgin was saying at this moment; “he and Prince Nicolai Ivanovitch Muishkin – whose son I have this day embraced after an absence of twenty years – and I, were three inseparables. Alas one is in the grave, torn to pieces by calumnies and bullets; another is now before you, still battling with calumnies and bullets —”

      “Bullets?” cried Nastasia.

      “Yes, here in my chest. I received them at the siege of Kars, and I feel them in bad weather now. And as to the third of our trio, Epanchin, of course after that little affair with the poodle in the railway carriage, it was all UP between us.”

      “Poodle? What was that? And in a railway carriage? Dear me,” said Nastasia, thoughtfully, as though trying to recall something to mind.

      “Oh, just a silly, little occurrence, really not worth telling, about Princess Bielokonski’s governess, Miss Smith, and – oh, it is really not worth telling!”

      “No, no, we must have it!” cried Nastasia merrily.

      “Yes, of course,” said Ferdishenko. “C’est du nouveau.”

      “Ardalion,” said Nina Alexandrovitch, entreatingly.

      “Papa, you are wanted!” cried Colia.

      “Well, it is a silly little story, in a few words,” began the delighted general. “A couple of years ago, soon after the new railway was opened, I had to go somewhere or other on business. Well, I took a first-class ticket, sat down, and began to smoke, or rather СКАЧАТЬ