Half of a Yellow Sun, Americanah, Purple Hibiscus: Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie Three-Book Collection. Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

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      Richard was almost relieved to learn of Sir Winston Churchill’s death. It gave him an opportunity to avoid going to Port Harcourt for the weekend. He could not face Kainene yet.

      ‘You’ll have to lay your awful Churchill joke to rest now, won’t you?’ Kainene said on the phone, when he told her that he would be going to Lagos for the memorial at the British High Commission. He laughed and then thought of what it would be like if she found out and left him and he never heard that sardonic voice over the phone.

      It was only days ago, but even the memory of Olanna’s flat was hazy: he had fallen asleep afterwards, on her living-room floor, and woken up with a dry headache and a keenly uncomfortable sense of his own nudity. She was sitting on the sofa, dressed and silent. He felt awkward, not sure whether they were supposed to talk about what had happened. Finally, he turned to leave without saying a word because he did not want what he imagined to be regret on her face to turn into dislike. He had not been chosen; it could have been any man. He had sensed this even while holding her naked, but it had not marred the pleasure he found in her curvy body, her moving with him, her taking as much as she gave. He had never been so firm, never lasted so long as he had with her.

      Now, though, he was bereft. His admiration had thrived on her being unattainable, a worship from afar, but now that he had tasted the wine on her tongue, pressed himself so close against her that he too smelt of coconuts, he felt a strange loss. He had lost his fantasy. But what he worried most about losing was Kainene. He was determined that Kainene would never know.

      * * *

      Susan sat next to him at the memorial service, and when parts of a speech delivered by Sir Winston Churchill were played, she clasped her gloved hands together, tightly, and leaned against him. Richard felt tears in his eyes. This was perhaps the only thing they had in common, their admiration for Churchill. Afterwards, she asked him to have a drink with her at the Polo Club. She had taken him once before and had said, while they sat by the expanse of green lawn, ‘Africans have been allowed in for only a few years, but you wouldn’t believe how many come now, and they show such little appreciation, really.’

      They were seated at the same spot again, near the whitewashed railing, by a Nigerian waiter in a tight black suit. The club was almost empty, although a polo game was on at the other side. The sounds of eight shouting, swearing men galloping at full speed after a ball filled the air. Susan spoke quietly, full of the dulled grief of mourning a person she had never known. She said how interesting it was that the last commoner to get a state funeral was the Duke of Wellington, as if it was news to him, and how sad it was that some people still didn’t know how much Churchill had done for Britain, and how horrible it was that somebody at the memorial had suggested that his mother had some Red Indian blood. She looked a little more tan than he remembered; he had not seen her since he moved to Nsukka. She became animated after a few glasses of gin and talked about a marvellous film on the royal family that had been screened at the British Council.

      ‘You’re not paying much attention, are you?’ she asked after a while. Her ears were red.

      ‘Of course I am.’

      ‘I heard about your lady love, Chief Ozobia’s daughter,’ Susan said, lady love in the comic caricature that she assumed was an uneducated accent.

      ‘Her name is Kainene.’

      ‘Will you make sure always to use a rubber? One must be careful, even with the most educated of these people.’

      Richard looked out at the calm, unending greenness. He would never have been happy with her – life would be gossamer, all his days merging into one long sheer sheet of nothingness.

      ‘I had an affair with John Blake,’ she said.

      ‘Did you?’

      Susan laughed. She was playing with her glass, running it along the table, smearing the water that had collected on it. ‘You seem surprised.’

      ‘I’m not,’ he said, although he was. Not because she had an affair but because it was with John, who was married to her good friend Caroline. But this was expatriate life. All they did, as far as he was concerned, was have sex with one another’s wives and husbands, illicit couplings that were more a way of passing heat-blanched time in the tropics than they were genuine expressions of passion.

      ‘It means nothing, absolutely nothing,’ Susan said. ‘But I did want you to know that I shall keep busy while I wait for you to finish with your dusky affair.’

      Richard wanted to say something about her disloyalty to her friend and then realized how hypocritical it would sound, even if only to himself.

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