Half of a Yellow Sun, Americanah, Purple Hibiscus: Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie Three-Book Collection. Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

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      Olanna made tea and sat next to Edna, their shoulders touching, while Edna cried in loud gasps that sounded like choking. Her hair did not have its usual greasy shine; it looked like the matted head of an old mop.

      ‘Oh, my God,’ she said, between sobs. ‘Oh, my God.’

      Olanna reached out often to squeeze her arm. The rawness of Edna’s grief made her helpless, brought the urge to stretch her hand into the past and reverse history. Finally, Edna fell asleep. Olanna gently placed a pillow beneath her head and sat thinking about how a single act could reverberate over time and space and leave stains that could never be washed off. She thought about how ephemeral life was, about not choosing misery. She would move back to Odenigbo’s house.

      They had dinner in silence the first night. Odenigbo’s chewing irritated her, his bulging cheek and the grinding motion of his jaw. She ate little and looked across often at her box of books in the living room. Odenigbo was absorbed in separating his chicken from the bone, and for once he ate all of his rice until his plate was clean. When he finally spoke, he talked about the chaos in the Western Region.

      ‘They should never have reinstalled the premier. Why are they surprised now that thugs are burning cars and killing opponents in the name of elections? A corrupt brute will always behave like a corrupt brute,’ he said.

      ‘He has the prime minister behind him,’ Olanna said.

      ‘It’s the Sardauna who’s really in charge. The man is ruling this country like his personal Muslim fiefdom.’

      ‘Are we still trying to have a child?’

      Behind his lenses, his eyes looked startled. ‘Of course we are,’ he said. ‘Or aren’t we?’

      Olanna said nothing. A foggy sadness overwhelmed her, thinking of what they had allowed to happen between them and yet there was the new excitement of freshness, of a relationship on different terms. She would no longer be alone in her struggle to preserve what they shared; he would join her. His certainty had been rocked.

      Ugwu came in to clear the table.

      ‘Get me some brandy, my good man,’ Odenigbo said.

      ‘Yes, sah.’

      Odenigbo waited for Ugwu to serve the brandy and leave before he said, ‘I asked Richard to stop coming here.’

      ‘What happened?’

      ‘I saw him on the road near my faculty building, and there was an expression on his face that really annoyed me, so I followed him back to Imoke Street and told him off.’

      ‘What did you say to him?’

      ‘I don’t remember.’

      ‘You don’t want to tell me.’

      ‘I don’t remember.’

      ‘Was anybody else there?’

      ‘His houseboy came out.’

      They sat on the sofa in the living room. He had no right to harass Richard, to direct his anger at Richard, and yet she understood why he had.

      ‘I never blamed Amala,’ she said. ‘It was to you that I had given my trust and the only way a stranger could tamper with that trust was with your permission. I blamed only you.’

      Odenigbo placed his hand on her thigh.

      ‘You should be angry with me, not with Richard,’ she said.

      He was silent for so long that she thought he was not going to respond and then he said, ‘I want to be angry with you.’

      His defencelessness moved her. She knelt down before him and unbuttoned his shirt to suck the soft-firm flesh of his belly. She felt his intake of breath when she touched his trousers’ zipper. In her mouth, he was swollen stiff. The faint ache in her lower jaw, the pressure of his widespread hands on her head, excited her, and afterwards she said, ‘Goodness, Ugwu must have seen us.’

      He led her to the bedroom. They undressed silently and showered together, pressing against each other in the narrow bathroom and then clinging together in bed, their bodies still wet and their movements slow. She marvelled at the comforting compactness of his weight on top of her. His breath smelt of brandy and she wanted to tell him how it was almost like old times again, but she didn’t because she was sure he felt the same way and she did not want to ruin the silence that united them.

      She waited until he fell asleep, his arm flung over her, his snoring loud through parted lips, before she got up to call Kainene. She had to make sure that Richard had said nothing to Kainene. She didn’t really think that Odenigbo’s shouting would have rattled him into confessing but she could not be entirely sure.

      ‘Kainene, it’s me,’ she said, when Kainene picked up the phone.

      ‘Ejima m,’ Kainene said. Olanna could not remember the last time Kainene had called her my twin. It warmed her, as did Kainene’s unchanged voice, the dry-toned drawl that suggested speaking to Olanna was the slightest of bothers, but a bother all the same.

      ‘I wanted to say kedu,’ Olanna said.

      ‘I’m well. Do you know what time it is?’

      ‘I didn’t realize it was so late.’

      ‘Are you back with the revolutionary lover?’

      ‘Yes.’

      ‘You should have heard Mum talking about him. He’s given her perfect ammunition this time.’

      ‘He made a mistake,’ Olanna said, and then wished she hadn’t because she didn’t want Kainene to think she was excusing Odenigbo.

      ‘Isn’t it against the tenets of socialism, though, impregnating people of the lower classes?’ Kainene asked.

      ‘I’ll let you sleep.’

      There was a slight pause, before Kainene said, with an amused tone, ‘Ngwanu. Good night.’

      Olanna put the phone down. She should have known that Richard would not tell Kainene; his own relationship with her might not survive it. And perhaps it was best that he would no longer visit in the evenings.

      Amala had a baby girl. It was a Saturday and Olanna was making banana fritters with Ugwu in the kitchen, and when the doorbell rang, she knew right away that a message had come from Mama.

      Odenigbo came to the kitchen door, his hands held behind his back. ‘O mu nwanyi,’ he said quietly. ‘She had a girl. Yesterday.’

      Olanna did not look up from the bowl smeared with mashed bananas because she did not want him to see her face. She did not know how it would look, if it could capture the cruel mix of emotions she felt, the desire to cry СКАЧАТЬ