The chosen vessel. Fighting of the spirits. Miki Lazović

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СКАЧАТЬ fight for life, my mother calmed down and began to breathe regularly. She fell asleep. Grandfather ordered to warm up more hot water. When mother wakes up – childbirth will begin. Fight for her life continued.

      All knew that he doesn’t tell senseless words, but nobody, except him, knew how hard will be the fight for mother survival.

      In half an hour, an acute pain awakened her. She cried. As suddenly pain developed, so suddenly disappeared. Fifteen minutes later she still cried harder and more piercingly. As if someone stuck a knife into a stomach. Shrill pains were in increasing frequently, and at the end she began to faint. At that moment grandfather strongly pressed a stomach and she stridently screeched and here from her crotch children’s crying was heard. Grandfather cut an umbilical cord. I was put in an improvised bed and again switched all attention to mother. Nobody paid attention and disturbed by my crying. Grandfather lowered hands on my mother and worked hard to help her. Possibly, her brain couldn’t sustain more tension caused by an excommunication from children, accusations that she is guilty of a marriage of fathers’ sisters.

      As people say “something broke in her”. She felt in similarity of a coma. She heard everything, understood what is told, but couldn’t tell a word. This condition was extended for ten days. And at this time when I cried, I was given the diluted goat milk.

      As I was told later grandfather took me on hands and told:

      “Will live, my Parapanats[15]”.

      Later he called me Parapanats. Grandfather used all his salutary power and mother became much better soon. When everything calmed down, he paid attention to some trifles which noticed that day when the father brought mother to him. It happened to him, because of the falling snow, or because of pain which felt at that moment mother. Grandfather couldn’t direct the impact to consciousness of father, and later and to the horse. Now the time has been come to engage in the solution of this problem. He left the house and began to train. Cold didn’t prevent him to achieve desirable result. At last he managed it. He knew that only in one place he can’t show the capabilities, this is a toilet in the yard. It was removed on about five tens meters from the house sot in summer the stench wasn’t felt from it. Many times grandfather tried to do it there, but it was impossible. Then his grandfather Demetrius, who was a former Elect, appeared to him. He explained that he suffered in vain. From there he can never manage to direct impact to consciousness and never can see any picture of clairvoyance. This gift, which grandfather has, is a gift from God and he as the brightened – up personality, from such nasty place won’t be able to use it or to control.

      Ten days later mother already understood what occurs around her and participated in talks. Even more she often took me on hands. Mummy remembered her children and was depressed. She began to feed me, but she had no enough milk and continued to give me diluted goat or cow milk. So I was born, so passed my first days. Because of all that occurred, and also cares of mother’s life, none of eyewitnesses remembered exact date of my birth.

      I was writing down only a few months later so I celebrate birthday on the fifth of January.

      And there, in the house, that day when the father was on the way, the same relatives that many times created quarrels and problems gathered. When they saw in the cold house three crying and hungry children they regretted them and brought from the houses something to feed them. Someone brought firewood, someone bread, someone balls, milk, meat, and one brought sweets. They kindled fire and fed hungry children. When children gorged on and received sweets they told as their father beats every day mother and accuses for all bad that occurs in their family.

      “Now he took away her somewhere far and now we will never see her! – The senior explained and began to roar.

      With him two others together began to cry too, as well as many comers to them.

      One of them told:

      “People, think of soul! Look that we did because of our nonsense? We’ve destroyed the whole family and only God knows what will happen with these kids and with their pregnant mother. The great sin was made. I want to be the first when Nedzhelko returns, to come to him, to apologize and tell that we went too far. It would be good to gather everything and to help him with everything. Look what poverty is here. Without taking into account the fact that the mother banished him from the house without inheritance and money, we pulled hard on him. Because of us he banished his wife and left these three small children without mother”.

      All were silent as grown dumb. They were shamed to have a look each other in eyes. They went home. When father exhausted and wet came back home, there were what to look at. When he took away mother, in the house there was nothing – neither firewood, nor food. Now it was warm in the house and much of everything appeared. The eldest son began to tell him, what happened, and here someone knocked at the door. Father opened and saw frozen faces of their relatives. He allowed them to enter. There was no place to sit down. In the kitchen, there were only four chairs, and there were seven relatives. He offered them and they seated on chairs and on the bed. One of them on behalf of all began to talk:

      “We saw as you returned and considering that we already visited your children and saw to what led our silly jokes, we understood that it went too far. We gathered and came to ask to forgive us and again to return to these children mother who isn’t guilty of our nonsense”.

      For father, there wasn’t enough chair and he sat down on the log which was in a corner. There was nothing to treat them and there was no any binge in the house. He looked at them and as didn’t understand any word. He looked and suddenly began to laugh. All looked with surprise at him, and he laughed more and stronger. Then his laughter developed into crying to which children joined. There was everything in it: sufferings, helplessness, grief, pain and disappointment which collected in him for these two years. He wanted to tell all about hard it was for him, but only because of the huge tension, which was inside, he began to shout. He laughed, cried, shouted and eventually banished all from the house.

      All saw what the devil made the business and father had nervous breakdown. They called an ambulance. When doctors came and saw his state, at once they took him away to hospital.

      The same relatives, because of whom he got into such situation, began to care for children who remained alone in the house. Some began to look for mother to return her as soon as possible, but to the mountain village the message reached only in twenty – seven days. Convalescence of father lasted more than one and a half month. At this time nothing lacked children. For the twenty eighth day, as the father was brought to hospital, grandfather brought me and my mother home. Later, when I grew up, grandfather told me that brothers and sisters didn’t recognize us. Then mother took them on arms and children instinctively felt their mother. On two horses grandfather brought different products.

      Next day together with mother they went to hospital to visit father. Because of tablets and injections he felt much better. Now it was possible to speak with him about everything. Again, he became the same good husband. Mother asked whether anybody from his family came to visit him.

      “For all this time, which I spent here, only you two visited me and I am most guilty before you. Gatso, I ask you to forgive me, she is my wife and her duty is to forgive me, if not because of me, then for the sake of small children”.

      “Leave it, Nedzhelko. You shouldn’t mention it. If you were healthy so you could to written out from here earlier, all the rest is trifle” – answered grandfather to him while mother wiped tears.

      On fathers’ face appeared smile as once in the beginnings of their marriage when they were happy. He told them about that case when relatives gathered to apologize for what they’ve done when saw what brought their acts to. Then father promised them that he won’t drink any more. And he felt sorry for that as he behaved when was with grandfather. СКАЧАТЬ