Crystal Garden. Evelina Bash

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      “Real life? C’mon, you call this life?” I was shocked, what happened to him during these last six months?

      “Of course, it’s cool, it’s fun, it’s exciting!” He got up and came up to me. “That’s much more interesting than sitting at home every evening with some stupid comics.”

      “It’s not stupid,” I said through my clenched teeth.

      “But why the hell do you draw those stupid pictures?” He came very close.

      “Because I like it,” I answered.

      “So I do what I like,” he walked away from me.

      “But I doubt that I will end up like that girl with my stupid pictures,” I said, quietly repeating his words.

      “And I don’t care,” he almost shouted. “I don’t care what happens to me. But I have seen life!”

      “Life, yeah,” I laughed bitterly.

      “Yes, life, I take everything I want and you can’t even come up to her. You’re a loser!” he said as if spitting in my face.

      “Look at yourself.”

      I grabbed my jacket and went out on the porch. I was trying to fasten the zipper, but could not. I was beside myself with anger and resentment. What happened to him? We were the best friends, we understood each other without words, and what’s now? This gulf between us was becoming wider and wider. Damn! I pulled the zipper again and pressed my fist to my mouth. I wanted to scream. And then I felt his hand on my shoulder. I turned around. He was standing barefooted on the cold porch and looking at me.

      “I’m sorry,” he said quietly.

      We went back into the house.

      “I can’t control myself,” he sat on the couch with his elbows resting on his knees. “I lose my temper and hurt the people who are dear to me. But I don’t want that. Damn!”

      “I’m not angry at you,” I said. “I just want to be a part of your life, whatever it is.” I was standing in front of him with my hands in my jacket pockets. “I have no friends, but you.”

      “Me too,” he said.

      5

      At the end of winter, Sunny told me about her. We had lunch in the school canteen. And both ate without appetite, but for different reasons.

      “Check that girl out,” Sunny said to me and nodded off to the side.

      I looked in that direction and actually saw several girls. They were from senior class and had fun discussing something.

      “Which one?” I asked.

      “The one with long hair in a green dress.”

      “I don’t see her,” I looked harder.

      “C’mon, her hair is, uh, pure copper. Look! She is smiling at us,” he smiled back at someone.

      But I didn’t see anybody. The girl he described was not there.

      “Look, is she not a beauty?” Sunny was still smiling. “Such a kitty.”

      “Kitty?” I looked around trying to find the girl he was talking about.

      “Yeah, she looks like a kitty. So pretty. And her eyes are so green.”

      “Sunny, there is no such girl here,” I was getting embarrassed, he was clearly hallucinating.

      “But there she is! She is going away,” he jumped to his feet, probably willing to rush to her, but I held him back. “She goes to our school from the beginning of this year. I often see her during the breaks. When I see her next time, I will definitely introduce you to her.”