The Complete Novels. D. H. Lawrence

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      “What of it?” she asked, gradually flushing. She remembered her own enthusiasm over the picture.

      “Wouldn’t it be fine?” he exclaimed, looking at her with glowing eyes, his teeth showing white in a smile that was not amusement.

      “What?” she asked, dropping her head in confusion. “That — a girl like that — half afraid — and passion!” He lit up curiously.

      “She may well be half afraid, when the barbarian comes out in his glory, skins and all.”

      “But don’t you like it?” he asked.

      She shrugged her shoulders, saying, “Make love to the next girl you meet, and by the time the poppies redden the field, she’ll hang in your arms. She’ll have need to be more than half afraid, won’t she?”

      She played with the leaves of the book, and did not look at him.

      “But,” he faltered, his eyes glowing, “it would be-rather —”

      “Don’t, sweet lad, don’t!” she cried, laughing.

      “But I shouldn’t —” he insisted. “I don’t know whether I should like any girl I know to —”

      “Precious Sir Galahad,” she said in a mock caressing voice, and stroking his cheek with her finger, “you ought to have been a monk — a martyr, a Carthusian.”

      He laughed, taking no notice. He was breathlessly quivering under the new sensation of heavy, unappeased fire in his breast, and in the muscles of his arms. He glanced at her bosom and shivered.

      “Are you studying just how to play the part?” she asked.

      “No — but —” he tried to look at her, but failed. He shrank, laughing, and dropped his head.

      “What?” she asked with vibrant curiosity.

      Having become a few degrees calmer, he looked up at her now, his eyes wide and vivid with a declaration that made her shrink back as if flame had leaped towards her face. She bent down her head and picked at her dress.

      “Didn’t you know the picture before?” she said, in a low, toneless voice.

      He shut his eyes and shrank with shame.

      “No, I’ve never seen it before,” he said.

      “I’m surprised,” she said. “It is a very common one.”

      “Is it?” he answered, and this make-belief conversation fell. She looked up, and found his eyes. They gazed at each other for a moment before they hid their faces again. It was a torture to each of them to look thus nakedly at the other, a dazzled, shrinking pain that they forced themselves to undergo for a moment, that they might the moment after tremble with a fierce sensation that filled their veins with fluid, fiery electricity. She sought, almost in panic, for something to say.

      “I believe it’s in Liverpool, the picture,” she contrived to say.

      He dared not kill this conversation, he was too self-conscious. He forced himself to reply, “I didn’t know there was a gallery in Liverpool.”

      “Oh yes, a very good one,” she said.

      Their eyes met in the briefest flash of a glance, then both turned their faces aside. Thus averted, one from the other, they made talk. At last she rose, gathered the books together, and carried them off. At the door she turned. She must steal another keen moment: “Are you admiring my strength?” she asked. Her pose was fine. With her head thrown back, the roundness of her throat ran finely down to the bosom, which swelled above the pile of books held by her straight arms. He looked at her. Their lips smiled curiously. She put back her throat as if she were drinking. They felt the blood beating madly in their necks. Then, suddenly breaking into a slight trembling, she turned round and left the room.

      While she was out, he sat twisting his moustache. She came back along the hall talking madly to herself in French. Having been much impressed by Sarah Bernhardt’s “Dame aux Camélias” and “Adrienne Lecouvreur”, Lettie had caught something of the weird tone of this great actress, and her raillery and mockery came out in little wild waves. She laughed at him, and at herself, and at men in general, and at love in particular. Whatever he said to her, she answered in the same mad clatter of French, speaking high and harshly. The sound was strange and uncomfortable. There was a painful perplexity in his brow, such as I often perceived afterwards, a sense of something hurting, something he could not understand.

      “Well, well, well, well!” she exclaimed at last. “We must be mad sometimes, or we should be getting aged, hein?”

      “I wish I could understand,” he said plaintively.

      “Poor dear!” she laughed. “How sober he is! And will you really go? They will think we’ve given you no supper, you look so sad.”

      “I have supped — full —” he began, his eyes dancing with a smile as he ventured upon a quotation. He was very much excited.

      “Of horrors!” she cried, completing it. “Now that is worse than anything I have given you.”

      “Is it?” he replied, and they smiled at each other.

      “Far worse,” she answered. They waited in suspense for some moments. He looked at her.

      “Good-bye,” she said, holding out her hand. Her voice was full of insurgent tenderness. He looked at her again, his eyes flickering. Then he took her hand. She pressed his fingers, holding them a little while. Then ashamed of her display of feeling, she looked down. He had a deep cut across his thumb.

      “What a gash!” she exclaimed, shivering, and clinging a little tighter to his fingers before she released them. He gave a little laugh.

      “Does it hurt you?” she asked very gently.

      He laughed again —“No!” he said softly, as if his thumb were not worthy of consideration.

      They smiled again at each other, and, with a blind movement, he broke the spell and was gone.

      Chapter 4

       The Father

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      Autumn set in, and the red dahlias which kept the warm light alive in their bosoms so late into the evening died in the night, and the morning had nothing but brown balls of rottenness to show.

      They called me as I passed the post office door in Eberwich one evening, and they gave me a letter for my mother. The distorted, sprawling handwriting perplexed me with a dim uneasiness; I put the letter away, and forgot it. I remembered it later in the evening, when I wished to recall something to interest my mother. She looked at the handwriting, and began hastily and nervously to tear open the envelope; she held it away from her in the light of the lamp, and with eyes drawn half closed, tried to scan it. So I found her spectacles, but she did not speak her thanks, and her hand trembled. She read the short letter quickly; then she sat down, and read it again, and continued СКАЧАТЬ