Название: Northwood
Автор: Maryse Meijer
Издательство: Ingram
Жанр: Сказки
isbn: 9781948226028
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And the burn
ORBIT
I’ll speak just once, here,
about my father.
You were nothing like him:
he was small, lean as a young tree
and scared. He sat in corners
and cleaned his glasses
and tried to smile. He was almost never
there. I mean in his head he wasn’t.
He liked to see me
with my pens, at the kitchen table:
he said I would be
a great artist
though he was an insurance man
who couldn’t name a single painting.
He told me
before he disappeared
about the way he thought
I should love.
Don’t marry, he said,
the one you like best.
That’s the way to keep it, you know.
Friction
slows a thing down.
Love him
from a distance. And he’ll always
be yours.
I said, Yes Dad.
I was ten and uncomprehending.
A year later he left the house
with his pipe and his favorite
shirt
and was found
hanging in a garage
two states away.
I wonder whose heart
he didn’t dare hold close.
I mean,
other than mine
THE DANCE HALL
I knew no one. A bar at the edge of the wood and music I
hadn’t heard music in a week or seen a human face and
there was yours, a miracle, selling tickets at the door; you
took my hand and stamped it black. Jade eyes into mine
and silver hair, older than any man I’d ever thought was
beautiful, your beauty the first thing that hurt and I moved
into the room solid with plaid shirts and me in my black
dress so this is the country. I drank a cup of punch and ate
almonds from a plastic bowl and you came and dug your
hand next to mine wiped your salty fingers on your hip
and looked down at my shirt unironed and crooked teeth
agleam in the yellow light. I didn’t spend a minute saying
no. You led me through the music, under your arm, pressed
against your side, sweat slicking us wherever we touched. I
spun and you stopped me and said Where are you
staying. I saw the ring on your finger. The bottom dropping out.
We talked on the stage steps, half hidden by a ficus. A cup of
punch on your knee, jeans so tight at the thigh I could see
how big you were. I blushed, touched it anyway. Not a sound
from you. Watching my face, little smile, devastation: the
music grew. Where’s your wife, I said, and you laughed: we
would never be in public together again. I think I’m drunk, I
said, moving my hand away. There’s no booze in that punch,
darling, you said, and got me another glass.
ASCALON
St. George—
helmet aslant, boot on the back.
But where is victory?
The staff never moves,
hovers just above the tongue.
He’ll wait forever for that hard kiss.
I make a list: spear, spurs,
silver, speed.
Good luck, George says.
And the dragon
winks.
FIRST
Slapped between the sheets no ceremony you skinned me
stockings to boots I hadn’t shaved I couldn’t spread my legs
you got in anyway. No condom no question Did you want or
Have you got just your hand against my face, a stroke before
the slap. I was dry when you got inside. I hid from you. I
didn’t come. Your skin in my mouth, bitter, delicious, you too
close to see, what was touching me, your breath all around,
the sound of something chasing us. It caught up.
AMATEUR
I drew my way through the year, having dropped out of
everything. That ad for the cabin written for someone like
me, who didn’t know what Get Away Cheap meant; you can’t
get away. I went to live like a nun, pure, distractionless.
One packed bag. I wanted to draw nature. Tired of drawing
people. СКАЧАТЬ