Catch and Release. Lisa Jean Moore

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      It is a personal paradox: In my everyday life I believe I have mastered time, but in geologic terms, I struggle. Geologic time is mind-blowing because of the limited capacities of human ontologies and epistemologies to apprehend it. Like many people, it’s hard for me to grasp concepts that have no solid measurements. Being properly socialized as human beings means we have to come to terms with how to communicate through measurement. These human inventions of measuring time have made it bend to our needs. Therefore understanding geologic time requires a completely different conceptual/affective apparatus.

      In the case of time, we assign measurements to seconds, minutes, and hours. I cling to these measurements as if they are real and as if we didn’t make this all up. I must be reminded that measurement of time is what humans concocted to explain phenomena such as aging or the rising and setting of the sun. Solid measurement of mass is materially more tangible because common sense dictates that an entity’s mass is never going to change and that, in its stability, it is secure. But time is always changing, and we can never talk about the present, since once we have, it is already the past. Even though human measurement of time is constructed, it becomes naturalized and then applied to all living things; we place all other things on our time scale. We assign time to biology-specific orientation to orders, routines, cycles, or life spans in all biological entities. I have found that humans are supremely interested in the life span of other species. When sharing the fact that worker honeybees live for about 6 weeks, I’ve often heard a sort of tragic astonishment from humans—“It’s so sad that their lives are so very short. They work themselves to death.” This anthropocentric empathy doesn’t consider time’s relevance to the bee or even how “6 weeks” is experienced by the species. Our time becomes all time.

      Deep time, alternately called geologic time, is defined as the time frame of the earth’s existence, the multimillion-year time frame. At first, I though that the failure to understand deep time was actually an idiosyncratic, personal failure. But I have come to understand that it’s not simply that I don’t get it, it’s that humans can’t access it in the same way that we can access the intensity of our regular lived time, the immediate time we can experience. But there are consequences of not understanding geologic time. For example, despite overwhelming evidence, in everyday life humans seem to be unable to fathom the enormity and catastrophe of global warming. The sociologist Kari Marie Norgaard expresses how we humans are unable to cognitively keep global warming at the front of our consciousness; we are collectively living in denial of climate change and manage our fear through emotional management strategies.3 Maybe my (and others) lack of apprehending geologic time is part of this emotional management—it is very hard to confront how my species has completely, irrevocably harmed the planet for all living things. Part of the larger argument of this book is trying to come to terms with how humans come to care about things, ideas, objects, and animals. Time is one of those things. I am trying to understand how people care about time or become invested in deep time as a concept that enhances the value of horseshoe crabs.

      As a species, we humans, it seems, are deeply wrapped up in our own embodied, affective relationship to time because we feel it. It’s what we use to measure our own lives, our worth. We can’t feel geologic time in the same way as we can immediate or experiential time. Being with the crabs helps me (and probably others) to approach and experience an affective resonance with deep time; perhaps this is why I (and others) have come to think they’re magical. They blow our minds because they transcend our capacities for apprehending time. They push us to think of time differently. It’s not that simply that I don’t “understand” deep time—we all are challenged and make up myths, stories, sciences, and religions to address the idea of what’s come before us and what remains after us. Deep time and immediate time are both measurements that I’ve learned, and as such both are constructions. For me the difference is not really cognitive but affective. I can connect my body to immediate time through my hunger levels, my sleepiness, my wrinkles, my kids’ artwork. But I have a harder time connecting my affective self to the Cambrian.

      Horseshoe crabs somehow make decisions as individuals and as a species in both immediate and geologic time. Individually, crabs practice going to the shoreline, burrowing in the sand, laying eggs and eating. But over vast millions of years horseshoe crabs as species have also done these things on the changing terrain of earth. Their orientations are perhaps toward changes in light, seasons, water temperatures, tides, and geography. Do they remember through temporality or location? Are our almost theological beliefs in the separation of space and time even relevant to them? Are they nostalgic for another eon long ago when their companion species were different, when they didn’t have to share the planet with grabby humans? It is these very questions that function like an ethnographer’s fumbling “imponderabilia” of a crab’s everyday life.4 The founder of social anthropology Bronislaw Malinowski urges ethnographers to plunge into “natives’ games” as a means of getting at the “culture” of other humans—the task is even more tricky when plunging with the crabs.

      I am unable to speculate about the crabs’ relationship to experiential time. When time is measured in meta or deep terms, it is challenging for me to grasp, and I am re-assured by the evolutionary theorist Stephen Jay Gould, who says that “deep time is so difficult to comprehend, so outside our ordinary experience, that it remains a major stumbling block to our understanding.” He continues, “Deep time is so alien that we can really only comprehend it as a metaphor.”5 In geologic time, the extent of human’s history is like a blade of grass on the far end line of a soccer field, and horseshoe crabs would be at about the top of the goal box.

      Deep time is based on geologic theories extrapolated from evidence found in strata, rocks, or fossils. On this geologic time scale, I rarely admit that I don’t really know if humans lived in Pangea (we didn’t), or, more embarrassing still, I am not precisely sure when the Neolithic Period was (also known as the New Stone Age, it occurred around 10,000 BCE). We have existed for but the slightest fraction of time of the Earth’s 4.6 billion years. In the case of deep time, part of why we want to know about the deep past is because it helps us to infer about the future. We want to understand the dinosaurs and their extinction because we want to infer things about ourselves. We interpret the geologic matter of dinosaurs to be a big clue for our essential questions: How did we get here, and how might we endure? Horseshoe crabs precede dinosaurs by 200 million years, and as such they might harbor many clues. The paleontologist Richard Fortey wonders what has led them to be “ancient survivors.” He asks, “Is being a survivor a question of having some very special features or nothing more than pure chance?”6 Indeed, what, if anything, do horseshoe crabs tell us about the past and our future?

      For the remainder of this chapter, I toggle back and forth between the descriptions of my fieldwork—the being in it with scientists—and my interpretation of how these scientific projects work to construct things. This toggling is between the actual work of making horseshoe crabs known through time, speciation, and counting and then the meta-analysis of what this knowing reifies about the singular and absolute concepts of Time, Species, and Census. In what follows, I am both engaged in the fieldwork and then telescoping out to interpret what the fieldwork, the science, constructs as foundational.

      The Magic of “Geologic Time, Baby”

      Walking though the halls of dioramas in New York City’s Museum of Natural History, my youngest daughter pulls on my hand and whines, “When do we get to see the people?” She’s bored with seeing taxidermied animals and wants to go to the exhibits of human scenes and especially the miniature renderings of human civilizations. Once we arrive she runs to her favorite “families” and makes up fantastic stories about what the people are doing, paying close attention to the babies and children.

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