Savitri – Eine Legende und ein Symbol. Sri Aurobindo

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      An authentic image recognised and signed

      Of her outcast force exiled from heaven and hope,

      Fallen, glorying in the vileness of her state,

      The grovel of a strength once half divine,

      The graceless squalor of her beast desires,

      The staring visage of her ignorance,

      The naked body of her poverty.

      Here first she crawled out from her cabin of mud

      Where she had lain inconscient, rigid, mute:

      Its narrowness and torpor held her still,

      A darkness clung to her uneffaced by Light.

      There neared no touch redeeming from above:

      The upward look was alien to her sight,

      Forgotten the fearless godhead of her walk;

      Renounced was the glory and felicity,

      The adventure in the dangerous fields of Time:

      Hardly she availed, wallowing, to bear and live.

      A wide unquiet mist of seeking Space,

      A rayless region swallowed in vague swathes,

      That seemed, unnamed, unbodied and unhoused,

      A swaddled visionless and formless mind,

      Asked for a body to translate its soul.

      Its prayer denied, it fumbled after thought.

      As yet not powered to think, hardly to live,

      It opened into a weird and pigmy world

      Where this unhappy magic had its source.

      On dim confines where Life and Matter meet

      He wandered among things half-seen, half-guessed,

      Pursued by ungrasped beginnings and lost ends.

      There life was born but died before it could live.

      There was no solid ground, no constant drift;

      Only some flame of mindless Will had power.

      Himself was dim to himself, half-felt, obscure,

      As if in a struggle of the Void to be.

      In strange domains where all was living sense

      But mastering thought was not nor cause nor rule,

      Only a crude child-heart cried for toys of bliss,

      Mind flickered, a disordered infant glow,

      And random shapeless energies drove towards form

      And took each wisp-fire for a guiding sun.

      This blindfold force could place no thinking step;

      Asking for light she followed darkness’ clue.

      An inconscient Power groped towards consciousness,

      Matter smitten by Matter glimmered to sense,

      Blind contacts, slow reactions beat out sparks

      Of instinct from a cloaked subliminal bed,

      Sensations crowded, dumb substitutes for thought,

      Perception answered Nature’s wakening blows

      But still was a mechanical response,

      A jerk, a leap, a start in Nature’s dream,

      And rude unchastened impulses jostling ran

      Heedless of every motion but their own

      And, darkling, clashed with darker than themselves,

      Free in a world of settled anarchy.

      The need to exist, the instinct to survive

      Engrossed the tense precarious moment’s will

      And an unseeing desire felt out for food.

      The gusts of Nature were the only law,

      Force wrestled with force, but no result remained:

      Only were achieved a nescient grasp and drive

      And feelings and instincts knowing not their source,

      Sense-pleasures and sense-pangs soon caught, soon lost,

      And the brute motion of unthinking lives.

      It was a vain unnecessary world

      Whose will to be brought poor and sad results

      And meaningless suffering and a grey unease.

      Nothing seemed worth the labour to become.

      But judged not so his spirit’s wakened eye.

      As shines a solitary witness star

      That burns apart, Light’s lonely sentinel,

      In the drift and teeming of a mindless Night,

      A single thinker in an aimless world

      Awaiting some tremendous dawn of God,

      He saw the purpose in the works of Time.

      Even in that aimlessness a work was done

      Pregnant with magic will and change divine.

      The first writhings of the cosmic serpent Force

      Uncoiled from the mystic ring of Matter’s trance;

      It raised its head in the warm air of life.

      It could not cast off yet Night’s stiffening sleep

      Or wear as yet mind’s wonder-flecks and streaks,

      Put on its jewelled hood the crown of soul

      Or stand erect in the blaze of spirit’s sun.

      As yet were only seen foulness and force,

      The secret crawl of consciousness to light

      Through a fertile slime of lust and battening sense,

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