His Seductive Proposal. Maureen Child

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СКАЧАТЬ “Kieran, stop. I need to rest.”

      He paused there in the woods and looked at her across the space of several feet. Her face was a pale blur in the darkness. The sound of her breathing indicated exertion.

      “Can we go now?” He was determined not to show her any consideration tonight. Nothing would dissuade him from his course of judgment.

      She nodded.

      He spun on his heel and pressed on. They were three miles from the house when the final ascent began. “Take my hand,” he said gruffly, not willing to place her in any actual danger.

      The touch of her slender fingers in his elicited emotions that were at odds with his general mood of condemnation. He pushed back the softer feelings and concentrated on his need for retribution.

      Clambering over rocks and thick roots, they made their way slowly upward. At last, breaking out of the trees, they were treated to a vista of the heavens that included an unmistakable Milky Way and stars that numbered in the millions.

      Despite his black mood, the scene humbled him as it always did. Every trip home he made this pilgrimage at least once. To the right, a single large boulder with a flat top worn down by millennia of wind and rain offered a seat. He drew her to sit with him. Only feet away, just in front them, the mountain plunged into a steep, seemingly endless ravine.

      Olivia perched beside him, their hips touching. “Are you planning to throw me off?” she asked, daring to tease him.

      “Don’t tempt me.”

      “It’s a good thing I’m not afraid of heights.”

      “We’ll come back in the daylight sometime. You can see for miles from up here.”

      They sat in silence for long minutes. Perhaps this had been a mistake. The wild, secluded beauty of this remote mountain was chipping away at his discontent. Occasionally the breeze teased his nostrils with Olivia’s scent. All around them nocturnal creatures went about their business. Barred owls hooted nearby, their mournful sound punctuating the night.

      Olivia sat quietly, her arms wrapped around her.

      He rested his elbows on his knees, staring out into the inky darkness. “You committed an unpardonable sin against me, Olivia. Robbing me of my daughter—” His voice broke, and he had to take a deep, shuddering breath before he could continue. “Nothing can excuse that… no provocation, no set of circumstances.”

      “I’m sorry you missed seeing her grow from a baby into a funny, smart girl.”

      “But that’s not really an apology, is it? You’d do the same thing again.”

      “The father of my child was a liar who abandoned me without warning or explanation. And later, when I did discover the truth, I found out what kind of man you are. An eternal Peter Pan, always searching for Neverland. Never quite able to settle down to reality.”

      “You think you have me all figured out.”

      “It’s not that hard. All I have to do is look at the stamps on your passport.”

      “Traveling the world is not a crime.”

      “No, but it’s an inherently selfish lifestyle. I’ll admit that your work is important, but those bridges you build have also created unseen walls. You’ve never had to answer to anyone but yourself. And you like it that way.”

      The grain of truth in her bald assessment stung. “I might have made different choices had I known about Cammie.”

      “Doubtful. You were hardly equipped to care for a baby. And by your own admission, you’ve returned to Wolff Mountain barely a handful of times in six years. You may feel like the wronged party in this situation, Kieran, but from where I’m standing, both of our lives played out as they had to—separate… unrelated.”

      He couldn’t let go of the sick regret twisting his insides with the knowledge that he had never been allowed to hold his infant child. “You call me selfish, Olivia, but you like playing God, controlling all the shots. That hardly makes you an admirable character in this scenario.”

      “I did what was necessary to survive.”

      “Lucky for you, your parents had money.”

      “Yes.”

      “Because, otherwise, you’d have been forced to come crawling to me, and that would have eaten away at your pride.”

      “I would never have come to you for money.”

      He pounded his fists on his knees. “Damn you. Do you know how arrogant you sound?”

      “Me? Arrogant?” Her voice rose. “That’s rich. You wrote the book, Kieran. All you do is throw your weight around. I won’t apologize for protecting my daughter from an absentee father.”

      “Military families deal with long absences all the time and their children survive.”

      “That’s true. But those kids suffer. Sometimes they cry themselves to sleep at night wishing with all their hearts that their mommy or daddy was there to tuck them in. It’s a tough life.”

      “But you never gave us a chance to see if we could make it work.”

      “You had sex with me for six weeks and never told me your real identity. What in God’s name makes you think I would have put myself out there to be slapped down again? You hurt me, Kieran… badly. And when I found out a baby was on the way, it was all I could do to hold things together. If you had at least contacted me, who knows what might have happened. But you didn’t. So forget the postmortems. What’s done is done.”

      “I want to tell her I’m her father.”

      “No.”

      “I have legal rights.”

      “And you have plane tickets to Timbuktu at the end of the summer. Telling her would be cruel. Can’t you see that?”

      “She needs me. A girl should have a daddy to spoil her and teach her how to ride a bike.”

      “And you’ll do that via Skype? Is that what you had in mind?”

      “God, you’re cold.”

      “What I am is a realist. We’re not talking about how much Cammie needs you. This is really about you needing her, isn’t it? And if you’ll stop and think about it, the mature thing to do would be to walk away before she gets hurt.”

      “I want her to stay for the whole summer.”

      “She would fall in love with you and then be crushed when it was over. Absolutely not.”

      “We’re getting nowhere with this,” he groused. “It’s a circular argument. I have a proposition. My cousin Annalise is returning tomorrow. She’s great with children, and Cammie will love her. I have to make an overnight trip the following morning to New York to meet with a charitable board about the September project. I want you to come with me and we’ll see if we can work this thing out.”

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