Rags To Riches Collection. Rebecca Winters

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СКАЧАТЬ much you might want to. Besides, Ella is entitled to her sadness on that count.’

      He blinked as if he hadn’t considered that before. He opened his mouth, closed it, and then dragged a hand down his face. ‘I’m still not sure I agree with the way you handled it, but I appreciate you telling me the reason why.’

      At least his anger had abated, if not his worry. She pulled in a breath. ‘I think if we lie to Ella we’re betraying her trust. I think if we fib to her—even with good intentions—it will lessen her faith in us.’

      His jaw dropped open.

      ‘I think fibbing to her will do more harm than good. Her faith in you, Cade, is the biggest gift you can give her. I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t want to do anything that might damage that.’

      ‘Hell, no!’ He swallowed. ‘I hadn’t considered it from that angle.’

      He didn’t say anything for several long moments, but she sensed that beneath the silence his mind raced. He suddenly muttered an oath and swung to face her more fully. ‘I wanted to protect Ella from more pain, but lying to her would be unforgivable. You’re right. My word should be something she can trust and always rely on—not something to doubt and question.’

      Nicola let out a breath.

      ‘I’m sorry I rounded on you. You saw it all much clearer than I did.’

      Her heart unclenched a fraction, and then it clenched up tighter than before. She gripped her hands together. ‘Are you sure it’s not your own hope you’re trying to keep alive rather than Ella’s?’

      His head came up. ‘Why the hell would I want to do that?’

      ‘Because if Fran did show up, maybe it’d mean you weren’t a failure. And that, in turn, would help ease your guilt.’

      And maybe because you still love her? But she left that unsaid. She didn’t have the heart for it.

      ‘The thing is,’ she continued, ‘the breakdown of your marriage doesn’t make you a failure. You did everything you could to save it. As far as I can see, you have absolutely nothing to be guilty about.’

      He stared at her as if he didn’t know what to say and it suddenly hit her that it was Christmas Eve and he’d specifically asked her for Christmas spirit and cheer. She made herself smile. ‘You’re a wonderful father, Cade.’ She tapped her watch. ‘And look, it’s almost Christmas. All you can do is focus on having a lovely day tomorrow and making it special and exciting for Ella and Holly.’ She nudged him with her shoulder. ‘Christmas spirit, remember?’

      Slowly he nodded and his shoulders went back. ‘Just concentrate on the stuff I can control, right?’

      He smiled then. And she had no hope whatsoever of controlling the way her heart pitter-pattered.

      Or the way the breath hitched in her throat.

      His gaze lowered to her mouth and his eyes darkened to a deep stormy blue. The air between them crackled with energy and electricity.

      He shot off the sofa. ‘Goodnight, Nicola.’

      Pitter-patter. Pitter-patter. She closed her eyes. ‘Goodnight, Cade.’

      * * *

      The next morning Nicola rose at six o’clock. A peek into Ella’s room and then the boys’ room confirmed they all still slept soundly. Holly would sleep through to her usual seven o’clock, but Nicola had fully expected to find the other children wide awake and bouncing off walls.

      She sneaked down to the stables to give Scarlett a Christmas carrot. Jack and several of the other stockmen and jackaroos were holding their own Christmas festivities in the stockmen’s quarters, so she left a box of old English toffee, that she’d discovered Jack had a fondness for, on the bench by his front door where he had his morning coffee. He should find it first thing.

      She turned to make her way back to the homestead, but paused to drink in the early morning air. At this time of the day the light was clear and crisp. The landscape didn’t yet shimmer with its usual heat haze, and the light was easy on the eyes. It allowed her to survey, unhindered, all the natural rugged beauty of the place before the sun blazed down with its hard blinding ferocity.

      The khaki-green of the mulga scrub contrasted prettily with the yellow-white of the grass...and beneath it all the red dirt of the Outback. She hadn’t expected to find so much beauty out here in the western reaches of Queensland. She hadn’t fully appreciated it when she’d first arrived. But this place and its people had helped her heal and she gave thanks that she could now see and appreciate the stark and ancient grandeur of the landscape. And that she had the best part of another month in which to enjoy it.

      Christmas at Waminda Downs! An optimism she hadn’t allowed herself to feel for this day since she was a child welled in her now. She grinned and then set off at a trot for the homestead.

      Entering her room via the French windows, the first thing Nicola saw was Ella sitting in the middle of her double bed. Her heart tripped. Had Ella panicked when she hadn’t been able to find her? Had she leapt to the conclusion that, just like her mother, Nicola hadn’t kept her promise and had deserted her?

      ‘Hey, chickadee!’ She swept her up in her arms for a hug and then plonked them both back down on the bed. ‘Merry Christmas.’

      ‘Merry Christmas.’ A smile warred with a frown on the child’s face.

      ‘I went down to the stables to wish Scarlett a merry Christmas,’ she confided.

      ‘I thought you were in the bathroom.’

      Okay, Ella hadn’t been worried about her whereabouts, so...?

      ‘Excited?’ she asked.

      ‘What if Santa didn’t come?’ the little girl blurted out. ‘He forgot last year.’

      Ah, the puzzle pieces slotted into place.

      ‘Did you look?’ Ella whispered. ‘Was there anything in our stockings?’

      She understood it wasn’t the presents that Ella needed. It was the magic and the hope. ‘I haven’t looked yet. Do you want to go and do that now?’

      Ella nodded, and while she was too big to be carried much any more, Nicola knew that the child needed the security. So she lifted her up onto her hip and started towards the living room.

      Then she halted.

      Ella’s bottom lip started to quiver, but Nicola winked at her. ‘You know, I think we need your daddy for this too.’ She detoured to Cade’s room and knocked on his door. A muffled sound emerged that she chose to interpret as a ‘what?’ or a ‘yes?’ rather than an oath.

      ‘Wake up, sleepy-head, the fun’s about to start and you don’t want to miss it.’

      ‘Don’t you dare start without me!’

      There was a thump and a couple of bumps and a muffled curse or two and Ella giggled. ‘Daddy’s funny.’

      ‘Hilarious,’ he growled, flinging the door СКАЧАТЬ