Scandals Of The Royals. Lynn Raye Harris

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      “That’s only sex. Sex is cheap, Carlotta.”

      She laughed. “Sex has always been very expensive for me. But then, I suppose that’s how it is for women.”

      “I suppose so. Are your brothers virgins?”

      “What? I would never, not for any amount of money, ask them, but I can give you a very confident no.”

      “Your other sisters?”

      “I don’t … I don’t think so … well, Sophia’s married now and Natalia … the press wrote about one of her affairs, but it all blew over quickly enough.” Carlotta’s twin had always been the audacious one. The one who did what she pleased. She laughed off her indiscretions, and the world laughed them off with her. Her parents simply ignored her antics.

      And Carlotta had been the good one. The one who’d never done anything without the express permission of her parents. She’d envied Natalia. So much it burned sometimes. She felt like she was on the outside of this glowing sphere her twin lived in. One where she could do whatever she wanted and nothing could touch her, while Carlotta ached to break the chains that held her in place, and couldn’t.

      Then she’d met Gabriel. And she’d followed her lust, purposefully decided not to care what her parents might think. To embrace the rush for the first time instead of just turning away from it.

      And the fallout of that decision made Natalia’s behavior pale in comparison. The Sole Santina Bastard. That was her claim to fame.

      “So no one in your family is a saint. Why is it you’re the bad one? Because you got knocked up?”

      His words were stark. But honest. She swallowed. “Wow. Charming.”

      “Honestly, why are you worse than they are? Is it just that no one has physical evidence of their sexual history? The public has plenty of evidence of mine—they think I’m suave, if a bit feckless, but they like me. No one calls me names or degrades me. And I’d bet none of them do it to your brothers.”

      “You don’t understand …”

      “It’s hypocrisy. Plain and simple. That’s why, in our marriage, if I’m not going to be faithful I certainly don’t plan on holding you to our vows.”

      He was missing the real issue. Sure, some of her being “worse” had to do with her carrying visible consequences of something other people did behind closed doors without anyone else being any the wiser. But the biggest part had to do with the fact that Gabriel had been a married man, with a wife. Children. But admitting that was too … it was too hard. To look Rodriguez in the eye and confess that she’d been seduced by a married man? That she’d been so stupid she’d missed the signs? She’d already had to admit it to her father. He was the only one she’d had to explain anything to. And that was enough.

      “So you think women have just as many rights as men when it comes to sex?” she asked.

      “I think it’s a ridiculous double standard. Men want to have sex with whoever they want while they limit women. Then who are the men going to sleep with?”

      “A philosopher,” she said dryly.

      “Just all for equal rights.”

      “Wow. Well.” She stood from the couch, her insides feeling oddly jittery. “I’m going to go and see if I can find something suitable for tonight.”

      “It’s been taken care of. Come on, I’ll show you.”

      She wished he wouldn’t, because she kind of needed a Rodriguez reprieve, but she wasn’t about to admit that to him.

      “All right, lead on.”

      She followed him back to her room, her mind going over the conversation they’d had in the study. He didn’t look at her any differently for having a child out of wedlock. Her family was so traditional, that she was the only Santina to ever give birth to a bastard had been major news. It had made her mother hardly able to meet her eyes. Had made her father look at her as though she were dirty, something almost beneath contempt at times.

      To have someone simply not see that dark mark on her record … that was something she hadn’t thought possible.

      It had altered her own parents’ perception of her so profoundly she’d assumed everyone must look at her and see a big scarlet A branded across her chest, even without knowing the full story.

      He pushed open the door to her room and stood there, allowing her to enter first. Rodriguez had that smooth, surface chivalry down to a science. It probably made women melt at his feet. If his dark good looks, hot body and wicked grin hadn’t already done the job.

      “I went out today and I was driving through downtown when I saw this.” He took a garment bag out of her closet. “And it made me think of you.”

      “Did you go through my things?”

      “No, I asked one of the household staff to put it in the closet.”

      “Oh.”

      “You don’t like it when people go through your belongings?”

      “Would you?”

      “I don’t know. I live alone so I don’t have that problem.” His eyes locked with hers. “I did live alone anyway.”

      “Now you have us.”

      “And servants. You can never be truly alone in a castle. Even if all of the staff left there would still be ghosts wandering the old dungeon.”

      “You have a dungeon here?”

      He smiled. “You interested?”

      A reluctant laugh pulled up from her stomach. “Not really my thing.” She took the garment bag from his hand. “You should be used to staff. You lived here when you were a boy.”

      “Until I was old enough to go to school. When I was eight I went to boarding school.”

      “That’s so young! I could never send Luca away. Not in three years’ time. I don’t think I ever could.”

      He looked at her, his eyes blank, that darkness that lay beneath the surface a palpable force. “I liked school.”

      “Good.” She unzipped the back and her mouth dropped when she saw the black lace dress that was nestled inside. “This is … there’s not much to it.”

      “It will look perfect on you.”

      “I don’t flaunt. I’m a mother.”

      “You are a woman,” he said, his voice firm, insistent. “Don’t forget that. Whether you’re Luca’s mother, my wife or the Queen of Santa Christobel, you are a woman and there’s no crime in remembering that.”

      “I … I know that. I remember. How could I forget?” Of course, for her, being a woman was basically a crime. She didn’t know what to do with that part of herself. СКАЧАТЬ