The Winner Takes It All. Alison Roberts

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      And she hadn’t even cared. At least not according to her anything-but-that reaction.

      Might as well get the word sucker tattooed on him. He’d let their pleasant walks and hand-holding soften him up.

      A buzzing sound disturbed the silence.

      Dr. Marshall checked his pager. “I have to go. Tell the nurse your decision and have her relay it to me and the discharge planner.”

      The surgeon strode out of the room without a glance back.

      The minute the door shut, the tension in the air quadrupled. Cullen had faced challenges working as a doctor and as a mountain rescuer, but he’d never felt more out of his element than standing here with his wife, a wife who didn’t want him for a husband. Not that he wanted her, either, he reminded himself.

      Sarah toyed with the edge of her blanket. Her hands worked fast and furiously, as if she were making origami out of cloth.

      The silence intensified. Her gaze bounced from her cast to the colorful bouquet of wildflowers from MBVI to everything else in the room. Everything except him.

      Hard to believe that at one time they were so crazy about one another they couldn’t keep their hands or lips off each other. Now she couldn’t bear to look at him.

      He hated the way that gnawed at him. Time to face the music, even if a requiem played. “I’m only trying to help. Give you another choice.”

      “I’m surprised you’d want me around.”

      Her words cut through the tension with the precision of a scalpel. He was about to remind her she had been the one to ask for the divorce, but held his tongue because she was right. He didn’t want her around because she messed with his thoughts and his emotions, but he had to do the right thing here, whether he liked it or not. “I want you to recover. Get you feeling better and back on your feet in the shortest amount of time possible. That’s all.”

      She studied him as if she were trying to determine what type of volcanic rock he might be. “That’s nice of you.”

      Her wariness bugged him. “We’ve been getting along.”

      Her lips parted. She pressed them together, then opened them again. “It’s just…”

      He hated the hurt lying over his heart. “Would it be that awful for a few weeks?”

      “No, not awful,” she admitted. “Not at all.”

      Her words brought a rush of relief, but added to his confusion. “Then what’s the problem?”

      “I don’t want to be a burden.”

      A burden was the last label he’d use for her. “You’re not.”

      “You’ve put your life on hold this past week.”

      “I won’t have to do that when I’m in Hood Hamlet. I can get back to work and my mountain-rescue unit.”

      Sarah moistened her lips. “I didn’t think I was supposed to be alone.”

      “Friends have offered to help.”

      Her gaze narrowed. “So you won’t be around that much?”

      “I work twelve-hour shifts at the hospital. The rescue unit keeps ready teams stationed on the mountain in May and June.”

      “Oh.”

      That single word didn’t tell him much. He rocked back on his heels. “So what do you think?”

      “I appreciate the offer.”

      “But—?”

      Sarah squinted. “I…I don’t know.”

      Her uncertainty sounded genuine. He had expected to hear a flat-out no.

      She sank into her pillow. “Is it something I need to decide right now?”

      “Dr. Marshall wants you to tell the nurse your decision. Arrangements have to be made if you choose a SNF.”

      She rubbed her thumb against her fingertips.

      “Attitude plays a role in healing,” he continued. “Hood Hamlet will be better for you in that regard.”

      “Give me a minute to think about it.”

      Cullen didn’t know why she needed more time or why he was trying so hard to convince her. Yes, he wanted to do the right thing, but her decision changed nothing. If she refused his offer, the next time they saw each other…They wouldn’t be seeing each other unless she challenged the divorce terms. The way it would have been if she hadn’t had her accident.

      The bed dwarfed her body, making her look small and helpless. Strange, given she was the strongest women he knew next to Leanne Thomas, a paramedic and member of OMSAR.

      Sarah grimaced.

      Two long strides put him at the side of her bed. “Your head.”

      She gave an almost imperceptible nod. “I may have overdone the walking today.”

      His concern ratcheted. “Does anything else hurt?”

      “Not any more than usual.”

      Using the back of his hand, he touched her face. She wasn’t flushed, but a temperature could mean another infection. “You don’t feel warm.”

      She closed her eyes. “My brain might be rebelling from having to work again. Think I probably need another nap.”

      “Probably.”

      But Cullen preferred to err on the side of caution. He checked the circulation of each finger sticking out from her cast. He wanted to blame his anxiousness on the Hippocratic oath, but he knew there was more to it than that. The more part revolved around Sarah. He wished it weren’t so. In time he hoped—expected—not to care or to be so concerned about her. Time healed all wounds, right?

      She opened her eyes. “You always had a nice bedside manner.”

      He didn’t want her words to mean anything. He hated that they did. “It’s easier with some patients.”

      “With me?” she asked, sounding hopeful.

      “Yes.”

      Sarah’s lips curved into a slight, almost shy smile. “Thanks.”

      He brushed hair off her face. “You’re welcome.”

      Her eyelids fluttered like a pair of butterfly wings.

      He remembered when she’d slept against him and her eyelashes had brushed his cheek. The urge to scoop her up in his arms and hold her close was strong, but he couldn’t give in to temptation. This woman had trounced his heart once. Whatever else he did, he СКАЧАТЬ