Midnight Choices. Eileen Wilks

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СКАЧАТЬ a small, square face with dark eyes and a determined chin. “I want a dog.”

      Her mind snapped back to the moment. “You do, huh?”

      “I been telling you and telling you that.”

      “Mmm-hmm. And what have I been telling you?”

      His mouth drooped. “That I can’t have one till I’m older.”

      “That’s right.” He looked so sad, with that pouty lip. And so stubborn, with those frowning eyebrows. And not like her at all. Her heart hitched in her chest. For a long time she’d managed to forget that Zach had come from two sets of genes, not one. She couldn’t do that anymore.

      “But you never say how much older. I’m getting older all the time.”

      “So you are. What did your grandma stuff you with, anyway?” She poked his T-shirt-clad tummy. “I see a purple spot, a red spot…”

      He giggled. “That’s grape drink and ketchup.”

      “And was that ketchup on something or did you take it straight?” She scooped him up and stood—and God, but it was good to be able to do that again, to rise easily with the warm weight of her son in her arms. The radiation had left her so weak, tired all the time.

      All that was in the past. “I also see a bath in your very near future.”

      He frowned, considering that. “With bubbles,” he informed her. “An’ my army guys.”

      “Sure thing.” She glanced over her shoulder at her mother as she started for the French doors that led to the rest of the house. “There’s a pot of decaf in the kitchen, if you’d like a cup.”

      “Wine sounds better right now.”

      “You know where it is.”

      Several minutes later she left Zach in a tub that was more bubbles than water, surrounded by battalions of “army guys.”

      She would tell him about his father tonight. Oh, she’d had reason enough to wait until she’d seen Ben, spoken with him, but she’d returned from Highpoint two days ago. There was no excuse to delay any longer. Ben had made it clear he wanted a relationship with his son.

      How would Zach feel about suddenly acquiring a father?

      Her stomach clenched with nerves. She saw that her mother had poured her a glass of merlot and left it on the counter. She picked it up and took a sip, letting the rich taste of the wine linger on her tongue.

      It was so important to handle this right. She’d tried to prepare herself for the questions Zach would ask, including the big one: why hadn’t she told him about his father before?

      Unfortunately she still didn’t have a good answer for that one.

      Sighing, she looked at the open doors to the Florida room. Might as well get this over with. Her mother wouldn’t leave without making one last push to change Gwen’s mind.

      “Battles are being waged,” Gwen announced as she stepped into the sun porch. “Campaigns plotted, and bloody war declared. I think the green guys are going to win again, though.”

      Dusk had replaced the warm colors of sunset. Her mother stood in silence and dimness, her back to the house, looking out at the shapes and shadows of the garden. Her back was as straight as ever, but the way she hugged her arms to her made her look oddly vulnerable.

      “Mom? Is something wrong?”

      Deirdre turned, her face pale in the dying light. “I saw the letter from him. You’re going through with this, aren’t you.”

      Gwen grimaced and flipped the light on. “It wasn’t addressed to you.”

      “I didn’t read it,” her mother snapped. “But I couldn’t help seeing the return address.” She waved at the glass table, where a glass of wine sat next to the envelope with McClain Construction in the upper left corner.

      Gwen took a deep breath. Arguing with her mother wouldn’t help. It was probably inevitable, but it wouldn’t help. Her throat ached as she crossed to her mother. “Yes, I’m going through with it. Everything is arranged—we leave on the tenth and will stay with his father for two weeks. I’ll tell Zach tonight.”

      “Oh, Gwen.” Deirdre closed her eyes tightly for a second. “I don’t understand this obsession of yours. For heaven’s sake, you had to hire a detective to track the man down!” She shuddered delicately. To Deirdre Van Allen, anything connected with a detective was implicitly sordid.

      “That was partly my fault. I’ve told you that.”

      “The way you make excuses for this man worries me.”

      Was she doing that—making excuses? Wearily Gwen rubbed her temples, where a headache was starting. “This is about Zach, not me.”

      “Is it? I don’t think so. With all that Zach’s been through in the past eighteen months, the last thing he needs is another major change to deal with.”

      Gwen turned and headed for the kitchen. Deirdre followed. “We’ve been over this and over this. You know how I feel.”

      “And this is about your feelings, isn’t it? Not mine. Not your son’s. You’re cherishing some sort of romantic pipe dreams about this man, a man who walked out on you without a backward glance.”

      Gwen wanted to scream. She wanted to just stand there and yell as loud as she could, but that would be as cruel as it was childish. It would frighten her mother and Zach.

      Her mother was already scared. Gwen understood that; fear lay behind the protests and opposition. So she carried both their glasses to the sink, emptied them and rinsed them and opened the dishwasher. “This man has a name, you know. And a son. He deserves to know his son.”

      “And what does Zach deserve? To have his life turned upside down for the sake of some man you picked up in a bar?”

      Gwen’s breath sucked in. The jolt of pain came as a surprise. It shouldn’t have, she thought, yanking a paper towel loose from the roll, then bending to grab the spray cleaner from under the sink. Her mother had never put it quite so bluntly before, but then, she wasn’t one to give up without using any and all weapons within her grasp.

      There were always fingerprints to be cleaned from the refrigerator. She moved there quickly, sprayed and wiped.

      “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.” Deirdre came up behind Gwen. “For heaven’s sake, Gwen, sit down. It’s difficult to hold a conversation when you’re bouncing all over the place.”

      “I can’t think when I’m sitting still. You know that.”

      “You’re not thinking now. What happened five years ago was an aberration on your part. But this man—”

      “Ben,” Gwen said, angry. She turned to face her mother. “His name is Benjamin McClain. And it was an aberration for him, too.”

      “No doubt that’s what he told you.” Deirdre’s lips thinned. СКАЧАТЬ