The Healing Place. Leigh Bale

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      “I’m not sure. He didn’t say.”

      Emma tilted her head, longing to remove the too tight clip at the back of her neck and free her long hair. “No, I don’t want to take this patient.”

      I can’t work with another child with cancer. I just can’t.

      “But it’s so sad, Dr. Shields. The little girl’s a baby—only six years old.”

      Emma’s heart squeezed. Brian had been five.

      She shook her head. “I’m very sorry, but administering drugs to a growing child is a lot different than dealing with adults.”

      “But she’s been through so much already. She had her first surgery here in Reno, then they rushed her to U.C.S.F. for a biopsy. She’s had several more surgeries since then, to drain cysts and install a VP shunt. Her father’s agreed to begin a chemo protocol as soon as he can find an oncologist. You know there isn’t a single pediatric oncologist in this city.”

      Yes, Emma knew. “But there are five other doctors in Reno that specialize in adult oncology. Refer Mr. Williams to one of them.”

      Sonja quirked her brows. “He’s already tried and they said no. If you’ll let me, I’ll take full charge of overseeing her protocol.”

      Emma almost groaned. Certified to administer chemotherapy drugs, Sonja was one of the best nurses at her job. She was also too generous. A widow and grandmother of two, Sonja had been Brian’s nurse when he had been ill, caring for him tenderly, reassuring Emma that everything would turn out all right.

      It hadn’t turned out all right and the night Brian died, Sonja had sobbed as bitterly as Emma.

      Sonja smiled gently. “Losing ourselves in service to others is a great way to lift our own pain.”

      A shadow of remorse crowded Emma’s mind. She served many patients every day—her bank account swelled with the results. But what good was money when she had no one to spend it on? What service had she done recently, just because someone needed her? Just because she could?

      Nothing came to mind. Not since Brian. Because he blamed her for their son’s death, Emma’s husband had left her, too. Their marriage had been rocky long before Brian got sick, but the loss of their child had finished it. God had taken everything from her and then abandoned her.

      No wonder I feel so lost and alone.

      Her gaze shifted to a plaque on the wall, a wedding gift from her mother, three months before her death. Written by Adam Lindsay Gordon, it read, “Life is mostly froth and bubble, but one thing stands as stone. Kindness in another’s trouble; courage in one’s own.”

      Emma crossed her legs and clasped the armrests of her chair. Courage? Kindness? She was fresh out of both.

      She peered out the window at the evening sky, a darkening blue with tinges of pink and orange as the sun tucked itself behind the western mountains. Hadn’t she tried to do the right thing for Brian? And look what that had gotten her.

      The death of her child, followed by a painful divorce.

      “It would be so easy to help them,” Sonja prodded, undeterred by Emma’s frown.

      “I said no.”

      The words dropped like stone. This wasn’t her problem, nor her responsibility. God had put her through enough already.

      Emma heard Sonja leave and she stared at the closed door. She couldn’t go through that hurt again. It was that simple.

      The next afternoon things weren’t as simple as Emma hoped. Standing in the hallway of her medical office, she paused beside the closed door of an examination room to study the blood readings for her last patient of the day. Over the low hum of the busy office, she picked out Sonja’s voice coming from the front reception area.

      “I’m sorry, Mr. Williams, but it’s like I told you this morning on the phone—Dr. Shields has such a heavy patient load already, it wouldn’t be fair to Angie.”

      Angie. Was that the child’s name?

      Emma paused, listening. She could hear the strain in Sonja’s voice. Sonja didn’t want to reject Mr. Williams, but Emma had given the nurse no choice.

      “Have you tried Baker and Calloway’s office?” Sonja suggested another oncologist.

      “Yes, and they refused. My neurosurgeon said Dr. Shields is the best, and that’s who I want for my daughter.”

      Mr. Williams was here? This fellow was not taking no for an answer.

      As she stood in the doorway of her office, Emma saw Sonja sitting at the reception desk, looking up at a man who leaned against the counter. He had his back to Emma, holding an enormous envelope of files beneath one arm. No doubt the envelope contained various pathology reports and MRIs from his daughter’s neurosurgeon. It looked like he had brought everything.

      Dressed in navy-blue slacks and a light yellow pinstriped shirt, he was tall and slender, with shoulders wide as Texas. His short, slicked-back hair reminded her of the color of damp sand. He shifted his weight and shoved one hand into his pants’ pocket. His stance tensed. What if he caused a scene?

      “I need to see Dr. Shields. If I could just talk to him—” Mr. Williams’s voice sounded low, edged with desperation.

      “Her,” Sonja corrected in a kind tone. “Dr. Shields is a woman.”

      Mr. Williams lifted his hand in a gesture of frustration. “If I can just talk to her for two minutes, I won’t take more time than that.”

      Like a coward, Emma ducked into her office and leaned against the wall. Her pulse throbbed, her hands clammy.

      “Please. If I have to beg, I will.”

      His beseeching tone touched the deepest corners of Emma’s heart—what little she had left. She squeezed her eyes shut.

      Opening her eyes, she swallowed and clenched her teeth. If she said yes this time, it would be harder to say no to the next parent who walked through her door. Brian’s death had cured her of taking any more chances.

      She stepped around the corner and pasted a professional look on her face. As she walked toward Mr. Williams, she extended her hand. “Mr. Williams?”

      He turned.

      She froze. No, it couldn’t be.

      “Mark? Mark Williams?” Her voice sounded watery to her ears.

      When he saw her, his eyes widened and his features softened with relief. “Emmy! Emmy Clemmons. Wow! How long has it been?”

      She tried to pull her hand back, but he caught it and squeezed tight. The warmth of his fingers tingled up her arm.

      “Uh, it’s Shields now. Emma Shields.” She emphasized her first name. It had been two years since anyone had called her Emmy.

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