State Secrets. Linda Lael Miller

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СКАЧАТЬ yeah? Why not?” David asked. And he sounded truly interested, not patronizing. “Don’t you think men should cook?”

      Toby shrugged, not exactly sure what he thought. “Mom cooks enough stuff. Do you think men should cook?”

      David thought. “Yeah,” he answered presently.

      “Why?”

      “Because they get hungry.”

      Toby grinned. “Wanna see my airplane?”

      David looked to Holly for her permission; she liked him for doing that. She nodded.

      “Sounds interesting,” the man said to the boy, and then they were off to Toby’s room to inspect the radio-controlled Cessna. The sound of their retreating voices gave Holly an odd feeling of well-being. Which was immediately spoiled by the ringing of the telephone.

      She answered with a brisk and biting, “Yes?”

      “Who is that Goddard guy?” Skyler demanded without preamble.

      Holly drew a deep breath, then let it out again. Control, she must maintain her control. “David is a friend of mine, Skyler.” Sugary acid slipped past her resolve, dripping from every word. “I am allowed to have friends, aren’t I?”

      “Not men!”

      “Good night, Skyler,” Holly sang, and then she set the receiver firmly back in its cradle.

      Seconds later, the telephone rang again.

      “Hello?” Holly said sweetly.

      “Don’t you ever hang up on me again, Holly Llewellyn!” Skyler shouted.

      Of course, Holly had no choice but to do exactly that. She then adjusted her answering machine to pick up on the first ring. If Skyler chose to call again, he would be cordially invited to leave his name, number and message. If he felt called upon to deliver a lecture, he would get only an electronic whirring sound in reply.

      Holly was at the sink when David returned to the kitchen; though she didn’t hear him, not consciously at least, she was aware of him in every sense. She stiffened as he came toward her, his boots making a melodic sound on the hard brick floor.

      “Holly?”

      She turned to face him. She couldn’t keep her fingers from clenching the counter behind her.

      David stopped, looking stricken. “You’re afraid of me.”

      “Y-yes.”

      “Why?”

      How could she explain, when she didn’t understand it herself? She was afraid of David Goddard, and yet his nearness was causing every nerve-ending in her body to jump and crackle like naked electrical wire. Not even Ben—tender, laughing, lost Ben—had ever affected her in quite that way.

      “Holly?” he prompted.

      Holly felt very silly and not a little old-maidish. She blushed and gave a nervous, shaky laugh. “It’s not as though I think you’re… I mean… I know you’re not—”

      He was closer now. Holly could feel the heat and the strength of him. He was not yet touching her, but God help her, she wanted him to. She wanted him to hold her and kiss her and— He did. He kissed her. He cupped his gentle, strong hands, one on each side of her flushed face, bent his head, and kissed her. His lips were soft and cautious, making no demands.

      A strange warmth filled Holly, stabbing her in some places, soothing her in others. She trembled when his tongue persuaded her lips to part for him and she moaned at his thorough, masterful yet entirely tender conquering.

      And his body was warm and hard against Holly’s, pressing, igniting licking flames of unfamiliar, unexpected passion. It hadn’t been like this with Ben, she reflected frantically. Not even when they actually made love.

      David drew back suddenly, with an obvious effort. “I’d better leave,” he said in a hoarse voice, his eyes not quite linking with Holly’s.

      She was wounded and still breathless. “David—”

      At last he looked at her, and she saw anguish in the depths of his eyes, along with a cold, self-directed anger. “I’m sorry,” he rasped, reaching for his jacket.

      Holly wanted to cry. She wanted to laugh. She didn’t know what she wanted to do, except make love to David Goddard and have him make love to her. And that wasn’t possible, of course, because they’d only known each other for a day and because Toby was sleeping upstairs. “Don’t be sorry. You didn’t do anything wrong.”

      “Didn’t I?” he asked, speaking more to himself, it seemed, than to Holly.

      Holly couldn’t believe the crazy things that were going on inside her, the aching, melting sensations. The howling hunger. And her breasts. Her breasts quivered with a need to be fondled, their tips still at eager attention. What was happening to her?

      “Will you come and have dinner with Toby and me tomorrow night, David?” she heard herself ask.

      A log fell in the fireplace, sparks snapping. The silence was terrible and so was Holly’s suspense. Which would be worse: his refusal or his acceptance?

      “Yes,” he said finally, and with some reluctance. “I know better, but I’ll do it.”

      “Seven?” Holly asked with a calmness that amazed her. “We could go on to class afterward.”

      David wasn’t looking at her; it seemed that he couldn’t. The telephone jangled but the answering machine picked up instantly. The silence was heavy, pulsing.

      “Seven,” he said hoarsely, and then he was leaving, striding away from Holly with determined motions.

      After she’d heard the front door close and the engine of his car start up with a fierce, revving sound, she could move again. She locked the house and turned out the few lights that still burned, then made her way upstairs.

      Her bed looked as it always had—the same Pennsylvania Dutch quilt covered the practical flannel sheets beneath. The same brass headboard glistened in the light from the lamp on her dresser. The same two pillows waited, neither having ever borne the weight of a man’s head. Not Skyler’s certainly. Not even Ben’s.

      The bed was unchanged, but Holly’s feelings about sharing it were vastly different. Tonight it looked lonely and cold rather than spacious.

      Shaking her head, she went into the small bathroom adjoining her room, washed her face, brushed her teeth, stripped off the black slacks and red sweater she had worn that night, and finally the wispy panties and bra underneath.

      Holly stood naked before the full-length mirror on the back of her bedroom door. She saw a well-proportioned if unremarkable body, curved in some places, hollowed in others.

      She permitted herself to remember that long-ago summer, between high school and college, when she and Ben had given in to the dizzying, constant demands of their youthful bodies. She had not soared, as books and movies had led her to believe she would, but СКАЧАТЬ