The Happiness Machine. Katie Williams

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СКАЧАТЬ “She wrote something for me once, a little line of copy, or actually poetry. She left it on my desk my first week here.”

      “What did it say?”

      Ms. Flatte bent down to the bag at her feet. Pearl could see the bones of her skull through the close crop of her hair, could see the curve and divot where spine and skull met. Pearl pictured fitting these pieces together, turning the tiny screws. Ms. Flatte came back up with a pocketbook, and from its coin compartment she extracted a slip of paper. Pearl took the slip carefully between two fingers. It was printed with a computer font designed to imitate hasty cursive.

       You will take a long trip and you will be very happy, though alone.

      “I looked it up,” Ms. Flatte said. “It’s from an old poem called ‘Lines for the Fortune Cookies.’ And see? Doesn’t it look like the little paper you get inside the cookie? Apparently she did it for everyone on their first week, chose a different line from a different poem. To welcome them. No one else told you about how she did that?”

      “They didn’t say.”

      Ms. Flatte pressed her lips together.

      “The truth is, you were right,” Ms. Flatte said. “Or your machine was anyway. I do need something.” She laid heavily on the last word. “I don’t know about religion. I was raised to distrust it. But … something. This morning—” She stopped.

      “This morning?” Pearl prompted.

      “The bus takes me through Golden Gate Park, and there’s always these old people out on the lawn doing their tai chi. Today I got out and watched them for a while. That’s why I was late to meet you. Do you think … could that be it? For me, I mean? Do you think that’s what the machine could have meant?”

      Pearl pretended to consider the question, already knowing she would deliver the standard reply. “Try and see. With Apricity, there’s no right and wrong. There’s just what works for you.”

      Ms. Flatte smiled suddenly and broadly, her whole face changed by it. “Can you imagine?” She laughed. “All those old Chinese people … and me?”

      She thanked Pearl, apologizing once more for her outburst the day before, before bending to gather and rewind her long red scarf.

      “Ms. Flatte,” Pearl said as the woman stood to go, “one more thing.”

      “Yes?”

      “Would you say that you anticipate Apricity’s recommendations will improve your overall life satisfaction?”

      “What’s that?”

      “Will you be happier?” Pearl asked. “Will you … will you be happy?”

      Ms. Flatte blinked, as if surprised by the question; then she nodded once, curt but sure. “I think I will.”

      Pearl was surprised to feel a flare of … was it disappointment? She watched the gentle nape of Ms. Flatte’s neck as the woman walked from the conference room, and she felt a sudden and ferocious wish that Ms. Flatte would turn around and, as she had the day before, begin to shout.

      WHEN SHE RETURNED HOME, Pearl wondered if she’d find the apartment empty again. But no, there was Rhett, in his room at the computer, doing schoolwork, just as he was supposed to be.

      “Hey,” he said without turning around.

      Pearl was so focused on the delicate wings of his hunched shoulders that it took her a moment to spot the half-finished trilobite set out on his desk.

      “Is it okay I took it?” He’d turned and followed her gaze.

      “Of course. But it’s not finished yet. It still needs its details: antennae, legs, a topcoat of shellac.” Then, on impulse, “You could help me finish it.”

      “Yeah, maybe.” He’d already turned back around.

      “This weekend?”

      “Maybe.”

      Pearl lingered. She wished she could make her departure now, on this promising note, but they had to get it done before Rhett ate (drank) his dinner.

      “Rhett? It’s weigh-in day.”

      “Yeah, I know,” he said tonelessly. “Just let me finish my paragraph.”

      He met her, minutes later, in the bathroom, where he shrugged off his sweatshirt and put it into her waiting hand.

      “Pockets,” she said.

      He gave her a look but obliged without comment, turning them inside out. It had been his trick in the past to load his pockets with heavy objects. When Pearl nodded, Rhett stepped on the scale. She was not tall, but he was taller than her now, taller still as he stood on the scale. Taller, but he weighed less than her, and she was not a large woman. Rhett stared straight ahead, leaving Pearl to gaze at the number on her own. She felt it, that number. Higher or lower, she felt it every week, as if it affected her body in reverse, lightening her or weighing her down.

      “You’ve lost two pounds.”

      He stepped off the scale without comment.

      “That’s not good, Rhett.”

      “It’s a blip.” “It’s not good.”

      “You’ve seen me. I’m drinking my shakes.”

      “Where were you yesterday?”

      He closed his mouth slowly, defiantly. “Nowhere that has anything to do with that number.”

      “Look. I’m your mother—”

      “And I’m sorry for that.”

      “Sorry? Don’t be sorry. I just want you to—” She stopped. What was she saying? She just wanted him to what? She sounded as if she were reading from some sort of script. “We’ll do an extra weigh-in. On Saturday. If it’s just a blip, it’ll be back to normal then.”

      “Okay.”

      “If it’s not, we’ll call Dr. Singh and adjust the recipe for your shake. He may want us to come in.”

      “I said okay.”

      DINNER WAS SILENT, except for the deliberate sound of Rhett slurping his shake. Pearl comforted herself by thinking that this was the exact sort of thing teenage boys did, acted purposely obnoxious to get back at you for scolding them. After dinner, she got out a new modeling kit, this one for a particular species of wasp, and began the armature, twisting the wire filaments with her pliers. As usual, Rhett had disappeared to his room directly after dinner. To study for a test, he’d said. Pearl was lost in her work with the wasp, only emerging when she heard a scrape on the tabletop to find Rhett there, returning the trilobite. He stood, as if waiting, his hand still on the model. She couldn’t read his expression.

      “It’s fine if you keep it in your room,” she said. “I mean, I’d like you to.”

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