Fragments of a Broken Land: Valarl Undead. Robert Hood

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СКАЧАТЬ better to do with his time, that he had become so focused—but something more drove Tashnark to visit the main offices of Lanaris House, seeking information about the woman he’d seen in The Night Binge. Call it obsession, call it lust. He didn’t care what it was called. He simply wanted to know who she was and felt a growing urgency to find her.

      Lanaris House was less than cooperative. The insincere fool he was allowed to talk to was suspicious of his request for information and sought guidance from above. Whoever his reply came from, the answer was the inevitable one: such a meeting as Tashnark described could not have taken place—it would hardly be appropriate for a commercial Family of Lanaris’s eminence in the Supreme Council to conduct business in a grubby dock-side tavern. Tashnark must have been mistaken.

      “Maybe it wasn’t official business,” Tashnark suggested, “but I’d like to speak to the Lanaris official who was there. He was wearing the House emblem.”

      He described the man, but still received no satisfactory answer. If he hadn’t been so physically imposing, they would have thrown him from the building. The experience confirmed the prejudice he harbored against Family bureaucracies and made him suspect a conspiracy.

      That night he must have dreamed of Hanin, for when he woke his head was filled with memory of the man. How could such memories suddenly exist where before there’d been nothing? Moreover the memories were from the point of view of Bellarroth, who haunted his nights with greater and greater frequency.…

      * * * *

      “Who are you?” Bellarroth had asked.

      Hanin’s old eyes flayed him, as though the issue were one that should never be raised. He had not answered.

      But Hanin had taught Bellarroth many things—how to cook and sew and hunt and survive. He found him shelter where there was none, fed him when vermin was scarce, and gave him thoughts beyond those of simple survival. The old man always appeared whenever he was needed.

      “What’s does my name mean, Hanin?” Bellarroth had asked once.

      “It means nothing, as now you mean nothing.” Hanin smiled ironically, his weathered face creasing into a complex pattern. “One day—in another place—you will be more important than you can imagine and then you will have a new name. Until that time, you are nothing.”

      Hanin spoke of the ‘other world’, the world he called Tharenweyr, born out of the dream of the fallen deity Errellinarth. He spoke to Bellarroth of many things in that other world—of great magic and the Deep Power, of greed and of ambition and how these evils had brought destruction; and he told Bellarroth of the exile of his mother, who was named Korrenea, onto Tammenallor’s shoulders. “Tammenallor?” Bellarroth would declare. “What is Tammenallor to me?”

      Tammenallor was a great cosmic monster, Hanin explained, a living world…one of the mythological Kharathahul who were said to inhabit the spaces outside reality—manifestations of the deepest of human emotions. “You live upon its shoulders. It’s no natural dwelling for men and women, rather a tomb and a prison…we’re simply parasites and die in futility like the vermin we parody, trapped in the guilt we have ourselves provoked.”

      Bellarroth protested. “Guilt? I have nothing to be guilty about.”

      Hanin smiled at him with affection. “Not you, my son—no, you are born of this place. The guilt is not yours. It belongs to those who brought it from the first world.” He sighed melodramatically. “But you inherit the consequences of their actions.”

      Bellarroth never understood the purpose of Hanin’s teachings, nor did he question the source of the old man’s knowledge. Only once had Hanin come close to that subject. “My son,” he’d said, “you are my expiation. Responsibility lies heavy on my soul and somewhere a world laden with pain by my indulgence. I will pay the debt.”

      Bellarroth knew from this that Hanin had been one of those whose guilty acts had created Tammenallor and exiled them both onto the monster’s vast shoulders. He did not understand what to do with the insight.

      Once they talked of death, Bellarroth asking whether it was true that life did not end, that each person was formed around a grain of the Immortal Being. But Hanin spurned his questioning. “I’m neither a god nor a prophet. Don’t ask me to delve beyond my mortal knowledge.” He lowered himself into a crouching position and stared at Bellarroth with his disturbingly lambent eyes. “This I can tell you, son. I am a dealer in the arcane and I live in power. To one such as I life consists less of surface and matter than it does of spirit, and though I have spent many years and much error learning the cause and the course of things, it is still the unpredictable, the mystery, that most forcibly defines my experience. If I chose I could draw my life into the smallest part of me, and it would survive there, invulnerable to blade and disease. I can’t be killed by mere attack upon the flesh. Something as malleable as the life that sustains me is not confined to flesh and space…truly it can resist the demands of time and the tyrannies of fate.”

      * * * *

      These thoughts were in Tashnark’s mind when he awoke. He felt threatened by them. It was mid-morning, as he discovered when he approached the window, the street beyond its imperfect glass still damp from storms that had raged across the City during the night. Early light reflected in sharp yellow patterns from the wet stonework. He heard someone, probably his mother, moving about below.

      Unwilling to risk communication at that moment, he dressed and left the house silently. The Skywave lay less than mid-firmament northward, its long scar of crackling energy sizzling the blue expanse white. Scattered clouds created bands of shadow. Around him, Koerpel-Na hummed—but suddenly it wasn’t his city. It seemed an alien place, its densely packed building-squares, its park lands, and bustling streets and markets as bizarre as anything that haunted his dreams. More so. At that moment, it was as though the strange landscape that Bellarroth trod was more familiar, more a part of him, than this place where he lived his real life.

      He trudged across the park behind his mother’s house, then over the central Dehum-Rewi thoroughfare just north of the Temple of Shaa-Derthperrit. That building’s imposing marble façade was expressionless and silent. A path wound past the Temple’s vegetable plots and several large storage buildings, ending among a tussle of bushes and windblown trees on a small cliff overlooking the harbor. Tashnark sat at the edge and stared across the deep blue water, which only gave way to an illusory strip of gray land far off on the other side of the bay. Several merchant ships and a scattering of smaller craft glided over the choppy surface. Sometimes all Tashnark wanted to do was get on one of those ships and travel to somewhere else. He didn’t know where.

      Later, when his stomach told him he should eat, he headed back the way he’d come, dodging the produce carts going to and coming from the docks along the main street. His mother waited for him.

      “Are you ill, Tashnark?” she asked. She was a small, compact woman, absurdly slight considering her son was so large. Tashnark looked at the delicate curves of her cheek bones and the fragility of her arms and wondered how the two of them could be related.

      “Bad dreams last night,” he said.

      “Again? Won’t you tell me about them?”

      He put his arm around her shoulders, which were on a level with his chest, and squeezed gently. It was an affectionate gesture but also dismissive. “They’re nothing,” he commented.

      She wouldn’t let it go. “Dreams are never nothing. You need to understand them.”

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