The Shuttle & The Making of a Marchioness. Frances Hodgson Burnett

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СКАЧАТЬ carriage had just rolled away carrying Lady Walderhurst home. The big, low-ceilinged, oak-beamed farmhouse parlour was full of the deep golden sunlight of the late afternoon, the air was heavy with the scent of roses and sweet-peas and mignonette, the adorable fragrance of English country-house rooms. Captain Osborn inhaled it at each breath as he stood and looked out of the diamond-paned window, watching the landau out of sight. He felt the scent and the golden glow of the sunset light as intensely as he felt the dead silence which reigned between himself and Hester almost with the effect of a physical presence. Hester was lying upon the sofa again, and he knew she was staring at his back with that sardonic widening of her long eyes, a thing he hated, and which always foreboded things not pleasant to face.

      He did not turn to face them until the footman’s cockade had disappeared finally behind the tall hedge, and the tramp of the horses’ feet was deadening itself in the lane. When he ceased watching and listening, he wheeled round suddenly.

      “What does it all mean?” he demanded. “Hang her foolish airs and graces._ Why_ won’t she ride, for she evidently does not intend to.”

      Hester laughed, a hard, short, savage little un-mirthful sound it was.

      “No, she doesn’t intend to,” she answered, “for many a long day, at least, for many a month. She has Sir Samuel Brent’s orders to take the greatest care of herself.”

      “Brent’s? Brent’s?”

      Hester struck her lean little hands together and laughed this time with a hint at hysteric shrillness.

      “I told you so, I told you so!” she cried. “I knew it would be so, I knew it! By the time she reaches her thirty-sixth birthday there will be a new Marquis of Walderhurst, and he won’t be either you or yours.” And as she finished, she rolled over on the sofa, and bit the cushions with her teeth as she lay face downwards on them. “He won’t be you, or belong to you,” she reiterated, and then she struck the cushions with her clenched fist.

      He rushed over to her, and seizing her by the shoulders shook her to and fro.

      “You don’t know what you are talking about,” he said; “you don’t know what you are saying.”

      “I do! I do! I do!” she screamed under her breath, and beat the cushions at every word. “It’s true, it’s true. She’s drivelling about it, drivelling!”

      Alec Osborn threw back his head, drawing in a hard breath which was almost a snort of fury.

      “By God!” he cried, “if she went out on Faustine now, she would not come back!”

      His rage had made him so far beside himself that he had said more than he intended, far more than he would have felt safe. But the girl was as far beside herself as he was, and she took him up.

      “Serve her right,” she cried. “I shouldn’t care. I hate her! I hate her! I told you once I couldn’t, but I do. She’s the biggest fool that ever lived. She knew nothing of what I felt. I believe she thought I would rejoice with her. I didn’t know whether I should shriek in her face or scream out laughing. Her eyes were as big as saucers, and she looked at me as if she felt like the Virgin Mary after the Annunciation. Oh! the stupid, inhuman fool!”

      Her words rushed forth faster and faster, she caught her breath with gasps, and her voice grew more shrill at every sentence. Osborn shook her again.

      “Keep quiet,” he ordered her. “You are going into hysterics, and it won’t do. Get hold of yourself.”

      “Go for Ameerah,” she gasped, “or I’m afraid I can’t. She knows what to do.”

      He went for Ameerah, and the silently gliding creature came bringing her remedies with her. She looked at her mistress with stealthily questioning but affectionate eyes, and sat down on the floor rubbing her hands and feet in a sort of soothing massage. Osborn went out of the room, and the two women were left together. Ameerah knew many ways of calming her mistress’s nerves, and perhaps one of the chief ones was to lead her by subtle powers to talk out her rages and anxieties. Hester never knew that she was revealing herself and her moods until after her interviews with the Ayah were over. Sometimes an hour or so had passed before she began to realise that she had let out things which she had meant to keep secret. It was never Ameerah who talked, and Hester was never conscious that she talked very much herself. But afterwards she saw that the few sentences she had uttered were such as would satisfy curiosity if the Ayah felt it. Also she was not, on the whole, at all sure that the woman felt it. She showed no outward sign of any interest other than the interest of a deep affection. She loved her young mistress to-day as passionately as she had loved her as a child when she had held her in her bosom as if she had been her own. By the time Emily Walderhurst had reached Palstrey, Ameerah knew many things. She understood that her mistress was as one who, standing upon the brink of a precipice, was being slowly but surely pushed over its edge—pushed, pushed by Fate. This was the thing imaged in her mind when she shut herself up in her room and stood alone in the midst of the chamber clenching her dark hands high above her white veiled head, and uttering curses which were spells, and spells which were curses.

      Emily was glad that she had elected to be alone as much as possible, and had not invited people to come and stay with her. She had not invited people, in honest truth, because she felt shy of the responsibility of entertainment while Walderhurst was not with her. It would have been proper to invite his friends, and his friends were all people she was too much in awe of, and too desirous to please to be able to enjoy frankly as society. She had told herself that when she had been married a few years she would be braver.

      And now her gladness was so devout that it was pure rejoicing. How could she have been calm, how could she have been conversational, while through her whole being there surged but one thought. She was sure that while she talked to people she would have been guilty of looking as if she was thinking of something not in the least connected with themselves.

      If she had been less romantically sentimental in her desire to avoid all semblance of burdening her husband she would have ordered him home at once, and demanded as a right the protection of his dignity and presence. If she had been less humble she would have felt the importance of her position and the gravity of the claims it gave her to his consideration, instead of being lost in prayerful gratitude to heaven.

      She had been rather stupidly mistaken in not making a confidante of Lady Maria Bayne, but she had been, in her big girl shyness, entirely like herself. In some remote part of her nature she had shrunk from a certain look of delighted amusement which she had known would have betrayed itself, despite her ladyship’s good intentions, in the eyes assisted by the smart gold lorgnette. She knew she was inclined to be hyper-emotional on this subject, and she felt that if she had seen the humour trying to conceal itself behind the eyeglasses, she might have been hysterical enough to cry even while she tried to laugh, and pass her feeling off lightly. Oh, no! Oh, no! Somehow she knew that at such a moment, for some fantastic, if subtle, reason, Lady Maria would only see her as Emily Fox-Seton, that she would have actually figured before her for an instant as poor Emily Fox-Seton making an odd confession. She could not have endured it without doing something foolish, she felt that she would not, indeed.

      So Lady Maria went gaily away to make her round of visits and be the amusing old life and soul of house-party after house-party, suspecting nothing of a possibility which would actually have sobered her for a moment.

      Emily passed her days at Palstrey in a state of happy exaltation. For a week or so they were spent in wondering whether or not she should write a letter to Lord Walderhurst which should convey the information to him which even Lady Maria would have regarded as important, but the more she argued the question СКАЧАТЬ