The Defence of Guenevere and Other Poems. William Morris

Чтение книги онлайн.

СКАЧАТЬ suppose your time were come to die,

       And you were quite alone and very weak;

       Yea, laid a dying while very mightily

      The wind was ruffling up the narrow streak

       Of river through your broad lands running well:

       Suppose a hush should come, then some one speak:

      'One of these cloths is heaven, and one is hell,

       Now choose one cloth for ever; which they be,

       I will not tell you, you must somehow tell

      Of your own strength and mightiness; here, see!'

       Yea, yea, my lord, and you to ope your eyes,

       At foot of your familiar bed to see

      A great God's angel standing, with such dyes,

       Not known on earth, on his great wings, and hands,

       Held out two ways, light from the inner skies

      Showing him well, and making his commands

       Seem to be God's commands, moreover, too,

       Holding within his hands the cloths on wands;

      And one of these strange choosing cloths was blue,

       Wavy and long, and one cut short and red;

       No man could tell the better of the two.

      After a shivering half-hour you said:

       'God help! heaven's colour, the blue;' and he said, 'hell.'

       Perhaps you then would roll upon your bed,

      And cry to all good men that loved you well,

       'Ah Christ! if only I had known, known, known;'

       Launcelot went away, then I could tell,

      Like wisest man how all things would be, moan,

       And roll and hurt myself, and long to die,

       And yet fear much to die for what was sown.

      Nevertheless you, O Sir Gauwaine, lie,

       Whatever may have happened through these years,

       God knows I speak truth, saying that you lie.

      Her voice was low at first, being full of tears,

       But as it cleared, it grew full loud and shrill,

       Growing a windy shriek in all men's ears,

      A ringing in their startled brains, until

       She said that Gauwaine lied, then her voice sunk,

       And her great eyes began again to fill,

      Though still she stood right up, and never shrunk,

       But spoke on bravely, glorious lady fair!

       Whatever tears her full lips may have drunk,

      She stood, and seemed to think, and wrung her hair,

       Spoke out at last with no more trace of shame,

       With passionate twisting of her body there:

      It chanced upon a day that Launcelot came

       To dwell at Arthur's court: at Christmas-time

       This happened; when the heralds sung his name,

      Son of King Ban of Benwick, seemed to chime

       Along with all the bells that rang that day,

       O'er the white roofs, with little change of rhyme.

      Christmas and whitened winter passed away,

       And over me the April sunshine came,

       Made very awful with black hail-clouds, yea

      And in the Summer I grew white with flame,

       And bowed my head down: Autumn, and the sick

       Sure knowledge things would never be the same,

      However often Spring might be most thick

       Of blossoms and buds, smote on me, and I grew

       Careless of most things, let the clock tick, tick,

      To my unhappy pulse, that beat right through

       My eager body; while I laughed out loud,

       And let my lips curl up at false or true,

      Seemed cold and shallow without any cloud.

       Behold my judges, then the cloths were brought;

       While I was dizzied thus, old thoughts would crowd,

      Belonging to the time ere I was bought

       By Arthur's great name and his little love;

       Must I give up for ever then, I thought,

      That which I deemed would ever round me move

       Glorifying all things; for a little word,

       Scarce ever meant at all, must I now prove

      Stone-cold for ever? Pray you, does the Lord

       Will that all folks should be quite happy and good?

       I love God now a little, if this cord

      Were broken, once for all what striving could

       Make me love anything in earth or heaven?

       So day by day it grew, as if one should

      Slip slowly down some path worn smooth and even,

       Down to a cool sea on a summer day;

       Yet still in slipping there was some small leaven

      Of stretched hands catching small stones by the way,

       Until one surely reached the sea at last,

       And felt strange new joy as the worn head lay

      Back, with the hair like sea-weed; yea all past

       Sweat of the forehead, dryness of the lips,

       Washed utterly out by the dear waves o'ercast,

      In the lone sea, far off from any ships!

       СКАЧАТЬ