Twice Upon Time. Nina Beaumont

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СКАЧАТЬ and desperation in his eyes. With contempt in his heart. Would he have despised her any less if she had surrendered to him?

      But as her eyes followed the progress of that thin cloud of dust, she felt emotion blaze through her. It was not the soft, melancholy yearning she had felt earlier. No, it was as strong as a lightning bolt, filling her to overflowing with light and heat and a kind of power she had never felt before. She was his, she thought. Alessio had been right when he had said that she belonged to him. She would never belong to anyone else. Ever.

      What was wrong with her? She threaded her fingers through her hair and fisted them, seeking the pain as confirmation that she was here and everything was as it had always been. But no confirmation came. Instead, images from the past hours drifted in front of her eyes and she knew that nothing was as it had been. What had happened to her? Was she going mad? Had she been cursed? Was she possessed?

      “Do you believe in ghosts, Lia?” she asked abruptly, still staring out over the treetops but seeing the woman on the beach. “Do you believe that ghosts can just appear out of nowhere and bewitch you?”

      “What are you saying?” The nurse crossed herself and then, with forefinger and little finger, made the sign against il malocchio, the evil eye, for good measure.

      “Nothing.” Bianca lapsed back into silence. Said aloud, it sounded absurd. Besides, even if ghosts existed, surely they did not appear in broad daylight.

      “Come inside, piccolina.” Lia stroked her hand down her charge’s wind-tangled black hair. “I will make you some spiced milk and a cool compress and you will rest.”

      “I need to be alone. I need to think.”

      “You can think inside. Come away now.” Lia frowned down at the trail of dust as if it were an enemy. He was a handsome man, Alessio was, she thought. And, behind the posturing that all males seemed to have in common, he had a good and noble heart. Under ordinary circumstances she would have spared no pains to bring him to Bianca’s bed. But she would kill him before she allowed him to bring misfortune upon the head of her beloved child. And he would, she thought. He would.

      “Come now,” she repeated.

      Bianca’s eyes widened as the image of the dark-clothed woman rose again. It grew until it filled her field of vision so completely that she saw nothing else. Then, just as suddenly, the image faded, leaving her as tired as if she had traveled for miles and miles, years and years.

      Because she did not seem to have the strength to prevent it, Bianca allowed Lia to lead her inside.

      

      The shadows had grown long and the light was becoming soft and rich when Bianca climbed up to the room at the top of the tower. All afternoon, Lia had alternately cosseted her and bullied her into eating, drinking and resting, but now she needed time alone. And she hoped that the narrow spiral staircase would, as usual, discourage anyone from disturbing her.

      She skirted around the table she had had brought up here. A pile of books lay there, and ink and paper, but it was the windows that drew her. They were tucked so high under the eaves that she needed a stool to be able to look outside and, as always, she wondered what it would have been like to stand at one of the windows with bow and arrow or harquebus and aim at an attacker.

      Each side of the square tower had three windows, allowing her to look in any direction. She was not a woman with a great capacity for stillness, but here, she had been surprised to find that she could stand at the windows for hours and soak in the vista spread out beneath her.

      She had fought her father when he had banished her to the villa for flouting conventions once too often. He would not allow her, he had shouted at her, to jeopardize her approaching marriage to one of the richest men in Florence. But here, in the tower room, she had barely missed the amusements and temptations of the city.

      Lia had teased her that up in the tower she felt like a queen beholding her kingdom. But Bianca knew that it was more than that. She had been alone here but had not been lonely. She had spent her days in waiting and yet had felt no impatience. The silent power of the world she saw from her tower room had nurtured her, although she could not have said why.

      Lifting her skirts, she climbed up on the stool, which stood under the windows that looked out toward the sea, forgetting that that very morning she had watched the sunrise from the windows that lay opposite.

      The orange sun was already edging down toward the water as she put her arms on the sill and rested her chin on her linked fingers. The only movement outside was that of the swallows and black martins and sea gulls gliding and swooping for their dinner. The only sounds were their raucous calls.

      From the top of the hill where the villa stood, the sand was only a narrow yellow ribbon alongside the dark blue sea, whose surface was gilded by the setting sun. For a moment, she wished herself down there, where she could sit on the rock, listen to the rushing sound of the evening tide rolling in and imagine herself free to sail away to foreign lands that smelled of flowers and spices.

      But she knew if she went down to the beach, her thoughts would not be of strange, exotic lands. Would she ever be able to walk on the beach again and not think of Alessio? For as long as she lived, she would remember what it had felt like to have his mouth on hers. She would remember his taste, his scent mingled with the salt and tang of the sea. And she would want.

      What would her father say, she wondered, if he knew that, here, her coming marriage was in far greater jeopardy than it could ever have been in the city? In the city there were many men who vied for her attention, showered her with compliments, serenaded her under her window and wrote sonnets praising her beauty. And she did not care a fig for a single one of them. Yet here, where she had no one but Lia and Angelica and a few servants for company, a single visit from Alessio had been enough to upset her world.

      No, she corrected herself, her marriage was not in jeopardy. Hadn’t she told Alessio that she intended to marry Ugo? And she’d meant it. Damn it, she’d meant it. Angrily, she blocked out the doubt that sliced through her as easily as a hot knife slices through butter.

      And Alessio bad not upset her world. Granted, he had tilted it a little, but she would deal with that. She had dealt with worse, after all, she told herself, remembering the birth of Cecilia’s bastard child in the squalid little room behind the Mercato Vecchio. Remembering what it had felt like to hold a bundle of life in her arms, to carry it through dark and narrow streets and leave it at the foundlings’ hospital like an unwanted puppy. She had sworn then that someday she would have enough money, enough power to do something, to change things. And because she was a woman—her mouth curled in disdain at her own weakness—the only way she could do this was through a rich and powerful husband.

      The sun had almost reached the water, the last golden rays slanting across the narrow strip of beach to glance off the glittery specks in the pile of boulders that were just visible from the tower. The memory of how she had been pressed between those rocks and Alessio’s body swept through her like a storm wind, obliterating every other thought, obliterating her awareness of the world around her. She did not hear the footsteps on the stairs or on the brick tiles behind her.

      “What do you see when you look out there, Bianca? I’ve looked, but I cannot understand it.”

      Surprised, Bianca frowned at the sound of her sister’s even voice. Jumping down lightly from the stool, she went toward her.

      “You’ve been up here?” She cupped her sister’s colorless cheek with one hand. “I thought you—” she paused to soften her words“—didn’t СКАЧАТЬ