Hanging by a Thread. Karen Templeton

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      You know, I always swore I’d never put her off, never dismiss her questions. But for some reason, I’d always pictured her being older and me being awake. And that I’d have answers that actually made sense. To at least one of us. Why is life so freaking messy?

      I pull her into my arms. “Would you be really mad at me if I told you I can’t answer your question right now, but I promise I will one day?”

      “Why can’t you tell me now?”

      Why couldn’t I have had a kid content to ask me why the sky’s blue? Or, since we live in New York, snot-colored?

      “Because, baby, I just can’t.”

      “Like you can’t about Tina?”

      “Kinda, yeah.”

      “Well, that just blows,” she says, and I’m sorry, I can’t help it. I burst out laughing.

      Starr’s bottom lip starts to tremble. “It’s not funny.”

      I hug her harder, trying to tamp down the chuckles. Underneath that so-cool-I-rule exterior is a very sensitive little girl. “I know it’s not, honey. And I’m not laughing at you. But honestly—where did you hear that?”

      “Jason. He says it all the time. He says some other stuff, too, but he told me I can’t say those words, ’cause you’d burn his butt.”

      I crack up all over again.

      Of course, the next time I see Jason, he is so dead.

      “Ohmigod! Ellie Levine!”

      Ten days have passed. I’m standing in a crush of bodies at a new deli close to work—I’d given my old one the heave-ho the day I saw a cockroach the size of the Hindenburg taking a stroll through the potato salad—when I hear the voice. I crane my neck, but even in four-inch heels all I see are chests and arms.

      “Ellie! It’s me! Mari!”

      My mouth drops open. Ohmigod, is right. Mariposa Estevez, my best friend from college. We fall into each other’s arms—much to the annoyance of the hundred or so people in our immediate vicinity—as I wonder how I managed to lose touch with somebody I thought would always be close.

      Of course, then I remember. Daniel. Who happened at a time in my life when I hadn’t yet figured out there’s a difference between installing a man as the center of my universe and letting everybody else spin right out of my orbit.

      “Girl,” Mari says with a huge smile. “You are looking good!”

      She is nothing if not kind.

      The tall, thin product of a French mother and a black Cuban father, the woman in front of me, the woman fully aware that every straight man in the place is gawking at her, the woman radiating some out-of-this-world perfume she probably didn’t rub on her wrists from a magazine strip, is unbelievably gorgeous. Skin a perfect golden milky color, huge dark gold eyes, God-given below-the-shoulder ringlets, full lips shimmering in some right-this-minute burgundy that would make me look like my great-aunt Esther three weeks after her funeral. She is wearing a coat that, swear to God, looks like it’s made out of rags, thigh high black leather boots with five inch spike heels that scream dominatrix (but classy), a striped miniskirt and a tiny, olive-green cashmere sweater that on anyone else would look like moldy cheese.

      “So are you!” I say, thinking, Why is it so hard to hate nice people?

      “Numbah fawty-three!” booms from behind the counter.

      I check my number. Seventy-five.

      “I can’t believe we lost track of each other!” she says, beaming. “How are you doing? What are you doing?”

      “Seventh Avenue,” I hedge. “You?”

      Mari rattles off a major designer name. As in, not just first tier, but on the right hand of God. “But I’m thinking of moving on. It’s all about keeping your options open, you know? Listen, I’m running like three years behind here—” she grins “—but we have got to get together for drinks…shit, hold on…”

      She pivots to the man behind her and says at the top of her voice, “You got some kinda affliction that makes you grab women’s butts or what? And don’t even think about giving me some sorry-assed story about how crowded it is in here. You don’t see me with my hand on your balls, do you?” Then, muttering “Jerk,” she turns back to me, fishing for something in her pocketbook. Gucci. This year’s. The girl is doing well. “Are you uptown or down?”

      “Oh, um, actually…neither. But here’s my cell…” I pretend to rummage through my purse. “Damn. I must’ve left my card case at work.”

      “Not a problem.” She pulls out a second card, scribbles my cell number on it. “I’ve gotta couple evenings free next week. Will that work for you?”

      “Uh, sure.”

      “I’ll call you, I swear!” she says, slithering through the crowd, undoubtedly leaving a plethora of hard-ons in her wake.

      “Sixty-fowah?” I hear. “Sixty-five? Yo, sixty-five?”

      My bag rings. My arms squeezed so close to my ribs I’m about to suffocate in my cleavage, I somehow get my phone from my purse, while number sixty-six—presumably—and one of the guys behind the counter are having a major set-to about exactly how fresh the tuna salad is. Guy sounds like nothing’s gonna do it for him short of the fish swimming up the Hudson that morning, then taking a taxi over from the 42nd Street pier.

      “Hey,” comes the faint, pitiful voice through the phone after I say hello. “It’s me.”

      I now understand what they mean by “her heart leaped into her throat.”

      “Tina?” I press the phone harder to my ear, stuffing my index finger in the other one. “I can’t hear you very well—where are you?”

      “Home,” I barely hear as “Seventy-five!” booms right in front of me. Jesus. How’d it get to be my number so fast? I wave my hand; a round-faced, white-shirted man beckons to me with a gruff, “Okay, sweetheart, what’ll it be?”

      “Hang on,” I say into the phone, then: “Liverwurst on whole wheat, mayo on the side, lettuce, pickle.” Back into the phone: “We’ve got a crappy connection, I can’t hear you—”

      “We just ran outta whole wheat, you wan’ white, rye or pumpernickel?”

      It’s not even noon, for God’s sake, how can they be out of whole wheat already? “Rye. No seeds—”

      “Oh, God, Ellie—I’m so sorry…”

      “About…what?”

      “I couldn’t go through with it.” By now, she’s sobbing. “I just got too scared.”

      My stomach drops. “What are you talking about?”

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