The Complete Helen Forrester 4-Book Memoir: Twopence to Cross the Mersey, Liverpool Miss, By the Waters of Liverpool, Lime Street at Two. Helen Forrester

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СКАЧАТЬ on by two shipping clerks shivering with him in one of the endless queues in which he spent most of his life, he applied to the relieving officer of the public assistance committee for help to buy a pair of shoes and a pair of gloves.

      Clothing, he was told tardy, was given in kind and stamped with the initials of the public assistance committee, so that it could not be sold or pawned.

      ‘I don’t mind what it is stamped with,’ replied Father humbly, ‘as long as it lessens the pain in my hands.’

      His case file was sent for and examined.

      ‘You are not eligible for help with clothing,’ was the verdict. ‘You do not come under the jurisdiction of Liverpool.’

      The same old problem. We were not from Liverpool. Our rate of public assistance was that given in the small town from which we came, and the sum was collected from that town by Liverpool. We got none of the little extras such as money for winter coal or for Christmas which Liverpool struggled to give its less fortunate citizens, nor were we eligible for clothing.

      ‘What shall I do?’ my father cried, in despair.

      ‘Try one of the voluntary agencies.’

      So Father got the run-around as it was sometimes called. He was sent from agency to agency. And they all said they could not help, because he was drawing public assistance and could get boots from that committee. In vain, he explained that the town from which we had come did not give clothing and we were ineligible for help from Liverpool.

      One agency offered second-hand boots at a very reduced price, but any price was too high for us to pay. We had once spent three shillings in a secondhand clothes shop in an effort to make my mother presentable again, feeling that she had the better chance of employment, and had had to reduce our meagre food intake to a dangerous level, in consequence. If it had not been for our kind policeman’s pint of milk, Edward would have surely died that week.

      Then Mother suddenly got a job ‘on commission only’. She was to sell radios from door to door.

      Up and down the better-class streets she tramped, knocking at each door and trying to beguile reluctant housewives into agreeing to a demonstration of the radio in their homes. On the third day, she did find a woman willing to listen to her, and it was agreed that the radio would be brought that night for her husband to see.

      The demonstration radio, meanwhile, was delivered to the door of our house by a supervisor, and was taken in by Miss Sinford, the most presentable of all the inhabitants.

      ‘Helen!’ she shrieked up the stairs to me. ‘Come and remove this wicked temptation from the hall!’

      I ran down the stairs with Edward on my hip.

      Miss Sinford pointed an accusing finger at a cardboard box and a wet battery beside it. The box was clearly marked that it contained a radio, and I guessed that it had been delivered in connection with Mother’s new job.

      ‘Thank you, Miss Sinford.’

      I sat Edward down on the grubby hall runner, and Miss Sinford withdrew with one of her loudest sniffs of disapproval. Avril had followed me down, and I left her to mind Edward while I puffed my way upstairs again with the radio. I made a second journey for the wet battery and carried it up so fast that I splashed some of the acid on my bare legs, burning them painfully.

      A third journey was made to retrieve Edward and Avril.

      Still panting from the journeys up and down, I read the instructions on the outside of the box to Avril, and then very carefully unpacked the radio and put it on the table. I plugged in the wet and dry batteries and nervously turned one of the knobs. The shining newness of it awed us both.

      Suddenly the room was filled with the sweet sound of violins.

      Avril climbed up on to one of the chairs and put her head close to the speaker and Edward smiled and sucked his thumb. I stood in ecstasy while the music swept round me.

      We spent a blissful afternoon listening to a faraway world where people spoke as we did and music was part of life.

      My parents were extremely angry when they came home and found the radio unpacked and working.

      ‘It does not belong to us,’ said my mother furiously. ‘You know quite well that you are not to touch anything which does not belong to you.’

      ‘I haven’t harmed it,’ I said defiantly.

      ‘No, she has not,’ interrupted Avril aggressively. ‘And I heard a nice lady say “happy birthday” and “hello, twins” on Children’s Hour and I liked it.’

      ‘Well,’ said Father, turning it off firmly. ‘Don’t touch it again.’

      Mother said, ‘I have to demonstrate it tonight, to Mr and Mrs Smithers, and I don’t know how to do it.’

      ‘You just put these plugs in here, like Helen did, and you turn that knob there,’ instructed Avril, stabbing the appropriate plugs and knob with a grubby finger. ‘And it goes.’

      She looked up at my mother with hard blue eyes, as if daring her to say she was not right.

      Father smiled.

      ‘She is right, you know. That is all you have to do.’ He looked worried. ‘I suppose the supervisor will move the thing to the Smithers’ house for you in his car?’

      ‘Heavens, no. I have to take it myself.’

      ‘But you can’t carry that weight,’ we said in chorus.

      ‘Besides,’ I added, sadly surveying the burning marks on my grey legs, ‘the acid from the wet battery can splash and burn your stockings.’

      We all knew that without stockings Mother was not suitably dressed for work, and we had all observed that even if she was not much interested in us, she was more alive, more aware of things going on around her, when looking for work.

      Silence fell upon the family. The radio and its batteries were really too awkward for anyone to carry any distance.

      Tony, who had been playing one of his endless games of puffer-trains with a dead cinder from the fireplace, looked up, as he shunted his imaginary train into an imaginary siding, and said quietly, ‘Put it in the Chariot and wheel it round to the lady’s house.’

      We all burst out laughing, and I snatched Edward out of the pram.

      ‘Try it for size,’ I invited.

      Very carefully, the radio was put back into its box and lowered into the stinking pram. The batteries followed. It all fitted in.

      A gentle sigh of relief went through the family.

      We ate a hasty meal of boiled potatoes, which tasted strongly of the smoke from an old shoe I had picked up in the street and brought home for fuel. Then, since it was dark, the whole family went in procession behind Father, who carefully wheeled the Chariot with its unusual contents. I clutched Edward to me and brought up the rear.

      Down the street under the light of the gas-lamps we marched, past the brothels, past the garish lights and conversational roar of the local СКАЧАТЬ