Just for the Rush. Jane Lark

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СКАЧАТЬ here was I thinking this invitation was a spur-of-the-moment thing, to get over a bad day.’

      ‘It is that. But also a good excuse to fulfil a few fantasies. Since you walked into the room for your interview, with those ridiculously long legs, I’ve been imagining some fun things.’

      ‘You’re far too sure of yourself, Jack.’

      ‘And you are far too unsure. I know you had no expectation this would happen.’

      We’d flirted at work for years, but this wasn’t flirting, it was honesty. ‘If you fancied me, why didn’t you make a move earlier?’

      ‘I told you, Em’s been warning me off. Plus you had Rick on the scene, and I never got the vibe that you’d be up for cheating.’

      ‘No, I wouldn’t have done anything when I was with Rick, or you were with Sharon.’

      ‘Well then, perfect timing. A whole holiday of naughty to get over our sexual buzz, which has been crackling around the office for two years.’

      ‘And then what?’

      ‘Don’t be a woman, Ivy. Be a predator. ‘After’ doesn’t matter. Don’t think about it. ‘Now’ matters. Thinking about after is what makes life dull. You said you didn’t want dull.’

      Thinking of ‘after’ is what makes people sensible. The retort Rick would have given raced through my head. But I wasn’t Rick. Think of now, I chanted in my head. That was what I’d wanted to do. That was why I was here.

      Jack turned the music up as he navigated through the traffic in the city. There were thousands of people making their way out of London tonight, going home to family.

      He glanced over at me. ‘What do you normally do this time of year?’

      ‘Go home to my parents, or Rick’s parents, it was an alternate-year thing.’

      ‘The parents fought over you two, then?’

      ‘No, what I mean is, alternate years his parents came to mine, or my parents went to his. They’re good friends.’

      He glanced over again and laughed. ‘Oh shit. Now I get why you’re alone.’

      ‘I’m disowned.’ I laughed, in a weird way. I’d been trying to laugh it off, but it hadn’t been working. It hurt. ‘I was told to stay away. Mum’s embarrassed by me. She hasn’t worked out how to be in the middle of all the mess I made and she didn’t feel like she could cancel the dinner invitation. So Rick and his parents are with my parents and I’m here.’

      ‘And his parents?’

      ‘Think I’ll come around. They say what Rick says; it’s just jitters.’

      ‘Is it jitters?’

      I looked at him, watching him drive. He was more of a silhouette in the dark as the streetlights and shop windows flashed past. ‘No, it’s not jitters. I like him, he is a really nice man, but I don’t love him. Or maybe it is love, but in the way I’d love a friend. I can’t build a life on that. I’d hate him in the end.’

      ‘Well, I know how that feels.’

      ‘What do you normally do?’

      ‘Me?’ He glanced over. It made me realise how rarely Jack spoke about himself. ‘One thing I never did was see my parents. They’d have considered it hell if I brought Sharon over for lunch. Sometimes we took Sharon’s parents out to a restaurant if they came to London, but not every year. Sharon preferred to party Christmas Eve and paid more weight to that than what we did Christmas Day. Christmas and Boxing Day were about recovering.’ He breathed in, like he thought of something else he would say, but he didn’t say it.

      ‘Do you realise you said that word three times, then?’

      ‘Oh fuck, I did, didn’t I? Alright, from now on, if either of us says it, the other gets to think of a forfeit.’

      I smiled at that, imagining all sorts of forfeits I’d choose for him, while my tummy quivered, wondering what he’d pick for me. ‘I might start using the word to make you give me forfeits.’

      He laughed. ‘Then I’d change the rules. I seriously hate that word now. I hate the whole notion of it and everything it stands for.’

      ‘Ooo, got it. Bitter… much…’

      He glanced over at me and laughed, shaking his head.

      ‘When did you meet Sharon?’

      ‘The year we started the business up, oddly enough, although now I realise not oddly at all. I met her the night we won our first big contract. Em always had Sharon down as a money-grabbing bitch.’

      ‘If Emma didn’t like Sharon, why did you go ahead and marry her?’

      ‘Em is my friend, not my minder. I listen to what she says in business, I don’t listen to her when she is commenting on my private life, and that’s exactly why you’re in this car, Ivy.’

      Point noted. I grinned at him. ‘But—’

      ‘No buts, leave it. I don’t want to talk about Sharon, not tonight anyway. I’ve had my fill of her today.’

      ‘Sorry.’

      ‘You don’t need to apologise, just avoid the subject.’

      ‘We seem to be setting a lot of rules that are narrowing down our conversation, so I’m just going to shut up. Do you have any quieter music on your phone?’

      ‘Take a look. You can manage the music.’ He reached into his inside pocket and pulled out his phone. It had been playing the music via Bluetooth. I opened up his music and scanned through the albums as he drove out of London. I chose Ed Sheeran’s album Multiply, then shut my eyes, listening to the songs as we hit the motorway. The car was warm with the air-con up high and the seat was comfortable.

      When I woke up Jack had Maroon 5 playing, and his hand tapped on the steering wheel as he sang along to ‘Sugar’.

      I stretched my arms up. I’d dreamt he’d been watching me through the whole of the Monday meeting and then before he closed the meeting he’d walked up, taken my hand and pulled me out of there and we’d run away.

      It was sort of real; I was in a car with him.

      I looked through the windscreen into the middle of nowhere. We were on a virtually deserted motorway.

      ‘What time is it?’

      ‘Hey, sleepy-head.’ He glanced over and smiled then looked at the clock in the dashboard that I could have looked at. ‘It’s eleven-ten. I was just going to stop, stretch my legs and get a coffee.’

      ‘I need a pee.’

      ‘That too. These are the last services before the Lake District.’

      ‘How far away are we from СКАЧАТЬ