Wicked Wives. Anna-Lou Weatherley

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СКАЧАТЬ it better but as always, something stopped him; at the end of the day, kindness felt just too much like weakness.

      ‘Face it, kiddo,’ he snorted, ‘this time next year you’ll be in the clubs shaking it for men like my dear old dad downstairs.’

      Ellie pulled her knees into her chest and hugged them. She vehemently resented this remark, if only for the fact that she feared it might be true.

      ‘You know nothing, wanker!’ she spat back.

      Tom laughed, amused by her outburst. He liked that she was feisty. They were similar that way. He pulled her back down onto the bed next to him. ‘Well, if it’s any consolation, I believe you’ll be someone, someday,’ he said, keen to get her back on side. ‘Though whether you’ll ever be as successful as me … now that’s debatable.’

      ‘Oh really?’ she raised a sarcastic eyebrow.

      ‘In ten years’ time I’ll be a multi-millionaire.’ He propped himself up on his elbow, looking down at her with an arrogance that she found irresistible. ‘The boats, the jets, the houses and cars, the jewellery …’ he raised his hands in demonstration. ‘The whole fucking enchilada … I’ll have it all. I’ll call them Black’s. Have hot girls dancing for me, on my payroll … king of the fucking clubs.’ He jabbed his chest with his thumb.

      ‘What, like your old man, you mean?’ She grinned facetiously.

      ‘Watch me, you’ll see. Actually, me and Jack are onto something as we speak,’ he tapped his nose with a conspiratorial finger. ‘I might even give you a job if you ask me nicely. Pay you to shake your little ass in my club.’

      Ellie hit him with a pillow. ‘You’re disgusting,’ she made to turn away from him, but he was too quick for her and held her there, her strength no match for his.

      ‘So easy to wind up …’

      Ellie had grown used to Tom’s unpredictability over the years they had lived together. In fact, as far as she was concerned, it was all part of his appeal. The proverbial sunshine and showers; that was Tom. You never knew what you were going to get.

      A sickening thud from downstairs stopped their conversation mid-track and Ellie winced.

      ‘Sounds like they’re really going for it tonight,’ Tom remarked after a long moment.

      He held her then and she felt a genuine tenderness in his touch.

      ‘I mean it, Tom,’ she said, fighting back tears as she buried her face into his warm chest. He smelt of cheap aftershave and fags. ‘I’m going to get out of here and make a good life for myself one day; be rich and successful; be happy …’

      ‘We’re gonna be winners. I know it.’

      Ellie loved Tom when he said things like this. Things that gave her hope for the future, a future she could not envisage without him. ‘We’ll make it together. You’ll get out of this festering shit pit and make something of your life, fulfil your dreams, because that’s the kind of woman you are.’ He paused for a moment, allowing his carefully chosen words to resonate.

      Ellie was floored. He had never referred to her as a ‘woman’ before.

      ‘I love you, Tom,’ she whispered the words just loud enough for him to hear them.

      She would marry Tom Black and they would make a life together. Her, a famous ballerina, him a lauded entrepreneur, the kind of couple that women envied and men wanted to be. It was their destiny, she felt sure of it.

      Tom’s hand moved gently upwards of her thigh, gently resting between her legs. This time Ellie did not move it. Maybe he was right after all; what difference did a day make?

      *

      Coming round from her shallow slumber, Ellie sat up in her bed and, rubbing her gritty eyes, brought her knees up to her chest and hugged them tightly, cursing herself. She felt the heat pulse between her legs, a dull ache for him. Even dreaming of Tom felt like a terrible betrayal of her husband and yet there were times when she could not prevent it; it was times like this, in the dark of a lonely night, that he dripped into her psyche, resurrecting feelings she had spent a lifetime trying to bury.

      Though she attempted to deny it to herself, Ellie knew she had loved Tom Black with a deep, intense passion and burning lust that regrettably she had never mimicked with her husband. With Tom it had been instantaneous and all-consuming; she had wanted him with a base ferocity that had scared her, if only for the fact that deep down she suspected it would one day destroy her – a supposition that had nearly turned out to be correct in the end. It had always bothered Ellie that it had not been the same way with her husband. A husband who she knew would walk the world barefoot twice over to make her happy and give her what she wanted in life. She heard her mother’s familiar voice resounding inside her mind, ‘the heart wants what the heart wants, Eleanor,’ she would say as if to justify her own dubious choices. ‘You don’t choose love; it chooses you.’ And yet Tom had turned her over without a backwards glance the moment Loretta Fiorentino had strutted into the Venus Club, all tits and lips and cheap costume jewellery, seducing him with her exotic accent and talk of going places. Loretta had set her cap at Tom Black that night and had promised him the earth in a bid to lure him into her lair; money, clubs, contacts, ‘the whole enchilada’, as Tom had put it. Not that Tom had needed much persuading. He was going places, with or without Ellie in tow, and had abandoned her without a second’s thought; though some years later he would vehemently deny this betrayal, attempting to prove his love to her one final time …

      It was no good. Ellie threw back the fine cream silk sheets and flung her long, slim dancer’s legs over the side of the intricately carved four-poster Fratelli Basile bed that in a twist of irony her husband had imported from Italy, her Agent Provocateur lace chemise sliding down her naked body as she stood. Making her way over to her dressing table, she sat down on the cushioned stool and blinked at her reflection; seeing herself as a stranger would. Ellie pulled at her skin absentmindedly, poking her tongue out before reaching for her Crème de la Mer serum. Eye bags she could cope with; she could have them removed tomorrow if the fancy took her, it was just her past that wasn’t so easily erased.

      Ellie snapped herself out of her thoughts by applying a dollop of Laura Mercier Fig hand cream, inhaling the deep, earthy sweet scent as she rubbed it into her skin. She had to stop this; no good had ever come out of raking over the past.

      It was that bloody bitch Loretta’s photograph that had triggered all of this. Ellie had spent decades repressing her past with an iron will that would’ve flawed a heavyweight champion, and so tonight felt like a defeat, though if she was honest, it had also been cathartic. Thinking of Tom had allowed her to remember the girl she had once been, someone she had denied for the past two decades. A girl that, in an odd way, she missed being.

      Ellie’s iPhone suddenly beeped, and alarmed, she snatched it up from the bedside table.

      ‘Oh thank God,’ she breathed aloud as the message came into view.

      Hi Mom, Dont worry bout me. Havin a GR8 time. B in touch soon. Tx

      She stared at the text for a moment. Something was different somehow but she couldn’t quite put her finger on what it was. The use of the word ‘Mom’ perhaps.

      Ellie slid back into bed. She was just being paranoid. Tess was OK, and even though she could not quite shake the sense of unease СКАЧАТЬ