I Will Find You: In Search of the Man Who Raped Me. Joanna Connors
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Название: I Will Find You: In Search of the Man Who Raped Me

Автор: Joanna Connors

Издательство: HarperCollins

Жанр: Биографии и Мемуары

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      I Will Find You

      JOANNA CONNORS

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       Copyright

      4th Estate

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      This eBook first published in Great Britain by 4th Estate in 2016

      First published in the United States in 2016 by

      Atlantic Monthly Press, an imprint of Grove Atlantic

      Copyright © 2016 by Joanna Connors

      Cover photo © Mark Owen / Trevillion Images

      Joanna Connors asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work

      A catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library

      Epigraph quote by James Baldwin from “As Much Truth As One Can Bear,” The New York Times (January 14, 1962). Quote on p. 76 from Ovid’s Metamorphoses, translated by Rolfe Humphries (Indiana University Press, 1955), 146–48. Quote on p. 115 by James Baldwin from “Lorraine Hansberry at the Summit,” Freedomways 19:4 (1979) 269–72.

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      Source ISBN: 9780007521869

      Ebook Edition © April 2016 ISBN: 9780007521876

      Version: 2017-02-20

      For Dan and Zoe, beloved And for Chris, who went through it with me

       Author’s Note

      It’s no surprise that the term “Rashomon effect” comes from a movie about a rape and murder. Akira Kurosawa’s masterpiece (based on the work of Ryūnosuke Akutagawa) tells the story of a violent encounter in the woods through the testimony of four characters. Each one recounts a different version of what happened—including the murdered samurai, who testifies through a medium.

      “Rashomon effect” has become shorthand for the way perspective can alter memory. Neuroscientific research suggests that memory is not solid. It is capricious and highly susceptible to outside influence, and changes with each retrieval from the brain.

      The addition of trauma makes memory the ultimate unreliable narrator of our own past.

      I fact-checked my memories in this book with as much evidence as possible, including stacks of documents, dozens of recorded interviews, and my own journals.

      But I also relied on my memories. Others who experienced this trauma may, like the woodcutter or the wife in Rashomon, have other perspectives and other stories to tell. To honor their privacy, I have changed the names of some of the people in this book, and changed characteristics that might identify them.

       “Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”

      —James Baldwin

      Contents

       Cover

       Title Page

       Dedication

       Epigraph

       Chapter Four

       Chapter Five

       Chapter Six

       Chapter Seven

       Chapter Eight

       Chapter Nine

       Chapter Ten

       Chapter Eleven

       Chapter Twelve

       Chapter Thirteen

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