Tracy Chevalier 3-Book Collection: Girl With a Pearl Earring, Remarkable Creatures, Falling Angels. Tracy Chevalier

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      He began the painting of the baker's daughter with a layer of pale grey on the white canvas. Then he made reddish-brown marks all over it to indicate where the girl and the table and pitcher and window and map would go. After that I thought he would begin to paint what he saw — a girl's face, a blue skirt, a yellow and black bodice, a brown map, a silver pitcher and basin, a white wall. Instead he painted patches of colour — black where her skirt would be, ochre for the bodice and the map on the wall, red for the pitcher and the basin it sat in, another grey for the wall. They were the wrong colours — none was the colour of the thing itself. He spent a long time on these false colours, as I called them.

      Sometimes the girl came and spent hour after hour standing in place, yet when I looked at the painting the next day nothing had been added or taken away. There were just areas of colour that did not make things, no matter how long I studied them. I only knew what they were meant to be because I cleaned the objects themselves, and had seen what the girl was wearing when I peeked at her one day as she changed into Catharina's yellow and black bodice in the great hall.

      I reluctantly set out the colours he asked for each morning. One day I put out a blue as well. The second time I laid it out he said to me, ‘No ultramarine, Griet. Only the colours I asked for. Why did you set it out when I did not ask for it?’ He was annoyed.

      ‘I'm sorry, sir. It's just —’ I took a deep breath — ‘she is wearing a blue skirt. I thought you would want it, rather than leaving it black.’

      ‘When I am ready, I will ask.’

      I nodded and turned back to polishing the lion-head chair. My chest hurt. I did not want him to be angry at me.

      He opened the middle window, filling the room with cold air.

      ‘Come here, Griet.’

      I set my rag on the sill and went to him.

      ‘Look out the window.’

      I looked out. It was a breezy day, with clouds disappearing behind the New Church tower.

      ‘What colour are those clouds?’

      ‘Why, white, sir.’

      He raised his eyebrows slightly. ‘Are they?’

      I glanced at them. ‘And grey. Perhaps it will snow.’

      ‘Come, Griet, you can do better than that. Think of your vegetables.’

      ‘My vegetables, sir?’

      He moved his head slightly. I was annoying him again. My jaw tightened.

      ‘Think of how you separated the whites. Your turnips and your onions — are they the same white?’

      Suddenly I understood. ‘No. The turnip has green in it, the onion yellow.’

      ‘Exactly. Now, what colours do you see in the clouds?’

      ‘There is some blue in them,’ I said after studying them for a few minutes. ‘And — yellow as well. And there is some green!’ I became so excited I actually pointed. I had been looking at clouds all my life, but I felt as if I saw them for the first time at that moment.

      He smiled. ‘You will find there is little pure white in clouds, yet people say they are white. Now do you understand why I do not need the blue yet?’

      ‘Yes, sir.’ I did not really understand, but did not want to admit it. I felt I almost knew.

      When at last he began to add colours on top of the false colours, I saw what he meant. He painted a light blue over the girl's skirt, and it became a blue through which bits of black could be seen, darker in the shadow of the table, lighter closer to the window. To the wall areas he added yellow ochre, through which some of the grey showed. It became a bright but not a white wall. When the light shone on the wall, I discovered, it was not white, but many colours.

      The pitcher and basin were the most complicated — they became yellow, and brown, and green, and blue. They reflected the pattern of the rug, the girl's bodice, the blue cloth draped over the chair — everything but their true silver colour. And yet they looked as they should, like a pitcher and a basin.

      After that I could not stop looking at things.

      It became harder to hide what I was doing when he wanted me to help him make the paints. One morning he took me up to the attic, reached by a ladder in the storeroom next to the studio. I had never been there before. It was a small room, with a steeply slanted roof and a window that let in light and a view of the New Church. There was little there apart from a small cupboard and a stone table with a hollow place in it, holding a stone shaped like an egg with one end cut off. I had seen a similar table once at my father's tile factory. There were also some vessels — basins and shallow earthenware plates — as well as tongs by the tiny fireplace.

      ‘I would like you to grind some things here for me, Griet,’ he said. He opened a cupboard drawer and took out a black stick the length of my little finger. ‘This is a piece of ivory, charred in the fire,’ he explained. ‘For making black paint.’

      Dropping it in the bowl of the table, he added a gummy substance that smelled of animal. Then he picked up the stone, which he called a muller, and showed me how to hold it, and how to lean over the table and use my weight against the stone to crush the bone. After a few minutes he had ground it into a fine paste.

      ‘Now you try.’ He scooped the black paste into a small pot and got out another piece of ivory. I took up the muller and tried to imitate his stance as I leaned over the table.

      ‘No, your hand needs to do this.’ He placed his hand over mine. The shock of his touch made me drop the muller, which rolled off the table and fell on the floor.

      I jumped away from him and bent down to pick it up. ‘I'm sorry, sir,’ I muttered, placing the muller in the bowl.

      He did not try to touch me again.

      ‘Move your hand up a little,’ he commanded instead. ‘That's right. Now use your shoulder to turn, your wrist to finish.’

      It took me much longer to grind my piece, for I was clumsy and flustered from his touch. And I was smaller than him, and unused to the movement I was meant to make. At least my arms were strong from wringing out laundry.

      ‘A little finer,’ he suggested when he inspected the bowl. I ground for a few more minutes before he decided it was ready, having me rub the paste between my fingers so I would know how fine he wanted it. Then he laid several more pieces of bone on the table. ‘Tomorrow I will show you how to grind white lead. It is much easier than bone.’

      I stared at the ivory.

      ‘What is it, Griet? You're not frightened of a few bones, are you? They are no different from the ivory comb you use to tidy your hair.’

      I would never be rich enough to own such a comb. I tidied my hair with my fingers.

      ‘It's not that, sir.’ All the other things he had asked of me I was able to do while cleaning or running errands. No one but Cornelia had become suspicious. But grinding things would take time — I could not do it while I was meant to be cleaning the studio, and I could not explain СКАЧАТЬ