The Goldberg Variations. Mark Glanville

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СКАЧАТЬ Hymie Goldberg.’

      The silly, and basically harmless refrain spread across the row behind me, but I’d made them conscious of a usage that came too trippingly off their tongues. Now I’d got it out in the open there was more chance of being able to tackle it. It amused me they’d actually hit on my real name. I turned round.

      ‘Just don’t call someone a Jew if you want to say they’re stingy.’

      Again the refrain.

      ‘Oy, Hymie!’ Alan smiled. ‘Comin’ out to play football?’

      As the pips went for the end of break and the drudgery of geography beckoned, I heard someone call out ‘Nice goal, Hymie!’

      It was Klewer. Twice the size of anyone else in the class, well liked for his friendly, open nature, but considered to be one of the best fighters in the school.

      ‘Shame you ’ave to be so Jewish with the ball, though.’

      I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, so I grinned but he didn’t smile back.

      ‘What’s the matter, Hymie?’

      The rage began to fill my chest. Before me stood the embodiment of the abuse and savagery inflicted on my people for two thousand years, that I heard recounted daily, that had led to Mum’s cousin Theo being gassed at Auschwitz. I spat full in Klewer’s face. I’d never seen him look angry before. He lurched towards me, a big brown bear.

      ‘Fight! Fight!’

      Other boys alerted the ones who hadn’t made it back to the classrooms and I was aware of figures scurrying towards us. My only chance against this giant was to do a Muhammad Ali, so I moved in fast, through his cumbersome blows, and hung over his shoulder, not giving him the chance to swing, reducing his punches to pats and paws. If Klewer broke free I’d be in hospital.

      ‘Come on, Klewer. Smack ’im!’

      ‘Belt ’im!’

      ‘Cam on, ’e’s a wanker!’

      I wondered how long I’d be able to hang on before the crowd’s incitement mixed with his anger would cause the explosion to free him, but the blows began to peter out and eventually we separated. Klewer gave me a cold, unforgiving look.

      ‘You’re lucky!’

      ‘Klewer could’ve killed yer!’

      ‘Yeah! Knock sixteen colours o’ shit aht o’ yer!’

      ‘Finish it later!’

      My passion was spent. I looked at Klewer. He just seemed fed up.

      I couldn’t wait to tell Dad how I’d fought a bigger opponent in defence of my Jewishness.

      ‘Filthy anti-Semitic bastard!’

      ‘He’s not. He’s just ignorant.’

      ‘Is he a Polack?’

      ‘No idea.’

      ‘With a name like Klewer?’

      ‘Could be anything.’

      I didn’t need to forgive Klewer. I could have embraced the boy who’d allowed me to focus my sense of being Jewish so keenly.

      Conversation at the court of King Brian flowed as normal that evening.

      ‘You know what my friend the Irish watchmaker says, “Oi’ve always worked on the principal that every Goy is an anti-Semite, and d’you know what, Brian, Oi’ve never, never been proved wrong.”’

      ‘Oh, Brian,’ Mum sighed. ‘You’re so filled with negativity.’

      ‘Have you heard what happened to Mark today?’ he answered, as if in explanation.

      ‘Yes,’ Mum sighed.

      ‘It’s always there, ready to rear its ugly head. I just thank God for the blacks and the Asians. They’ve taken the heat off us.’

      ‘Visible targets,’ I chimed in.

      ‘That’s right. As long as I don’t show my profile,’ Dad chuckled through his chicken. ‘You know what your godfather says? “Er, nobody knows I’m Jewish, er, until they see me.”’

      We did, but we laughed anyway.

      ‘At least you don’t have that to contend with.’

      ‘What do you mean?’

      ‘Well, you don’t look Jewish.’

      ‘Of course I do.’

      ‘Darling, you don’t.’ Mum’s sweet tone heightened the provocation.

      ‘You should be grateful for that,’ Dad continued.

      ‘For what? I’m not going to hide. They can all know I’m Jewish as far as I’m concerned.’

      ‘But, my dear, you’re not Jewish.’

      ‘What do you mean? Of course I am.’

      ‘By Jewish law you’re not. Your grandmother was the Ethiopian in the fuel supply.’

      Mum chortled.

      ‘Seventy-five per cent of my blood is Jewish. It’s what I am.’

      ‘The wrong seventy-five per cent, schmendrick!’

      ‘And why are you, who never goes near a synagogue, so keen on upholding Jewish law? Only when it suits you, so you can have a go at me, undermine me, take the things I care about away from me.’

      Dad simply sat there laughing, his poultry-filled belly heaving. It was always the same when he was cornered, his last defence. I pushed my chair over and kicked it aside, slamming the glass-panelled door behind me as hard as I could in hope it might break.

      Upstairs I lay on my bed, watched from above by my own Holy Trinity of Best, Law and Charlton, centrepiece of a shrine dedicated to the saints and apostles of Manchester United. Silk and woollen football scarves pinned to the picture-rail framed the altar. Although this wasn’t a great time to be supporting United, that only intensified the passion. To me being a United fan meant suffering, assuming the stigmata of the martyrs who’d died at Munich. I’d been too young to fully appreciate the glorious sixties that culminated in the European Cup triumph of 1968: my most cherished memory was of their winning the National Five-a-Side championship in 1970. Ever since dubious refereeing had disallowed a perfectly good Denis Law goal that would have sent us into the 1969 European Cup Final, the club had been in decline. Watching them on their trips to London was a joyless experience; regularly drubbed at Spurs and Arsenal, usually beaten by Chelsea and QPR, sometimes squeezing a draw at West Ham. Worst of all was the 5–0 thrashing at the hands of co-relegation strugglers Crystal Palace that left me weeping bitterly into my hand-knitted scarf. Ironically, we stayed up while they went down that year, but it СКАЧАТЬ