Young Blood. Hornung Ernest William

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      "Did you not think it good of him to rush from Scotland to meet you and then bring you all the way to your – new – home?"

      "It was almost too good. I would have been happier alone," said Harry, forgetting all else in his bitter remembrance of some speeches Lowndes had made.

      "That is not very grateful, my boy. You little know what he has been to me!"

      "Has he done so much?"

      "Everything – all through! You see what I have saved from the wreck? It was he who went to bid for me at the sale!"

      "You bought them in, mother?"

      "Yes; I could accept nothing from the creditors. That is the one point on which I quarrel with Mr. Lowndes; but we have agreed to differ. Why do you dislike him, Harry?"

      "Mother, don't you know?"

      "I cannot imagine."

      "He thinks the worst – about my father."

      It was the first mention of the father's name. Mrs. Ringrose was silent for many moments.

      "I know he does," she said at length.

      "Then how can you bear the sight of him?" her boy burst out.

      "It is no worse than all the world thinks."

      And Mrs. Ringrose sighed; but now her voice was abnormally calm, as with a grief too great for tears.

      The long May evening had not yet closed in, and in the ensuing silence the cries of children in the street below, and the Last Waltz of Weber from the piano of the flat above, came with equal impertinence through the open windows. Mrs. Ringrose was in the rocking-chair in which she had nursed her only child. Her back was to the light, but she was rocking slowly. Her son stood over her with horror deepening in his face, but hers he could not see, only the white head which two years ago had been hardly grey. He dropped upon his knees and seized her hands; they were cold; and he missed her rings.

      "Mother – mother! You don't think it too?"

      No answer.

      "You do! Oh, mother, how are we to go on living after this? What makes you think it? Quick! has he written to you?"

      Mrs. Ringrose started violently. "Who put that into your head?" she cried out sharply.

      "Nobody. I only wondered if there had been a letter, and I asked Lowndes, but he said you said there had not."

      "Was that not enough for you?"

      "Oh, mother, tell me the truth!"

      The poor lady groaned aloud.

      "God knows I meant to keep it to myself!" she whispered. "And yet – oh, how could I destroy his letter? And I thought you ought to see it – some day – not yet."

      "Mother, I must see it now."

      "You will never breathe it to a soul?"

      "Never without your permission."

      "No one must ever dream I heard one word after he left me!"

      "No one ever shall."

      "I will get the letter."

      His hand was trembling when he took it from her.

      "It was written on the steamer, you see."

      "It may be a forgery," said Harry, in a loud voice that trembled too. Yet there was a ring of real hope in it. He was thinking of Lowndes in the train. He had caught him mopping a wet brow. He had surprised a guilty look – yes, guilty was the word – he had found it at last – in those shifty eyes behind the pince-nez. If villainy should be at the bottom of it all, and Lowndes at the bottom of the villainy!

      If the letter should prove a forgery after all!

      He had it in his hand. He carried it to the failing light. He hardly dared to look at it, but when he did a cry escaped him.

      It was a cry of disappointment and abandoned hope.

      Minutes passed without another sound; then the letter was slowly folded up and restored to its envelope, and dropped into Harry's pocket, before his arms went round his mother's neck.

      "Mother, let me burn it, so that no eyes but ours shall ever see!"

      "Burn it? Burn the last letter I may ever have from him? Give it to me!" And she pressed it to her bosom.

      Harry hung his head in a long and wretched silence.

      "We must forget him, mother," he said at last.

      "Harry, he was a good father to you, he loved you dearly. He was mad when he did what he has done. You must never say that again."

      "I meant we must forget what he has done – "

      "Ah God! if I could!"

      "And only think of him as he used to be."

      "Yes; yes; we will try."

      "It would be easier – don't you think – if we never spoke of this?"

      "We never will, unless we must."

      "Let us think that we just failed like other people. But, mother, I will work all my life to pay off everybody! I will work for you till I drop. Goodness knows what at; but I learnt to work for fun in Africa, I am ready to work in earnest, and, thank God, I have all my life before me."

      "You are twenty-one to-day!"

      "Yes, I start fair in every way."

      "That this should be your twenty-first birthday! My boy – my boy!"

      The long May twilight deepens into night; the many windows of the red-brick block are lit up one by one; and the many lives go on. Below, at the curb, a doctor's brougham and a hansom are waiting end to end; and from that top flat a young couple come scuttling down the stone stairs, he in a crush-hat, she with a flower in her hair, and theirs is the hansom. The flat below has similar tenants, but here the doctor is, and the young man paces his desolate parlour with a ghastly face.

      And in the flat below that it is Weber's Last Waltz once more, and nothing else, by the hour together. And in the flat below that – the flat that would have gone into one room of their old home – Harry Ringrose and his mother are still steeling themselves and one another to face the future and to live down the past.

      The light has been lowered in their front room and transferred for a space to the tiny dining-room at the back, which looks down into the building's well, but now it is the front windows which stand out once more. Twelve o'clock comes, and there is a tinkle of homing hansoms (the brougham has gone away masterless), and the public-house at the corner empties noisily, but the light in those front windows remains the brightest in the mansions. And Weber is done with at last; but the two voices below go on and on and on into the night; nor do they cease when their light shifts yet again into the front bedroom.

      It is two in the morning, and the young couple have come home crumpled from their dance, and their feet drag dreadfully on the stairs, and the doctor has taken СКАЧАТЬ