The Schoolmistress, and Other Stories. Anton Pavlovich Chekhov

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      “I really will go home!” said Vassilyev as he was taking off his coat.

      “Come, come, dear boy,” said the artist, and he kissed him on the neck. “Don’t be tiresome… Gri-gri, be a good comrade! We came together, we will go back together. What a beast you are, really!”

      “I can wait for you in the street. I think it’s loathsome, really!”

      “Come, come, Grisha… If it is loathsome, you can observe it! Do you understand? You can observe!”

      “One must take an objective view of things,” said the medical student gravely.

      Vassilyev went into the drawing-room and sat down. There were a number of visitors in the room besides him and his friends: two infantry officers, a bald, gray-haired gentleman in spectacles, two beardless youths from the institute of land-surveying, and a very tipsy man who looked like an actor. All the young ladies were taken up with these visitors and paid no attention to Vassilyev.

      Only one of them, dressed a la Aida, glanced sideways at him, smiled, and said, yawning: “A dark one has come…”

      Vassilyev’s heart was throbbing and his face burned. He felt ashamed before these visitors of his presence here, and he felt disgusted and miserable. He was tormented by the thought that he, a decent and loving man (such as he had hitherto considered himself), hated these women and felt nothing but repulsion towards them. He felt pity neither for the women nor the musicians nor the flunkeys.

      “It is because I am not trying to understand them,” he thought. “They are all more like animals than human beings, but of course they are human beings all the same, they have souls. One must understand them and then judge…”

      “Grisha, don’t go, wait for us,” the artist shouted to him and disappeared.

      The medical student disappeared soon after.

      “Yes, one must make an effort to understand, one mustn’t be like this…” Vassilyev went on thinking.

      And he began gazing at each of the women with strained attention, looking for a guilty smile. But either he did not know how to read their faces, or not one of these women felt herself to be guilty; he read on every face nothing but a blank expression of everyday vulgar boredom and complacency. Stupid faces, stupid smiles, harsh, stupid voices, insolent movements, and nothing else. Apparently each of them had in the past a romance with an accountant based on underclothes for fifty roubles, and looked for no other charm in the present but coffee, a dinner of three courses, wines, quadrilles, sleeping till two in the afternoon…

      Finding no guilty smile, Vassilyev began to look whether there was not one intelligent face. And his attention was caught by one pale, rather sleepy, exhausted-looking face… It was a dark woman, not very young, wearing a dress covered with spangles; she was sitting in an easy-chair, looking at the floor lost in thought. Vassilyev walked from one corner of the room to the other, and, as though casually, sat down beside her.

      “I must begin with something trivial,” he thought, “and pass to what is serious…”

      “What a pretty dress you have,” and with his finger he touched the gold fringe of her fichu.

      “Oh, is it?..” said the dark woman listlessly.

      “What province do you come from?”

      “I? From a distance… From Tchernigov.”

      “A fine province. It’s nice there.”

      “Any place seems nice when one is not in it.”

      “It’s a pity I cannot describe nature,” thought Vassilyev. “I might touch her by a description of nature in Tchernigov. No doubt she loves the place if she has been born there.”

      “Are you dull here?” he asked.

      “Of course I am dull.”

      “Why don’t you go away from here if you are dull?”

      “Where should I go to? Go begging or what?”

      “Begging would be easier than living here.”

      “How do you know that? Have you begged?”

      “Yes, when I hadn’t the money to study. Even if I hadn’t anyone could understand that. A beggar is anyway a free man, and you are a slave.”

      The dark woman stretched, and watched with sleepy eyes the footman who was bringing a trayful of glasses and seltzer water.

      “Stand me a glass of porter,” she said, and yawned again.

      “Porter,” thought Vassilyev. “And what if your brother or mother walked in at this moment? What would you say? And what would they say? There would be porter then, I imagine…”

      All at once there was the sound of weeping. From the adjoining room, from which the footman had brought the seltzer water, a fair man with a red face and angry eyes ran in quickly. He was followed by the tall, stout “madam,” who was shouting in a shrill voice:

      “Nobody has given you leave to slap girls on the cheeks! We have visitors better than you, and they don’t fight! Impostor!”

      A hubbub arose. Vassilyev was frightened and turned pale. In the next room there was the sound of bitter, genuine weeping, as though of someone insulted. And he realized that there were real people living here who, like people everywhere else, felt insulted, suffered, wept, and cried for help. The feeling of oppressive hate and disgust gave way to an acute feeling of pity and anger against the aggressor. He rushed into the room where there was weeping. Across rows of bottles on a marble-top table he distinguished a suffering face, wet with tears, stretched out his hands towards that face, took a step towards the table, but at once drew back in horror. The weeping girl was drunk.

      As he made his way though the noisy crowd gathered about the fair man, his heart sank and he felt frightened like a child; and it seemed to him that in this alien, incomprehensible world people wanted to pursue him, to beat him, to pelt him with filthy words… He tore down his coat from the hatstand and ran headlong downstairs.

      V

      Leaning against the fence, he stood near the house waiting for his friends to come out. The sounds of the pianos and violins, gay, reckless, insolent, and mournful, mingled in the air in a sort of chaos, and this tangle of sounds seemed again like an unseen orchestra tuning up on the roofs. If one looked upwards into the darkness, the black background was all spangled with white, moving spots: it was snow falling. As the snowflakes came into the light they floated round lazily in the air like down, and still more lazily fell to the ground. The snowflakes whirled thickly round Vassilyev and hung upon his beard, his eyelashes, his eyebrows… The cabmen, the horses, and the passers-by were white.

      “And how can the snow fall in this street!” thought Vassilyev. “Damnation take these houses!”

      His legs seemed to be giving way from fatigue, simply from having run down the stairs; he gasped for breath as though he had been climbing uphill, his heart beat so loudly that he could hear it. He was consumed by a desire to get out of the street as quickly as possible and to go home, but even stronger was his desire СКАЧАТЬ