Creatures of Passage. Morowa Yejidé

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      * * *

      Nephthys pulled up in front of the Ebbitt and stopped, the Plymouth idling softly.

      The colonel’s wife got out of her car and locked it and came over and slid into the backseat. She handed Nephthys a crisp one-hundred-dollar bill, a small fortune she felt worth paying for the important task at hand, for she was uncomfortable with boarding a bus, where everywhere she turned there seemed to be eyes questioning her reason for being there. Nor did she want to catch cabdrivers stealing looks at her through the rearview mirror in judgment of where she asked them to take her. So it was no surprise that the colonel’s wife thought it fitting to ride to Anacostia in the safety of Nephthys Kinwell’s Plymouth to see her son in one of the psychiatric wings of St. Elizabeths Hospital. It was where she and her husband had him committed six years before, so that their neighbors and the rest of the family could go on thinking he was studying medicine in Europe. Many years later, another son of privilege would make his own living film by attempting to assassinate a movie-acting king, but instead end up entombed in the same walls as her own son. And like other mothers who crossed into that wild realm of the southeast quadrant, each time the colonel’s wife entered St. Elizabeths she left a piece of herself there.

      The white girl in the trunk rattled the crank of a broken car jack and Nephthys pulled off.

      “Morning, Neph,” said the colonel’s wife. She’d never been able to pronounce that peculiar name in all its fullness—Nephthys Kinwell—and they’d agreed without ever saying aloud that the abbreviated “Neph” was acceptable to each of them for different reasons.

      “Mornin’ it is,” said Nephthys.

      They rode on, pausing for motorcades and funeral processions and pulling over so that fire trucks could pass. In the usual silence that ensued, the colonel’s wife listened to the bump scrape tap of the white girl in the trunk, thinking about what such dark lingering could mean or not mean. For she made her clandestine trips to St. Elizabeths not only to see about the well-being of her son, but to also see how close he was to death. She thought about death more often as she grew older, as the reality of not having any grandchildren settled into the foundation of her opulent colonial home. But more than her own fatal musings, she thought about her son’s ravings. On her last visit, he spoke of the long conversations he had with Death when it came to his room in a black robe and sat by his bed. And he talked matter-of-factly about the five ways that Death told him creatures of passage die:

      1. Moving through spaces

      2. Staying in one place

      3. Resigning life to another

      4. Surrendering one’s life

      5. Entering the Void

      Her son confessed to her that he knew the last one well, since the Void called to him through the expanding kilometers of his madness long before he strangled his girlfriend to death. And he was certain that the Void would obliterate him on his thirtieth birthday. The colonel’s wife was terrified and intrigued by the things her son said to her, and in her long, empty days in the catacombs of the family mansion, she read books on the mysticism of astrological patterns and tarot readings of death and theories of the afterlife.

      So it was no surprise that the colonel’s wife made a point to pick up a copy of the Afro Man newspaper in the lobby of St. Elizabeths on her last visit, for she’d heard that the Lottery section was all about death and who was next. And it was through the guarded conversations she’d had with the orderlies who checked her purse for weapons and contraband that she discovered the Lottery had been in print for over ten years, and that its author was Nephthys Kinwell’s niece.

      * * *

      They waited at a stoplight, listening to the Plymouth’s engine clack and the white girl in the trunk drum the spare tire. A man standing on the corner was humming a popular song to himself, and when he saw the unmistakable Plymouth he stopped and walked the other way. The light turned green and Nephthys pulled off.

      The colonel’s wife watched Nephthys take sips from her flask, never worrying about her ability to drive. But sometimes she paused at other things about her, like the curious lilt in her voice. Not quite Southern. Not quite Caribbean. “Where are you from?”

      “Sea Islands.”

      “Oh?”

      “Uh-huh. My people were Gullah.”

      “What?’

      “Gullah.”

      “Gullah …” said the colonel’s wife, baffled. “And your name, what’s the origin?”

      Nephthys shrugged. “Don’t know the whole story.”

      Because the truth was that the twins were named by a butler on the old Sea Island plantation where their parents had been employed as servants. The butler was an ageless man brought to the island on a pirate ship as a child, his own given name and lineage long lost. And in accordance with the dark irony with which creatures of passage live, his ancestors and descendants were folded into the pages of time, hidden as they were in the convoluted bloodlines that land conquest and slave auctions and breeding rapes brought. For unbeknownst to the butler, he was both a descendant of the Ethiopic scribes of Geez and a distant Kinwell forefather. And he had secretly taught himself to read and write without ever understanding his burning need to do so, nor why he knew the gravity of names. So it was no surprise that when he’d heard about the birth of twins holding hands—that their fingers were fused at the tip—he snuck into the parlor where the plantation owner’s old African expedition letters were kept, for there he knew he would find the requisite signs omens bones. He sifted through them until he was obliged to write two names down on a scrap of paper, his own kind of papyrus: Osiris and Nephthys. And in the naming of the Kinwell twins, he satisfied his ancient urge to scribe something on the wall of being that was undiminished, everlasting.

      But Nephthys had no way of knowing about the butler’s indelible hand as she drove through the streets of the quadrants with the colonel’s wife in her car. What she knew was that her mother told her that the old plantation owner liked to say that niggers came from a place called Nowhere, and in that place there was nothing, because what made them and the things that they made held no value at all. That they had no part in the treasures of a dark continent, being just animals among many in the kingdoms of those lands. And her mother had said that the butler told her this was not true.

      Nephthys turned onto the bridge and looked at the colonel’s wife in the rearview mirror. “From wuh I know, a man from the old days gave my mother the name.”

      “Oh.” The colonel’s wife would have liked to talk more about that, outlandish as it sounded, for their exchanges were without praise or scorn. But she had a more pressing question. “I heard that the woman who does the Lottery is your niece. Amber Kinwell, right?”

      Nephthys reached for her flask, bracing as if a box had been opened that she preferred to keep closed.

      “Such a gift.”

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