Poems by Currer, Ellis, and Acton Bell. Anne Bronte

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СКАЧАТЬ I, who so long my fettered hands have wrung;

       ​I, who for grief have wept my eye-sight dim;

       Because, while life for me was bright and young,

       He robbed my youth—­he quenched my life's fair ray—

       He crushed my mind, and did my freedom slay.

       And at this hour—­although I be his wife—

       He has no more of tenderness from me

       Than any other wretch of guilty life;

       Less, for I know his household privacy—

       I see him as he is—­without a screen;

       And, by the gods, my soul abhors his mien!

       Has he not sought my presence, dyed in blood—

       Innocent, righteous blood, shed shamelessly?

       And have I not his red salute withstood?

       Aye,—­when, as erst, he plunged all Galilee

       In dark bereavement—­in affliction sore,

       Mingling their very offerings with their gore.

       Then came he—­in his eyes a serpent-smile,

       Upon his lips some false, endearing word,

       And, through the streets of Salem, clanged the while,

       His slaughtering, hacking, sacrilegious sword—

       And I, to see a man cause men such woe,

       Trembled with ire—­I did not fear to show.

       And now, the envious Jewish priests have brought

       Jesus—­whom they in mockery call their king—

       ​To have, by this grim power, their vengeance wrought;

       By this mean reptile, innocence to sting.

       Oh! could I but the purposed doom avert,

       And shield the blameless head from cruel hurt!

       Accessible is Pilate's heart to fear,

       Omens will shake his soul, like autumn leaf;

       Could he this night's appalling vision hear,

       This just man's bonds were loosed, his life were safe,

       Unless that bitter priesthood should prevail,

       And make even terror to their malice quail.

       Yet if I tell the dream—­but let me pause.

       What dream? Erewhile the characters were clear,

       Graved on my brain—­at once some unknown cause

       Has dimmed and rased the thoughts, which now appear,

       Like a vague remnant of some by-past scene;—

       Not what will be, but what, long since, has been.

       I suffered many things, I heard foretold

       A dreadful doom for Pilate,­—lingering woes,

       In far, barbarian climes, where mountains cold

       Built up a solitude of trackless snows,

       There, he and grisly wolves prowled side by side,

       There he lived famished—­there methought he died;

       But not of hunger, nor by malady;

       I saw the snow around him, stained with gore;

       ​I said I had no tears for such as he,

       And, lo! my cheek is wet—­mine eyes run o'er;

       I weep for mortal suffering, mortal guilt,

       I weep the impious deed—­the blood self-spilt.

       More I recall not, yet the vision spread

       Into a world remote, an age to come—

       And still the illumined name of Jesus shed

       A light, a clearness, through the enfolding gloom—

       And still I saw that sign, which now I see,

       That cross on yonder brow of Calvary.

       What is this Hebrew Christ? To me unknown,

       His lineage—­doctrine—­mission—­yet how clear,

       Is God-like goodness, in his actions shewn!

       How straight and stainless is his life's career!

       The ray of Deity that rests on him,

       In my eyes makes Olympian glory dim.

       The world advances, Greek, or Roman rite

       Suffices not the inquiring mind to stay;

       The searching soul demands a purer light

       To guide it on its upward, onward way;

       Ashamed of sculptured gods—­Religion turns

       To where the unseen Jehovah's altar burns.

       Our faith is rotten—­all our rites defiled,

       Our temples sullied, and methinks, this man,

       With his new ordinance, so wise and mild,

       Is come, even as he says, the chaff to fan

       ​And sever from the wheat; but will his faith

       Survive the terrors of to-morrow's death?

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      I feel a firmer trust—­a higher hope

       Rise in my soul—­it dawns with dawning day;

       Lo! on the Temple's roof—­on Moriah's slope

       Appears at length that clear, and crimson ray,

       Which I so wished for when shut in by night;

       Oh, opening skies, I hail, I bless your light!

       Part, clouds and shadows! glorious Sun appear!

       Part, mental gloom! Come insight from on high!

       Dusk dawn in heaven still strives with daylight clear,

       The longing soul, СКАЧАТЬ