Шоколад / Chocolat. Джоанн Харрис
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Название: Шоколад / Chocolat
Автор: Джоанн Харрис
Издательство: Эксмо
Жанр: Современная зарубежная литература
Серия: Билингва Bestseller
isbn: 978-5-04-117086-8
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“Paul-Marie was furious.” The stern note in her voice was almost admiration. “You should have heard the things he was saying.”
I laughed.
“Fortunately I don’t have to listen to anything Paul-Marie has to say,” I told her blandly.
“Now I’m not supposed to talk to you any more,” she went on. “He thinks you’re a bad influence.” A pause, as she looked at me with nervous curiosity. “He doesn’t want me to have friends,” she added.
“Seems to me I’m hearing rather too much about what Paul-Marie wants,” I said mildly. “I’m not really all that interested in him. Now you-” I touched her arm fleetingly. “I find you quite interesting.”
She flushed and looked away, as if expecting to find someone standing at her shoulder.
“You don’t understand,” she muttered.
“I think I do.” With my fingertips I touched the scarf which hid her face. “Why do you wear this?” I asked abruptly. “Do you want to tell me?”
She looked at me in hope and panic. Shook her head. I pulled gently at the scarf.
“You’re pretty,” I said as it came loose. “You could be beautiful.”
There was a fresh bruise just beneath her lower lip, bluish in the failing light. She opened her mouth for the automatic lie. I interrupted her.
“That’s not true,” I said.
“How can you know that?” Her voice was sharp. “I hadn’t even said?”
“You didn’t have to.”
Silence. Across the water a flute scattered bright notes among the drumbeats. When she spoke at last her voice was thick with self-loathing. “It’s stupid, isn’t it?” Her eyes were tiny crescents. “I never blame him. Not really. Sometimes I even forget what really happened.” She took a deep breath, like a diver going under. “Walking into doors. Falling downstairs. St-stepping on rakes.” She sounded close to laughter. I could hear hysteria bubbling beneath the surface of her words. “Accident-prone, that’s what he says I am. Accident-prone.”
“Why was it this time?” I asked gently. “Was it because of the river people?”
She nodded.
“They didn’t mean any harm. I was going to serve them.” Her voice rose shrilly for a second. “I don’t see why I should have to do what that bitch Clairmont wants all the time! Oh we must stand together,” she mimicked savagely. “For the sake of the community. For our children, Madame Muscat”– breaking back into her own voice with a stricken intake of breath – “when in normal circumstances she wouldn’t say hello to me in the street – wouldn’t give me steam off her shit!” She took another deep breath, controlling the outburst with an effort. “It’s always Caro this, Caro that. I’ve seen the way he looks at her in church. Why can’t you be like Caro Clairmont?” Now she was her husband, his voice thick with beery rage. She even managed his mannerisms, the thrust-out chin, the strutting, aggressive posture. “She makes you look like a clumsy sow. She’s got style. Class. She’s got a fine son doing well at school. And what have you got, he?”
“Josephine.”
She turned towards me with a stricken expression.
“I’m sorry. For a moment I almost forgot where?”
“I know.”
I could feel rage pricking at my thumbs.
“You must think I’m stupid to have stayed with him all these years.”
Her voice was dull, her eyes dark and resentful.
“No, I don’t.”
She ignored my reply. “Well I am,” she declared. “Stupid and weak. I don’t love him – can’t remember a time when I ever loved him – but when I think of actually leaving him-” She broke off in confusion. “Actually leaving him,” she repeated in a low, wondering voice. “No. It’s no use.” She looked up at me again and her face was closed, final. “That’s why I can’t talk to you again,” she told me in calm desperation. “I couldn’t leave you guessing – you deserve better than that. But this is how it has to be.”
“No,” I told her. “It doesn’t.”
“But it does.” She defends herself bitterly, desperately, against the possibility of comfort. “Can’t you see? I’m no good. I steal. I lied to you before. I steal things. I do it all the time!”
Gently: “Yes. I know.” The clear realization turns quietly between us like a Christmas bauble. “Things can be better,” I told her at last. “Paul-Marie doesn’t rule the world.”
“He might as well,” retorted Josephine mulishly.
I smiled. If that stubbornness of hers could be turned out instead of in, what could she not achieve? I could do it, too. I could feel her thoughts, so close, welcoming me in. It would be so easy to take control… I turned the thought aside impatiently. I had no right to force her to any decision.
“Before, you had no-one to go to,” I said. “Now you do.”
“Do I?”
In her mouth, it was almost an admission of defeat.
I did not reply. Let her answer that for herself.
She looked at me in silence for a while. Her eyes were full of river lights from Les Marauds. Again it struck me, with what small a twist she might become beautiful.
“Goodnight, Josephine.”
I did not turn to look at her, but I know she watched me as I made my way up the hill, and I know she stood watching long after I had rounded the corner and disappeared from sight.
15
Tuesday, February 25
Still more of this interminable rain. It falls like A piece of the sky upended to pour misery onto the aquarium life below. The children, bright plastic ducks in their waterproofs and boots, squawk and waddle across the square, their cries ricocheting off the low clouds. I work in the kitchen with half an eye to the children in the street. This morning I unmade the window display, the witch, the gingerbread house and all the chocolate animals sitting around watching with glossy expectant faces, and Anouk and her friends shared the pieces between excursions into the rainy backwaters of Les Marauds. Jeannot Drou watched me in the kitchen, a piece of gilded pain d’epices in each hand, eyes shining. Anouk stood behind him, the others behind her, a wall of eyes and whisperings.
“What next?” He has the voice of an older boy, an air of casual bravado and a smear of chocolate across the chin. “What are you doing next? For the display?”
I shrugged. “Secret,” I said, stirring creme de cacao into an enamel basin of melted couverture.
“No, really.” He insists. “You ought СКАЧАТЬ