Great Expectations. Charles Dickens

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      "Pip, ma'am."

      "Pip?"

      "Mr. Pumblechook's boy, ma'am. Come—to play."

      "Come nearer; let me look at you. Come close."

      It was when I stood before her, avoiding her eyes, that I took note of the surrounding objects in detail, and saw that her watch had stopped at twenty minutes to nine, and that a clock in the room had stopped at twenty minutes to nine.

      "Look at me," said Miss Havisham. "You are not afraid of a woman who has never seen the sun since you were born?"

      I regret to state that I was not afraid of telling the enormous lie comprehended in the answer "No."

      "Do you know what I touch here?" she said, laying her hands, one upon the other, on her left side.

      "Yes, ma'am." (It made me think of the young man.)

      "What do I touch?"

      "Your heart."

      "Broken!"

      ​She uttered the word with an eager look, and with strong emphasis, and with a weird smile that had a kind of boast in it. Afterwards, she kept her hands there for a little while, and slowly took them away as if they were heavy.

      "I am tired," said Miss Havisham. "I want diversion, and I have done with men and women. Play."

      I think it will be conceded by my most disputatious reader, that she could hardly have directed an unfortunate boy to do anything in the wide world more difficult to be done under the circumstances.

      "I sometimes have sick fancies," she went on, "and I have a sick fancy that I want to see some play. There, there!" with an impatient movement of the fingers of her right hand; "play, play, play!"

      For a moment, with the fear of my sister's working me before my eyes, I had a desperate idea of starting round the room in the assumed character of Mr. Pumblechook's chaise-cart. But, I felt myself so unequal to the performance that I gave it up, and stood looking at Miss Havisham in what I suppose she took for a dogged manner, inasmuch as she said, when we had taken a good look at each other:

      "Are you sullen and obstinate?"

      "No, ma'am, I am very sorry for you, and very sorry I can't play just now. If you complain of me I shall get into trouble with my sister, so I would do it if I could; but it's so new here, and so strange, and so fine—and melancholy——" I stopped, fearing I might say too much, or had already said it, and we took another look at each other.

      Before she spoke again, she turned her eyes from me, and looked at the dress she wore, and at the dressing-table, and finally at herself in the looking-glass.

      "So new to him," she muttered, "so old to me; so strange to him, so familiar to me; so melancholy to both of us! Call Estella."

      As she was still looking at the reflection of herself, I thought she was still talking to herself, and kept quiet.

      "Call Estella," she repeated, flashing a look at me. "You can do that. Call Estella. At the door."

      ​To stand in the dark in a mysterious passage of an unknown house, bawling Estella to a scornful young lady neither visible nor responsive, and feeling it a dreadful liberty so to roar out her name, was almost as bad as playing to order. But, she answered at last, and her light came along the dark passage like a star.

      Miss Havisham beckoned her to come close, and took up a jewel from the table, and tried its effect upon her fair young bosom and against her pretty brown hair.

      "Your own, one day, my dear, and you will use it well. Let me see you play cards with this boy."

      "With this boy! Why, he is a common labouring-boy!"

      I thought I overheard Miss Havisham answer—only it seemed so unlikely—"Well? You can break his heart."

      "What do you play, boy?" asked Estella of myself, with the greatest disdain.

      "Nothing but beggar my neighbour, miss."

      "Beggar him, " said Miss Havisham to Estella. So we sat down to cards.

      It was then I began to understand that everything in the room had stopped, like the watch and the clock, a long time ago. I noticed that Miss Havisham put down the jewel exactly on the spot from which she had taken it up. As Estella dealt the cards, I glanced at the dressing-table again, and saw that the shoe upon it, once white, now yellow, had never been worn. I glanced down at the foot from which the shoe was absent, and saw that the silk stocking on it, once white, now yellow, had been trodden ragged. Without this arrest of everything, this standing still of all the pale decayed objects, not even the withered bridal dress on the collapsed form could have looked so like grave-clothes, or the long veil so like a shroud.

      So she sat, corpse-like, as we played at cards; the frillings and trimmings on her bridal dress, looking like earthy paper. I knew nothing then of the discoveries that are occasionally made of bodies buried in ancient times, which fall to powder in the moment of being distinctly seen; but, I have often thought since, that she must have looked as if ​the admission of the natural light of day would have struck her to dust.

      "He calls the knaves, Jacks, this boy!" said Estella with disdain, before our first game was out. "And what coarse hands he has! And what thick boots!"

      I had never thought of being ashamed of my hands before; but I began to consider them a very indifferent pair. Her contempt for me was so strong, that it became infectious, and I caught it.

      She won the game, and I dealt. I misdealt, as was only natural, when I knew she was lying in wait for me to do wrong; and she denounced me for a stupid, clumsy labouring-boy.

      "You say nothing of her," remarked Miss Havisham to me, as she looked on. "She says many hard things of you, yet you say nothing of her. What do you think of her?"

      "I don't like to say," I stammered.

      "Tell me in my ear," said Miss Havisham, bending down.

      "I think she is very proud," I replied, in a whisper.

      "Anything else?"

      "I think she is very pretty."

      "Anything else?"

      "I think she is very insulting." (She was looking at me then with a look of supreme aversion.)

      "Anything else?"

      "I think I should like to go home."

      "And never see her again, though she is so pretty?"

      "I am not sure that I shouldn't like to see her again, but I should like to go home now."

      "You shall go soon," said Miss Havisham aloud. "Play the game out."

      Saving for the one weird smile at first, I should have felt almost sure that Miss Havisham's face could not smile. It had dropped into a watchful and brooding expression—most likely СКАЧАТЬ