Complete Works. Rabindranath Tagore

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СКАЧАТЬ priceless wealth is in thee, and that thou art my best friend, but I have not the heart to sweep away the tinsel that fills my room

      The shroud that covers me is a shroud of dust and death; I hate it, yet hug it in love.

      My debts are large, my failures great, my shame secret and heavy; yet when I come to ask for my good, I quake in fear lest my prayer be granted.

      He whom I enclose with my name is weeping in this dungeon. I am ever busy building this wall all around; and as this wall goes up into the sky day by day I lose sight of my true being in its dark shadow.

      I take pride in this great wall, and I plaster it with dust and sand lest a least hole should be left in this name; and for all the care I take I lose sight of my true being.

      I came out alone on my way to my tryst. But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

      I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

      He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger; he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

      He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame; but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.

      ‘Prisoner, tell me, who was it that bound you?’

      ‘It was my master,’ said the prisoner. ‘I thought I could outdo everybody in the world in wealth and power, and I amassed in my own treasure-house the money due to my king. When sleep overcame me I lay upon the bed that was for my lord, and on waking up I found I was a prisoner in my own treasure-house.’

      ‘Prisoner, tell me, who was it that wrought this unbreakable chain?’

      ‘It was I,’ said the prisoner, ‘who forged this chain very carefully. I thought my invincible power would hold the world captive leaving me in a freedom undisturbed. Thus night and day I worked at the chain with huge fires and cruel hard strokes. When at last the work was done and the links were complete and unbreakable, I found that it held me in its grip.’

      By all means they try to hold me secure who love me in this world. But it is otherwise with thy love which is greater than theirs, and thou keepest me free.

      Lest I forget them they never venture to leave me alone. But day passes by after day and thou art not seen.

      If I call not thee in my prayers, if I keep not thee in my heart, thy love for me still waits for my love.

      When it was day they came into my house and said, ‘We shall only take the smallest room here.’

      They said, ‘We shall help you in the worship of your God and humbly accept only our own share in his grace’; and then they took their seat in a corner and they sat quiet and meek.

      But in the darkness of night I find they break into my sacred shrine, strong and turbulent, and snatch with unholy greed the offerings from God’s altar.

      Let only that little be left of me whereby I may name thee my all.

      Let only that little be left of my will whereby I may feel thee on every side, and come to thee in everything, and offer to thee my love every moment.

      Let only that little be left of me whereby I may never hide thee.

      Let only that little of my fetters be left whereby I am bound with thy will, and thy purpose is carried out in my life — and that is the fetter of thy love.

      Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;

      Where knowledge is free;

      Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls;

      Where words come out from the depth of truth;

      Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;

      Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;

      Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought and action —

      Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.

      This is my prayer to thee, my lord — strike, strike at the root of penury in my heart.

      Give me the strength lightly to bear my joys and sorrows.

      Give me the strength to make my love fruitful in service.

      Give me the strength never to disown the poor or bend my knees before insolent might.

      Give me the strength to raise my mind high above daily trifles.

      And give me the strength to surrender my strength to thy will with love.

      I thought that my voyage had come to its end at the last limit of my power, — that the path before me was closed, that provisions were exhausted and the time come to take shelter in a silent obscurity.

      But I find that thy will knows no end in me. And when old words die out on the tongue, new melodies break forth from the heart; and where the old tracks are lost, new country is revealed with its wonders.

      That I want thee, only thee — let my heart repeat without end. All desires that distract me, day and night, are false and empty to the core.

      As the night keeps hidden in its gloom the petition for light, even thus in the depth of my unconsciousness rings the cry — ‘I want thee, only thee’.

      As the storm still seeks its end in peace when it strikes against peace with all its might, even thus my rebellion strikes against thy love and still its cry is — ‘I want thee, only thee’.

      When the heart is hard and parched up, come upon me with a shower of mercy.

      When grace is lost from life, come with a burst of song.

      When tumultuous work raises its din on all sides shutting me out from beyond, come to me, my lord of silence, with thy peace and rest.

      When my beggarly heart sits crouched, shut up in a corner, break open the door, my king, and come with the ceremony of a king.

      When desire blinds the mind with delusion and dust, O thou holy one, thou wakeful, come with thy light and thy thunder.

      The rain has held back for days and days, my God, in my arid heart. The horizon is fiercely naked — not the thinnest cover of a soft cloud, not the vaguest hint of a distant cool shower.

      Send thy angry storm, dark with death, if it is thy wish, and with lashes of lightning startle the sky from end to end.

      But call back, my lord, call back this pervading silent heat, still and keen and cruel, burning the heart with dire despair.

      Let the cloud of grace bend low from above like the tearful look of the mother on the day of the father’s wrath.

      Where dost thou stand behind them all, my lover, hiding thyself in the shadows? They push thee and pass thee by on the dusty road, taking thee for naught. I wait here weary hours spreading my offerings for thee, while passers-by come and take my СКАЧАТЬ